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will I ever be able to regain control of my oxy craving?

shahab6

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will I ever be able to regain control of my oxy craving??

for a very long time I used to be able to do oxy and stopped with no craving.. basically I used to be able to do it one or two times a week easily.

but now when I do it, I get very very intense craving, it never used to be like this.
If there's oxy I will do it till it's gone..basically I have no self control over it.

I used to be able to buy them,and be able to hold onto it until I had a good time to do them, but not anymore..

My question is why did this happen after eight years??

Can I ever go back to the way it was when there was no intense craving, back to moderation??

or once I've reached this level it's always like this??


right now I am taking a break, it's been 16days, longest being sober in 1 years. I want to know if I take a long break, well I be able to regain my control??

or once I start again, It's back to the way it was??
 
It's never been the same for me, once I crossed that line of no self control. This doesn't mean it will be that way for you, but it seems to be common. Another problem for me is that I can do them two or three days in a row and have some moderate withdrawals just from that, a far cry from 'in the beginning'. Hopefully it'll be different for you, but it is indeed a slippery slope. Be careful.
 
this sounds all too familiar. interesting is the period of time noted here. that leads me to believe there is hope for you to return back to the "old days" simply b/c you were able to "manage" the addiction for so long. i think your doing the right thing. if you can go 2 months i bet you could go back to a relatively "managed" regiment. but discipline of course is the key.
 
you can remove the shit from your body easy
but to remove it from your brain, well sorry to say that aint so easy
 
Your cravings will improve significantly as time goes on...eventually you will be able to live a craving-free life (or VERY close to it): Just give it time
 
thelung said:
Your cravings will improve significantly as time goes on...eventually you will be able to live a craving-free life (or VERY close to it): Just give it time
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But can I ever go back and not have those strong craving, like before??
 
I would say quit while your ahead. If your getting cravings for the stuff thats a bad sign. I went for years using opiates without a addiction until it got easier and easier to justify using everyday. Granted a few things happened in my life that probably helped that along.
 
For me I still crave oxycontin after two years of being away from it. It happens less and less though, and that's mostly because I don't even know where to get it. Even if the thought of doing it enters my mind, it goes away just as quickly as it appeared because it ends at "well, I don't even know where to cop any so that's that."

When I'm in my hometown in Georgia, however, I constantly crave OC because I know exactly where to get it. It really does suck because this actually prevents me from making trips home to see family much of the time because I don't wanna be around anything too tempting. Even driving by a parking lot I used to shoot up in as soon as getting some dope makes me wanna do it again.

So the only way I've been able to get remotely past these cravings is by removing anything tempting from my life. I would think that unless you do something similar you will continue to experience the desire to do it, especially when you're around people who use.

It sounds like you still have at least somewhat of a hold on your drug use, so get away from it while you can! The cravings will get better with time though, I promise (as long as you prescribe yourself to good surroundings and good people who can help you stay away from it all). Good luck.
 
shahab6 said:
paranoid android said:
I would say quit while your ahead. QUOTE]


I doubt I can live a sober free life for too long...


Im going to go for a long break, and see what happends. Maybe I can regain my control over the craving when I start again who knows....
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Once it starts it doesn't stop, my friend. You can't just experience symptoms of addiction, take a break for whatever drug you're abusing, and then go back to it like everything will be normal (as if "normal" is even achievable concerning this sort of thing).

Good luck... If I were you, I wouldn't even consider a future with drugs. If you're already having reservations about it and experiencing trouble with dropping things, you need to get out while you can and NEVER look back. Quit lying to yourself =/
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I went on Suboxone after getting a sizeable opiate habit. The cravings were greatly diminished, and after a year or so of totally avoiding opiates (other than Suboxone) and just living a fairly normal life I had no cravings at all. I gradually detoxed after 3+ years on Suboxone and the cravings did not come back even when I was off it, which was surprising.

BUT after 3 months off it I relapsed and immediately after the first time (which interestingly enough wasn't even enough to get me high) the cravings came back. Not as bad as they used to be but bad enough to make it hard to resist. I've been off now for 2 days and the cravings seem to be diminishing somewhat...I hope I didn't fuck up my chances at living without bad cravings.

So what I'm saying is basically any use WILL trigger cravings once you get to the point where you're psychologically addicted. If you stay away from opiates and the people/places that remind you of using, your cravings should go away or greatly diminish. But you are probably well past the point of ever being able to use them in moderation without craving.
 
it's actually weird the last two days I have no urge to use,
every time it comes in my mind, I remember bad things about it to, such as what a waste of money..


Anyway thank you for all your feedback, it was very very helpful..
I came to the conclusion that once addiction goes in your mind, it's there for a while..

I saw a study that show people who haven't drank alcohol for 20 years, had their brains scanned while they were near beer, and it showed that a part of their brain light up. but this didn't happen to non-addicts..

So I am guessing that if I am near any opiate, that part of my brain will also light up and I will lose control..

But I wonder why it took so long... why it happened after 8 years....

I guess my days of oxy use has come to end :( ..
 
One thing I forgot to mention this intense craving only comes with oxy..

A few months ago when I bought mscontin, Norco I had no craving for those..


This is how I was actually able to stop Oxy,

I switched to MScontin, to help me reduce the Oxy craving,

Which it did. After six days when oxy craving had somewhat come down

I stopped taking MS Contin, and I had no craving for mscontin..
 
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