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DMT - New Experience - A Universe of Toys

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One night very recently, I had a dream that I took a hit of LSD, and a few hours later smoked DMT for the first time. However, the LSD was weak and did not last long... this should be considered a DMT only "dream" report. I have no idea what the dosage was. The first time I was told it was a "medium" dose, and the second time I was told it was "medium high" dose.

It resulted in a very strange, yet glowing spiritual experience that was very much needed.

After a couple hours of dancing around the fire at an electronic music event, I found my good friend M, who has watched over me before in my previous sacred dream journeys. We talked for a bit about my LSD trip, which was now fading, and then he made me an offer - an offer I never would have taken up on if I hadn't already been tripping at least a little.
I've been afraid of DMT for years. I was curious about it, I wanted to try it, but I also heard it is one of the most intense psychedelics in the world. The kind that takes you to other universes. I didn't feel before this, that I was ready to handle that. But in this dream, I just knew I was ready. I accepted.
We sat down a little ways away from the fire, with a good view of the dancefloor and the riverbank. I sucked in as much smoke as possible, and held it in as long as possible. I didn't hold it in long, partly because I was unable to and partly because I was being cautious with how much I took.

Over about a minute or two, my vision shifted into a completely new perspective. My body felt warm and glowing, with very slight and pleasant electric vibrations. I saw that we were on a piece of land that was floating in a vast ocean. The ocean was the universe, and we were amongst the stars yet also home on a spaceship called Earth. Earth was only a very small part of the universe, and we were even smaller. We as humans were just toys, playing games with ourselves. And all around, I felt a greater force of life that connected us together. Some people call this "God", but I do so no longer. It was not personal. It did not pick favorites, condemn, or judge. It was existence itself, and it existed because it wanted to exist. It was eternal. I felt warm and safe just existing inside of it, no matter what happened to me. If I died, I thought, then I would continue to exist as an eternal toy, simply shifting shape and form to play a new game. The rules of the game (laws of physics and such) stayed the same, but there were an infinite number of paths to follow, and creations to make! This made me feel fascinated, not terrified.
I was able to talk to M while this was happening. I told him what I saw and felt as it happened to me. It lasted about fifteen minutes in total.

About an hour later, I wanted to try again. The spirit of DMT, I had discovered, was a friend of mine. Unlike mushrooms, it was a gentle teacher. It didn't fuck with my head the way mushrooms have. So, I took a few hits for the second time. I was able to hold it in longer, but not that much longer. The second and much darker part of the visions started. I was standing on the riverbank, looking across the flowing waters to the white, dead trees that stood stark and gigantic. They slowly shifted form.
I took a look into a dark, sad future. The river became brown and oily, full of toxic waste. The trees turned into steel, becoming militarized robots that were winding up to march forward into war. In the background, I saw a long chain of barbed wire. The robots were not looking at me. I was too small to make any difference to them. I saw them move, but very, very slowly. The people who made them were so poor, that their machinery was old, scavenged, and haphazardly put together. The robots had a consciousness. I could tell that they felt old, tired, and beaten, but their programming worked: they were determined to wage war. I looked at what used to be the rocks across the river. They were now small machine guns, a large stockpile of them. Beyond these, I saw a wasteland of abandoned industrial projects. There was no such thing as nature, no such thing as grass or trees. Everywhere, I saw steel, rust, and toxic waste.

I was able to still speak during all of this. I remembered that I had taken DMT. I remembered my name. I didn't feel like I was completely in another universe, but rather looking into a portal and experiencing something like an omnimax movie. I was both in and surrounded by it, yet also separated from it. I told M a little about what I saw, but wasn't finding the right words as much as I did the first time. I knelt down after a while, and then I felt very tired and laid down on the rocks. I was no longer by the fire, so I felt cold creeping in. I also felt very, very melancholic. Also, I felt a cool acceptance and deadly calm. No matter what happened in the future, we were all still toys, playing different games, and once a game was over, it would shift and morph into a new era of another game.

I knew some things logically before. I have told myself that nothing is forever, even the worst times will pass into better times, and vice versa. Change is the only constant. Death is simply change, because we as energy are eternal... we just change forms. Experiencing it was a completely different thing than telling myself with words. Afterwards, I felt a pure feeling of compassion for my friends and all people in the universe. I felt calm, and loving. Most of all, I felt that the universe was in balance and that everything that happens has a logic and order behind it (some call that "God's plan", but it's not the same as being controlled by a personal force). Most of all, I almost completely lost my fear of death. I simply just did not want to die, because I wanted to experience more of the play called LIFE.

And that is where I am now.
Extremely fascinated! I am definitely going to be conjuring up more dreams involving DMT... what an amazing chemical! Now my absolute favorite psychedelic of all time.
 
Nice report. I like to hear the details of peoples visions. Your world of toys sounds familiar to me. I noticed your reference to an ambivalent life force that you mentioned. Sometimes I have experienced this feeling, but other times the force has been equated in my mind with love or a deity type of concept. I sometimes think that these aspects are dependent on my frame of mind at the outset, and the breakthrough allows a very detailed and extreme expression of the contents of my imagination at that moment. Then again, there are often elements of the experience that are so alien and odd that I can't think how they got there or what they have sprung from. This is part of the magic to me. You can bring something new back to reality with you. However it is never something tangible, like next weeks lottery numbers or an undiscovered prime number. A conundrum if ever.
Hope you can get some more spice and write some more reports. It was good to read.
Peace - Pipp
 
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Very nice trip report. Dimitri can be a harsh teacher also, but his lessons are short, and he's never a trickster who fucks with your head, like many psilocybin mushrooms I've eaten.
 
Yes, the mushroom spirits definitely feel like they fuck with my head. There's still a lot to learn from them, though. DMT is definitely my favorite psychedelic now, though. I feel like I can learn a lot from it, but it seems like it'll be easier for me to handle than mushrooms or LSD - especially because, like you said, the lessons are short.

My anxiety has gone WAY down ever since I did it!
 
I gotta say, I am STILL not very anxious at all! Which proves my point that my anxiety was almost all existential. I feel like DMT created a big turning point in my life and that I figured out a lot of things. I'm sure there's still more work to do, but I glimpsed something amazing that's going to stick with me for a long time.

I'd like to go further, maybe in a week or so. I didn't break through this time, it was more like I was peeking in through a door. I think I'm ready to break through next time.

I discovered....

I am an atheist, but I do believe that we are all connected and that there is a safe, comfortable, and eternal energy in the universe. I guess that makes me kind of a metaphysical atheist.

Life is not so serious. I hold true to that even though I also had a vision of a dark future. Even the darkest, most horrifying points of life are not all that is. There is so much more.

I glimpsed into the future? I don't know. I think I saw a VERY possible future. I think that in some parts of Earth, it will be like an industrial wasteland and artificial intelligence being used for war. And then in other parts, small agricultural "green" semi-tribal communities will exist, safe and hidden.

DMT is awesome!
 
I gotta say, I am STILL not very anxious at all! Which proves my point that my anxiety was almost all existential. I feel like DMT created a big turning point in my life and that I figured out a lot of things. I'm sure there's still more work to do, but I glimpsed something amazing that's going to stick with me for a long time.

I'd like to go further, maybe in a week or so. I didn't break through this time, it was more like I was peeking in through a door. I think I'm ready to break through next time.

I discovered....

I am an atheist, but I do believe that we are all connected and that there is a safe, comfortable, and eternal energy in the universe. I guess that makes me kind of a metaphysical atheist.

Life is not so serious. I hold true to that even though I also had a vision of a dark future. Even the darkest, most horrifying points of life are not all that is. There is so much more.

I glimpsed into the future? I don't know. I think I saw a VERY possible future. I think that in some parts of Earth, it will be like an industrial wasteland and artificial intelligence being used for war. And then in other parts, small agricultural "green" semi-tribal communities will exist, safe and hidden.

DMT is awesome!
DMT was my first proper tryptamine, as well as my first proper psychedelic.

Best experience of my life.
 
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