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(MDMA)Not able to Take breaks..

Cheechy

Cheechy

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so i was introduced to mdma two months ago. the first time i took it i told my friends i would wait a month before doing it again, but after two weeks i couldn't resist the temptations to have those same feelings once more.

after that i felt bad for not sticking to what i had planned. I decided not to have any more for two months, but all through the week i couldn't stop thinking about it until the point where i could think up justifiable reasons to do it again on the weekend. it's now been four weeks steady, taking mdma every weekend(350 mg last night). and although the rolls are still decent i cant help but feeling off the ball. i feel mentally slowed down.

i will be leaving the city for a month and a half in 13 days. this following weekend my friends had planned a roll as a going away party, but i honestly don't know. If i do this one more time before leaving do you think i'll suffer any long term consequences? it's really depressing that i cant keep the boundaries i set on myself .

edit: if a mod thinks this belongs somewhere else please move it. thanks
 
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You are making very poor decisions. And you're hoping we will tell you that the negative effects you are suffering are only temporary so that you can justify more drug abuse.

When used responsibly, MDMA can be a wonderful experience with life long benefits. When it is abused, you can suffer impaired cognition and horrible depression.

Rolling every weekend is a BAD idea. Don't keep doing it. You're probably just a kid and there will be plenty of opportunities to do MDMA again in the future. You're going to lose the magic very quickly if you continue taking it so often. Save it for some special event in the future.

If you find yourself unable to make the right decision when MDMA is offered to you, then plan ahead and avoid letting yourself get into those situations to begin with.
 
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You are making very poor decisions. And you're hoping we will tell you that the negative effects you are suffering are only temporary so that you can justify more drug abuse.

When used responsibly, MDMA can be a wonderful experience with life long benefits. When it is abused, you can suffer impaired cognition and horrible depression.

Rolling every weekend is a BAD idea. Don't keep doing it. You're probably just a kid and there will be plenty of opportunities to do MDMA again in the future. You're going to lose the magic very quickly if you continue taking it so often. Save it for some special event in the future.

If you find yourself unable to make the right decision when MDMA is offered to you, then plan ahead and avoid letting yourself get into those situations to begin with.
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i can see how i would come across as the highschool e-tard persona that doesn't care but that isn't the case. it's quite the opposite. i'm in my mid 20's and quite independent. i've done a ridiculous amount of research on MDMA in the past month or so, and i know that weekly rolling isn't good for me but i cant help but wondering just how bad it would be to do it one more time.

upon first trying mdma i was cautious because i knew i had an addictive personality. i've delayed most drugs, and still only tried a small few(still no opioids//amps/coke/psychs). with the few i had tried(alcohol, weed, and tobacco) i was quickly addicted. i go through a pack a day, about 2 grams a day and roughly four beers. that's been my habit for the last four years. this is the exact reason i set limits on myself for mdma, but i strongly feel that i don't have the willpower to live up to my limits. i sit in bed thinking about how great of a time i had to the point where i can't fall asleep. the same thing happens at work to the point where i get sloppy and my work suffers.

it isn't about it being offered to me, it's about me thinking about it to the point where i want it just to get it out of my head. i've been told that mdma has "addictive traits" to it, but these past few weeks it seems like all i can think about. i hope i showed you where i'm coming from a little more.. advice would be appreciated.
 
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The problem isn't doing it just one more time. By your own admission, you continue to obsess about doing it again even though you know it's bad for you. And you've been doing it every weekend now for a month. That should tell you something.

I see one of 3 likely outcomes...

1. You smarten up right now and resist the temptation regardless of how hard it is.
2. You seek out help so that you're not reliant upon your own willpower.
3. You continue doing MDMA too often and eventually suffer such bad negative effects that it's no longer worth doing it.

Of course, you might also just do it 1 more time and that's it for a long time. But I doubt that will happen.

I don't mean to sound too harsh. But I wish somebody was harsh with me when I was overdoing it. It would have saved me alot of emotional distress.
 
I rolled every weekend for three and a half months straight. Granted, I was a little etarded, but I'm still alive. Just don't get to the point where you think you NEED it. When you get there, stop.

Caution: Use sparingly.

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I used every weekend for about four months in the early aughts. Strong pills, and lots of 'em. Nothing crazy like rolling for a week, but it was every weekend like clockwork. At the time the jury was still out on the neurotoxicity issue; that is no longer the case. MDMA is amazing, but it is neurotoxic, and while most people can recover most of the way, it takes a LONG time, and often is not complete.

Other than one or two small doses, never in the same year I've not taken MDMA since 2002. I still have occasional issues with word recall rates (i.e. I can't remember what a word would be for a simple, well-known concept: spoon for example) and some minor memory fuzziness. I got out pretty unscathed, a friend had his vocabulary reduced essentially to monosyllables and pretty well every other word is 'fuck' or 'fucking'. Granted, he never took any steps to keep from frying his brain, and while he doesn't use as much now he still doses around 5 times a year.

A month's break is the minimum between doses. Period. If you can't swing that, then I'd really suggest that you remove your ability to obtain it. You only get one brain, and while it is pretty plastic there are some hurts that will not go away. Part of enjoying MDMA is the 'treat' aspect of it. Do it too often, and you may as well be taking speed.
 
without taking sufficient breaks inbetween e's one will loose the ability to enjoy things usually fun without them.

eg: friend & I got into the habit of eating e's every friday regardless of whether we had anything exciting planned. (friend wasn't into clubs or going out or anything) and then got into the habit of kicking a footy down the park as a regular e 'activity' (at 3am in the morning mind you). had some extreeemely awesome fun.

once our good e supply dried up (after maybe 2 months of doing this) it took quite a while of getting used to footy without e for it to be as enjoyable as it used to be.

after a while i think your emotions become drained from e. somewhat leveled out. no ups, no downs, just flat. as in e provided the only source of absolute joy and nothing else could compare. with abstinence this slowly comes back though. certainly not a fun process though.

i'd have to say AT LEAST a month between to properly enjoy each one and to allow your mind juices enough time to recover and not be permanently screwed. balance is the key here.
 
I think most people go through this when they take e their first time. Your body will only allow you to do so much over time. Then you lose the magic and may start throwing because you've reached that threshold where your body says "fuck you!"
 
I've decided i'm going to wait in the least until august. if i can wait until i return to the city that would be even better, but i feel august is a reasonable date to set for myself.

i was wondering, what are some good drugs to take in a social environment whilst abstaining from mdma? i'm guessing anything relating to serotonin would be a bad idea. i'm kind of bored of the whole alcohol/weed situation.

can acid be a social drug? i liked shrooms in small amounts until i took 3 g's and had a bad trip. would a dose of acid be enjoyable at my friend's house if others are on mdma//acohol//whatever else? basically im keen to try anything that isn't completely mind shattering, but no opiates or anything even moderately addictive.

what do you bluelighters do to fulfill your inebriation needs while on your mdma breaks?
 
Cheechy said:
I've decided i'm going to wait in the least until august. if i can wait until i return to the city that would be even better, but i feel august is a reasonable date to set for myself.

i was wondering, what are some good drugs to take in a social environment whilst abstaining from mdma? i'm guessing anything relating to serotonin would be a bad idea. i'm kind of bored of the whole alcohol/weed situation.

can acid be a social drug? i liked shrooms in small amounts until i took 3 g's and had a bad trip. would a dose of acid be enjoyable at my friend's house if others are on mdma//acohol//whatever else? basically im keen to try anything that isn't completely mind shattering, but no opiates or anything even moderately addictive.

what do you bluelighters do to fulfill your inebriation needs while on your mdma breaks?
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Acid is a social drug for me. Ive gone parting on acid and shrooms lot's of times and have found it fun. However that is just me and i react well to psychs and have never had a real bad trip. If your the type to get edgy and freak out i would suggest not doing it.
 
Honestly, sobriety works well too. If something is only fun on E, then it isn't really fun. Because everything is fun on E.

If I could get it though, I'd go with GHB/GBL. Make sure that you find your dose in a safe place first, and since you clearly have a propensity toward habitual use make very certain not to doo it too often. G withdrawal is pretty horrible.
 
I'd through GBL away !

Tastes like some kind of paint thinner and made me ill. GHB market is non existent. Though strangely GHB faired better on myself. 8o :(
 
So I recently acquired some MDMA from a friend and before purchasing he gave me and my girlfriend a sample to try out. So that night we rolled which turned out to be my most depressing roll thus far but that's a different story altogether. The next week, before going to a party, the friend offered me some out of this bag he had. So despite doing it the week before and holding onto the belief that doing it two weeks in a row was stupid, I decided to indulge. Fifteen minutes later I was way too high as I didn't measure the dose properly. I never even made it to the party. I ended up taking about 6 caps worth of MDMA that night, mostly because I wanted to stay at the same level of high that my girlfriend who started later than me was at. The last two caps barely affected me.

Now, having learnt my lesson about doing it two weeks in a row and dosing like an idiot I likely won't ever do anything like that again. However, I have a good sized supply so the urge to do it every two weeks is huge especially considering I'm at the peak of my psychological addiction. I guess I'll actually have to start using willpower.
 
i only read the first post so far so not sure if already said. my biggest mistake was rolling three days in a row/three days apart for three weeks straight. i experienced audio hallucinations for a week straight after i stopped aswell as blurred vision, halos, the ability to trip shit still was fucked up. im still not 100% back to normal. i forget things mid sentence all the time, and my memory is shot. two things that were perfect before molly. this all happens months ago so I hope i get back to normal in the future

Id usually eat .3 or .4 first and then snort some but me and my bf would always kill 3 gram bag between the weekend (wed never stop eating it except to sleep). i stopped the week of 420 when we went to a party the following day we rolled with no sleep, still tripping face, still coming down. my bf was a total fucking zombie. drained him so much he didnt even look like the same person

if you fuck around just try to be safe atleast always. drink sooooooo much water molly + addy coke dehyrdration put me in hospital. so you NEED to always drink it will save your life I promise that..
 
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You have to drink a LOT for that to be a problem. As long as you're drinking less than 2L an hour you'll be fine. Hyperthermia is a much bigger risk. But that's BDD/ED stuff.
 
Cheechy said:
upon first trying mdma i was cautious because i knew i had an addictive personality. i've delayed most drugs, and still only tried a small few(still no opioids//amps/coke/psychs). with the few i had tried(alcohol, weed, and tobacco) i was quickly addicted. i go through a pack a day, about 2 grams a day and roughly four beers. that's been my habit for the last four years. this is the exact reason i set limits on myself for mdma, but i strongly feel that i don't have the willpower to live up to my limits. i sit in bed thinking about how great of a time i had to the point where i can't fall asleep. the same thing happens at work to the point where i get sloppy and my work suffers.
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Do yourself a favor and never try any more drugs. If cigarettes and weed got you that bad you have no idea what coke speed or opiates will do to you. Itd be beyond ugly.
 
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