• The Dark Side 💕 Welcome Guest 💕
    Posting Rules Bluelight Rules
    Notable Threads Urgent Hotlines
    Bereavement Mindfulness
    Suicide Support Anger Management
  • TDS Moderators: AlphaMethylPhenyl | paranoid android

Have drugs stopped me from writing lyrics?

DruMDMAndBass

DruMDMAndBass

Greenlighter
Joined
Jun 14, 2010
Messages
43
Location
The Tardis
I'm 19, i love hip hop and drum and bass. I love writing lyrics to both of these genres, but it seems over the last year, i cant seem to write. I get constant writers block and seem to just 'zone out' and stare into space, with nothing creative or decent popping into my mind.

For the last 2 years i have 'got on it' every weekend, pretty much without fail.

When MDMA and pills were ripe i would do 1.0g or more of MDMA a night on the weekend, or eat through 10+ pills.

I have done acid about 12 times over the last 2 years, with the highest dose being 3 and a half trips in one go. I feel like it may be the LSD which is halting my brain. I did LSD for the 1st time in ages at a free party on the weekend.

I have also abused mephedrone, i know this is disgusting but i have got through about 10g to myself in some sessions when i was paying silly prices for it (£3 - £4 a g)

I have been using mephedrone every weekend for about a year, and there was about a month where i was hooked on it every day. I have also smoked weed for about 3 years pretty constant, although i have slowed down now because it gives me anxiety and makes me worry about things that i dont usually worry about when im sober i.e work or girl problems.

When i go to write lyrics my brain feels like a car on a winter morning when it just judders and chokes and wont fire up. I used to write lyrics quite fluently and its so frustrating when i cant write. I used to be able to write verse after verse and now it takes me litterally an hour to write 4 bars (lines). My mind just seems to be blank.

Do you think that it is because ive abused drugs for 2 years straight that i cannot seem to write in the same way, have drugs in someway killed my creativity and triain of thought?

I would be interested in your opinions, tips, or any advice you can offer.

I would also like to hear if anyone has similar problems.

Thanks :)
 
Ive also ploughed through quite alot of ketamine, cocaine, done shrooms a few times.. Erm, done MDPV, NOS, all the common drugs, ive pretty much done!..
 
drugs have inspired and ruined many artists, it comes with the territory; their bait to the trap where more is needed to bring the same inspiration.

the devastation of drugs is awfully inspiring in its self, and easily communicated, and placed as an analogy towards many of the trials of life.

i dj' d DnB, with another dj, four turntables, and usually two mc's, pretty successfully. i know the energy that explodes in front of an energetic crowd, there is nothing like it. it sucks seeing people whacked out on the filthy floor, doing who knows what heading who knows where.

if you do "play out", or are aspiring to, you now have this unwanted disturbing angst, imprinted in you, affecting you for now... maybe you can beat & brake this, wishing to touch others feeling that way also, the power of music, and words is mighty mighty.

you have the gift of words and music, you know now how drugs can take this away. this is damn inspiring, to use as a tool to reach the listener, or most importantly as a tool to stop the unwanted pain in your life, and gain control over your thoughts and theirs.


REWIIIND!
 
yeah, i abused grams and grams of molly in large quantities and i just tried writing for the first time in 9 months. i made a great chord progression and picking but lyrics? nothing. and i have so much to say just no words

my playing improved. when I was doing drugs I couldn't play for shit but now that I'm not my playing has come right back. i'm hoping my writing will, my songs would be so much better I think than before. just got to keep writing i guess
 
ahh, let me tell you ever since i have been abusing drugs i have gotten better, i used to write lyrics alot,but ever since ive been doin hella drugs..like getting in my comfort zone, i have been spittin ill freestyles. i havnt touched a pen in a year withought freestyling the whole verse first..i the writing lyrics prosses to me...is just like upgrading your freestyle.

yeah the drugz im on affect when i spit...but i can still do it....i find that my drug of choice to rap on is klonopin...to me its like alchohal(hell yeah i feel like i drank half gallan of black velvit to myself withought the puking with the usual 15-20mg dose) whats your lyrical drug, im curiouse.
 
trying to write music is frustrating, playing, writing, sketching, and getting lost in thought, thats when truly expressive art is made.
when this happens for me, i dont write it down, the stuff i remember is what is worth keeping.

i have heard it said a few times, and do experience this; a real writer, reads more then he writes.
 
the thing with being an artist is you have to find your own inspiration, no one can answer this for you, I've written great songs on opiates, I've written horrible songs on opiates .... sometimes drugs help and sometimes they don't, but this is my experience with my creativity that I've found through my own experience.

if drugs aren't doing it for you at the moment try something else, the problem with drugs and music usually come up when people start making drugs a bigger priority than music..... some people need to fall to the bottom to write their greatest songs, others need to do the opposite, it's art, it's your experience, there is no text book answer. you have to find the answers in your self. find what inspires you the most and go from there.

there's an interesting book called Van Gogh and The Blues that deals with this subject, it's really interesting, it doesn't give you any specific answers either, just makes you think about things differently.
 
I truly truly believe that the drugs are effecting your writing ability.

I have the experience to guess....

I grew up on soft drugs like pot and beer. Had too much acid one night in high school so I stayed away from most drugs my entire 20's except for the occaisional Mushroom experience, sometimes up to 2 Shroom trips a month when things were rockin'.
I was a lyric writing MACHINE!! Oh my goodness...I would stay up all night on some booze and weed with my buddy and we would write our hearts out....I wrote in journals for years and years. Flowing with words. Lots of coffee, too!

When I turned about 28, I started using MDMA once or twice a year, and was very inspired by it, and continued to write, although my interests were changing to a degree and I started having a lot of fun in the music community in other ways, and I just got more social so less time for writing lyrics.

But then I got into MDMA pretty heavily, and also pain killer abuse for about 4 years and I pretty much put the pen down.

Not saying MDMA isnt inspiring, it can be in small doses in rarer times. When I was doing it only a few times I year I got a LOT out of it. But when I started doing it one a month- once every 2 weeks, things got a little foggy and I spent much too much time doing silly mind numbing things and less creativity for sure. In a way it inspired my creativity, but I didnt have the energy or MOJO to actually DO something with it. E-tardation, IMO.

I quit the pain killers over a year ago and that helped a lot, but continued to use MDMA a bit too frequently...Since the start of the year I have cut down on my MDMA use significantly and dont eat opiates anymore, and WOW, the pen is flowing again.....I am much more in touch with my writing than I have been in years.

White drugs, man....they are short cuts. We dont learn as much in short cuts. A drug like Mushrooms or Acid is the Long Road, white drugs are the short road. Long bus/short bus. You get the point.....
This is just all my opinion. I hope it helps a bit.
 
ALSO, just a side note, my heavy bout with MDMA and pain pills also killed my enjoyment and medicinal qualities of Cannabis, which was a REAL BUMMER! Pot started to make me feel paranoid. I thought I was just getting old and tired of it (too bad because it helps my back pain more than the pain pills did) but come to find out it was the other drugs interfering with the cannabis effects, and every time I smoked pot I felt guilty feelings of using too much.
Not anymore.....now I'm puffing a few times a week and it doesnt give me the "weirds".
 
I would think that in general heavy drug use will have the effect of closing one's mind rather than opening it. You've seen yourself the difference between doing E a few times a year and doing it every 2 weeks. Your relationship to the substance plays a large role in the effect it has on you.

Everything gets suppressed together. If drugs are being used to run away from how we feel, then we will also be losing the positive feelings and insight that are otherwise accessible to us. I'm not saying that this is what you are doing, I am only trying to illustrate my point.
 
I have had many friends who have used (and abused) MDMA. It seems that almost every single one of them is a different person today than they used to be.

I think that MDMA use can change the way you think or act about a lot of things.

And yes, using drugs definitely can alter (or stupor) your ability to be creative (ie. writing, music, singing.) If you wish to make music, my only suggestion would be to lay back on the drugs (especially the harder ons).
 
dude since starting serious narcotics I've just watched my fully functional midi chained analogue production studio gather dust... I start NA next week and seriously the primary reason is to get my ass in gear producing music again,, I know I've got the potential to make the kinda tunes I'd be fuckin proud of,, previous unfinished tracks tell me I can do this but at the moment I just get home from part time work / claw my way through a distance learning course and hit the opiates. Whether it be Dihydrocodeine, Tramadols, Poppy pods or more than likely a combo/ all of them there aint shit being done,, which is fuckin crazy because I could just literally plug it all on and come up with something in minutes! I've also lost the enthusiasm in going to the gym,, it all takes second place to getting on the nod (if I'm lucky).

I've managed to keep a creative fictionalised blog I hope I can look back on and take inspiration from but basically even though I'm full of ideas the drugs are keeping my music being heard,, even if thats only by me.. This shit sucks- and as I dont have a family / girlfriend me seeking treatment is pretty much solely to do with the drugs just totally taking away my creativity.. It's a bit of a paradox though as the drugs blot out feeling bad about my past,, and the thought of really getting clean and chanelling those emotions through music kinda scares me sometimes,, at least in lyrical form,, so I'm sticking with creating a fictionalised take on it all in writing rather than lyrics for the moment - but I know I've gotta have the bollocks to do it clean, despite all the stories linking opiates and musicians,, sadly I aint fortunate enough to be doing both at once so I'm giving Narcotics Anonymous a go- and DruMNbaSS trust me its only recently been the downers,, but I've noticed even when I was a stimulant/psychedelics fan they did very little for my musical drive,,, and I'm sure you've heard it before but with music it really is 10% talent and 90% perseverance and drive.. Best of luck to ya
 
originalpillpopper said:
ahh, let me tell you ever since i have been abusing drugs i have gotten better, i used to write lyrics alot,but ever since ive been doin hella drugs..like getting in my comfort zone, i have been spittin ill freestyles. i havnt touched a pen in a year withought freestyling the whole verse first..i the writing lyrics prosses to me...is just like upgrading your freestyle.

yeah the drugz im on affect when i spit...but i can still do it....i find that my drug of choice to rap on is klonopin...to me its like alchohal(hell yeah i feel like i drank half gallan of black velvit to myself withought the puking with the usual 15-20mg dose) whats your lyrical drug, im curiouse.
Click to expand...

good for you dude, and I could see how that would work with Klons perhaps taking away anxiety and you feeling more in control of your flow - Its just I can see how they may help you but as you can see I didnt even mention my long term valium dependency in my own equation,, they help me out and I dont find them to be half as debilitating as a serious everyday opiate/upper/Ket/psychadelic addiction.. Just my 2 cents but glad they help you,, and to be honest though I'm on Propranolol (Beta blockers) that I know help with stage fright I'd probably be dosed up to the gills on valium if I ever had to do a live set!
 
You must log in or register to reply here.
Top