Just a random thread....

[YellowSmiles]

Hello. I am new to Bluelight as a member, but I've been reading threads here for years...I always like to come in and just read peoples experiences and see what is new in the Bluelight culture. This thread might run on a bit, so I apologize in advance.

So..here is my story. I'm 30 years old, married with 2 kids. I love my family, life and everything.

The first time I rolled I was about 20-21 years old. I have NEVER abused mdma/ecstasy. I can remember 1 time when I did it 2 nights in a roll and that was it. All other times I would have a month or more between use. I've only had maybe 2 times that I can remember not really having a good time. Both times the environment was to blame. I know the pills I had were good, but when I am uncomfortable, its like the roll just never takes place. Funny how that works.

I'm going somewhere with this..i promise...

So..I have plans to roll again very soon (its been 2 years sense my last experience), but it might end up being a solo roll experience, not that I mind, but given my current situation, I don't think I can sneak away to a club/event, so solo is prob. my only real option (Mainly because if my wife found out I rolled or even considered it...she would kill me..she has never done ANY drugs aside from the occasion alcoholic beverage) And at least then I know I can control the environment because I am the only persons opinion that is to be factored in when it comes to what I do and listen to.

Every time I roll (with the exception of the 2 times that sucked) I end up throwing up and literally just rolling my ass off like MAD. Even off of just 1 pill. I am very sensitive to MDMA I think. The only thing I never like about most pressed tabs is feeling all jittery and wired afterwards, if I could just go straight to sleep after a good roll, wake up at 10am or so, that would be awesome. But meh..what'a ya do, right?

Now here is where my point comes in.....

In between the couple years I wait to roll, I always reminisce the experience to myself...I'm always thinking about how fun it is, etc. Like I said earlier...I never abused it, never lost the "magic", never had to take more than 1 to 2 pills to roll, and I continue to desire the feelings of mdma. Sometimes I wish that when I was younger I would have abused it to the point of not enjoying it and moving on with my life...but because I never did..I have a constant desire for it...I talk to people that I use to party with back in 2001-2002 and they are like>>HELL no I dont miss it..that stuff was stupid, etc. But they ALL abused the tar out of it..Most every weekend and some during the week...but never me.

So...like I said...I just wanted to share that and see what people have to say.

Thank you for listening,

Z

 

[AndroidsDreamofBTC]

Interesting, I think what you say makes perfect sense. If you've never really abused MDMA and enjoy the experience, there really is no reason to dive in even when you are much older.

The only thing I would say is that perhaps you might want to tell your wife you're going out to meet some old mates from college or something? A solo roll has its benefits, but I think for trying MDMA for the first time in two years it might be more fun to be around other people, or better yet, around other people who are also rolling.

Peace!

 

[YellowSmiles]

Yea, I live in Houston and next month Kaskade is going to be here performing, as do many electronic artist. So i'm thinking of doing something like that....Cuz once ur rolling....everyone is a familiar friend. Thanks for the response Levictus.

 

[YellowSmiles]

I'd like to hear some other peoples thoughts....Anyone?

 

[Keaton]

I think that you should go for it.
Kaskade= for me haha.
The jitteriness that you feel with the roll is the amphetamine that your pill is most likely cut with. Idk if you meant to have that addressed, I just thought I'd put my $.02 in. You might consider smoking a small amount of pot (enough so that you're just feeling it) on the comedown to help you fall asleep. If drug testing is a problem there are supplements you can tale to help clear put your system.

 

[YellowSmiles]

I meant for all/any of my comments to be addressed by anyone who cares to address them.

I own my own company, so drug testing is no issue, and I do not work with heavy equipment or anything like that...Soooo....

My only real issue is going to a party like that..having already dropped...and not knowing anyone might make for a roll that never really starts with me... because I don't know anyone, etc. I'm 30, and last time I went to a "rave" in dallas..I had multiple people ask me if I was under cover...this particular establishment had been under local news investigation..so it could've just been people being safe...but sometimes I feel out of place with the younger crowd all around me...know that I am prob. 10-12 years older than most of the party goers..but it doesn't mean I don't LOVE it. At least every 2 years anyway...lol

I was also thinking about waiting until next month for a larger even called Nocturnal....and then there is the option of rolling solo.....but that is not preferred obviously...

Thank you so much for commenting..keep em coming.

 

[dimlyFourOwls]

I've only rolled a couple times, but my impression is that if you prepare your image beforehand, people might feel more welcomed to come up and talk to you.

E.g. if you wear like bright colors, glow bracelets, etc. Like, stand out somehow? Hah, I know that may be difficult at a rave. And also if you are leaving from home, you wouldn't want to have to explain a costume or anything to your wife probably...

Also, you should just walk up to some people who seem chill/fun and introduce yourself! You seem like a really nice person (from the one post that I've seen you speak, lol, don't mean to judge), and I'm sure people would love to have you in their group.

As I said, I've only rolled twice--the first time with a very good friend (who wasn't rolling, but it was awesome anyway), the second time with a group I only lightly knew, but we split up during the night and I just wen solo exploring, and man, I don't know, I just really really love meeting people when rolling, because if a lot of other people are rolling then the judgments go away and everyone is just have a good time, and you are free basically to explore the amazing personalities that everyone has.

Ok, that was a rant, sorry.

But what I'm sayin is you should try to introduce yourself to others when rolling.

If you don't think you'll be able to, then idk.

2 years? That is impressive.

My goal/plan is to be like you basically--I only plan on rolling once or twice max a year. It's been a month since my last roll and I'm starting to feel cravings, so I am very impressed you've been able to go at the slow steady rate you've gone at for so long! Kudos! =)

 

[Keaton]

^Excellent advice
But,

I meant for all/any of my comments to be addressed by anyone who cares to address them.

I own my own company, so drug testing is no issue, and I do not work with heavy equipment or anything like that...Soooo....

My only real issue is going to a party like that..having already dropped...and not knowing anyone might make for a roll that never really starts with me... because I don't know anyone, etc. I'm 30, and last time I went to a "rave" in dallas..I had multiple people ask me if I was under cover...this particular establishment had been under local news investigation..so it could've just been people being safe...but sometimes I feel out of place with the younger crowd all around me...know that I am prob. 10-12 years older than most of the party goers..but it doesn't mean I don't LOVE it. At least every 2 years anyway...lol

I was also thinking about waiting until next month for a larger even called Nocturnal....and then there is the option of rolling solo.....but that is not preferred obviously...

Thank you so much for commenting..keep em coming.

Well if I were in your situation, I might try dropping a dose that would make me feel the roll and not quite roll Face, then go do something with your family? I've done that before and it was great. It'd be better to get really pure stuff if you were to consider it just so that you don't have the jitters ( as mentioned before). But thats just a suggestion.

 

[YellowSmiles]

My goal/plan is to be like you basically--I only plan on rolling once or twice max a year. It's been a month since my last roll and I'm starting to feel cravings, so I am very impressed you've been able to go at the slow steady rate you've gone at for so long! Kudos! =)

Thank you. Its easy to do when you have other priorities in your life. Party of me wishes my wife would be open to try it so we could share that with each other, but I love her to death because she is so straight laced..she keeps me in check.

Well if I were in your situation, I might try dropping a dose that would make me feel the roll and not quite roll Face, then go do something with your family? I've done that before and it was great. It'd be better to get really pure stuff if you were to consider it just so that you don't have the jitters ( as mentioned before). But thats just a suggestion.

The only problem with that is I would not know how much I would need and I would prob. be nervous as hell about the result when it does kick in that I could not enjoy it. I would think a situation like that would be for someone that is a more frequent user than once every 2+ years.

 

[Keaton]

I'd have to agree with you on that. It would be pretty risky. Have you ever asked your wife to consider rolling? Rollin along side her could be a beautiful experience.

 

[YellowSmiles]

I'd have to agree with you on that. It would be pretty risky. Have you ever asked your wife to consider rolling? Rollin along side her could be a beautiful experience.

I have never asked her to, and I don't think I ever would. She is extremely anti drug and rarely even drinks alcohol. She got upset last time I started reminiscing about past experiences when she was asking me what it was like. lol

 

[AndroidsDreamofBTC]

I have never asked her to, and I don't think I ever would. She is extremely anti drug and rarely even drinks alcohol. She got upset last time I started reminiscing about past experiences when she was asking me what it was like. lol

Damn dude! That's really too bad, especially since it seems you really enjoy good drug experiences.

 

[Keaton]

I have never asked her to, and I don't think I ever would. She is extremely anti drug and rarely even drinks alcohol. She got upset last time I started reminiscing about past experiences when she was asking me what it was like. lol

Oh wow. Haha. Nvm don't do that. Idk I guess the thing I'm trying to steer you away from is going to an event alone. I wouldn't put myself in that situation so I wouldn't encourage others to either.. But I guess if you feel safe you should try it. Why not see if a buddy from work wants to go?