the world is dead

[psyckokilla]

I cant take it anymore..everday a hate inside of me grows. I want to just walk around and backhand every person i see and its driving me nuts i want to scream RIGHT FUCKING NOW! I have an issue with reading people sometimes its a gift but most of the time all i see is fucked up mental cases most of the idiots going around in their own self righteous bi polar bubbles hurting each other and destroying the world.

My friends my family random assholes at the grocery store iT NEVER ENDS!!!!!! I feel like im from a different planet and whats worse is over the years im starting to become just like them and it scares the shit out of me!!! I feel like i need to go move into the woods get some animals plant a garden and just be one with the world and away from the cancer that is spreading rapidly. Im not fuckin perfect either but i feel like im the only one i know that at least has the idea of WHOA MAN WTF IS GOING ON THIS HAS TO STOP! i might just be having a manic episode but i really needed to just type or explode FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK my head is killing me! Is their a place where i can go like a commune on a mountain and just ZEN THE FUCK OUT for like a couple years FOR REAL!!!!!! I fear the worst for this world and i just really hope i find peace in myself before mother nature pushing the reset button once again....


(im not perfect this is just a vent i think im just way to sensitive for how horrible everything has gotten in general i could curl up and die)

 

[n3ophy7e]

Is this something that's just happened recently?? Or has it been a more gradual thing over the last few years? Are you using any drugs at the moment?

 

[psyckokilla]

getting worse over the years..i wasnt on drug when i wrote this but i do party on the weekends..im sure that makes it alot worse but ive always kinda felt this way but now at 24 its turned into a rage where instead of spreading the love i just want to punch people in the face..im losing my connection to the life force of this world and i think it will kill me...i need a monk and a mountain and some freakn real natural untainted peace..I NEED A LIFE DOUCHE IF THAT MAKES SINCE!!!!!! i just have lost faith in people completely and myself..

 

[burntserkits]

I'm sorry to hear that life has lost its glimmer for you. Is there a special place that is isolated from the fuss and buzz of people where you can go and just breathe or meditate? Sounds like you need to just step back from all the stress and get centered within yourself again. I have faith that you are a strong person and you are letting little things and little people bring you down. If you need to talk to someone one-on-one just PM me...

 

[bagochina]

Makes complete sense...

I feel the same way, at times. I dont want to hit people in the face but sometimes I feel like standing up and screaming in there face SHUT THE FUCK UP. I am tired of hearing you talk about your fuct up life, or your coked out bullshit, oh you need amps and a bloody mary to wake up? fuck.

I REALLY wish things would change and all people would be nomadic hippies hiding in the woods. That has always been some fuct up dream? I have had where everything was not dependent on $ or where people didnt get swept up in well I guess normal life. That is just a dream though and I am still rooted in reality [somewhat] and this world has been going to hell in a hand basket for quite awhile at least I am trying? to enjoy the ride.

peace.
seedless

 

[Jekyll and Hyde]

Today alone I felt like standing up and screaming and pulling all my hair out. I seriously felt like I was going insane. The only thing that stopped me was I was sitting next to my nonnie (Italian Grandmother). Sometimes what really grinds my gears is all this bullshit advertising, brainwashing the masses. I guess living in Boston, and spending considerable time working in Cambridge kind of lent to this train of thought. The really weird thing about me is, when I watch movies or television for that matter all I can see is a bunch of people pretending and not people in real world situations, it really takes the fun away from watching television, which actually lends to my hobby of reading, probably due to the fact that I can't see people playing pretend.

Life is a parody of a tragedy.

 

[Coolio]

Be the change you want to see in the world.

 

[anterrabae]

I can relate to being addicted to being high. I get a script for xanax every month. Even though I know taking it orally makes the most sense and produces the best relief, I will once in a while crush up a pill and snort it. I just enjoy the ritual. There's no rush or euphoric effects really, but I adore crushing pills, cutting them into lines and playing around with the powder.

And yes, corporate America is quite terrible and I believe that's why there are so many depressed, suicidal or anxious people here.

 

[djmazz]

i used to feel something like that. i couldnt even watch tv coz everything on every ad and tv show made me angry. only thing that made things any better was time... and trying to tell myself that i was being irrational and that I really dont want to do what i was thinking about doing, but that didnt really help. I think what also helped me was eventually accepting that the world is screwed and ppl do suck!

 

[drjnsmth]

In your bad/negative mental state you see drugs as the devil they are and you project the hate onto people. It manifests in avoidance of people and hatred/agressive tendencies. In layman's terms the drugs have pooped out on you.

The easiest solution: leave town for two weeks. visit someone you like and trust.

Second solution: try anti-psychotics to prevent psychotic-withdrawal or depression. Once you start feeling a new sense of positivity in your thinking you can dabble in drugs in strong moderation.

 

[jonaz]

I fear the worst for this world

what's gonna happen's gonna happen.

the people gonna continue to destroy themselves and this world.
people gonna continue to frustrate themselves and be scared.

untill.. perhaps one day... they're gona stop doing that..
because they finally learned their lesson...

but many on here probably already know that learning lessons
and changing old habits can be quite a challenge.

so yea we'll see.
the good thing about total destruction of this planet is that,
then, at least, there will be no earthling suffering the earthly pains no more!

 

[ConnectFor]

The easiest solution: leave town for two weeks. visit someone you like and trust.

WHS. Since moving to the country I find a walk or bike ride in the fresh air helps new perspectives to form. Less claustrophobic city and unfriendly selfish people to deal with too.

And avoid TV imo, you won't miss anything.

The only thing stopping you from going out and trying to find what will make you happy is you. Easy for me to say I know. The world is most definitely alive