Mr Blonde
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It's great your getting help Tweak, I hope your liver is OK. 
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Which of these meds can I OD on?
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Mate I am SO glad to hear you're okay, and that you're getting the help you need. You should be really proud of yourself for taking the steps forward to go to therapy. Please take care okay?? Keep us updated with how you're going
Bojangles69
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Hey tweak i'm an ex meth head as well. I used A LOT, even dirty meth, smoked it and all. It took me about 6 years before I felt "normal again" and thats when I was put on lexapro. After I got off lexapro the depression never came back and I was able to live happily again.
Good luck to you!
Good luck to you!
BuckieGoldstein
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Tweak,
Just an FYI you may not know about ... if you were using opioids of ANY KIND AT ALL ... Meth can fuck with this too I think ... but it's highly likely that your testosterone levels are through the floor ... as in scores less than 100 where it should be anywhere between 500 and 900.
When I started taking pain meds regularly, I got so depressed that literally the only reason I am still here is because I have a wife and two children who depend on me for their survival. SO I told myself, "if you have to endure this torture day in and day out so that they can have a somewhat normal life, then so be it. At least I could wait till the kids were 18 and hell, my wife is model hot so she won't have one problem replacing my sorry excuse for a man!
THEN, I decided to tell my pain doc that I was horribly depressed and that I didn't know what to do. She asked if my testosterone levels had been checked at all since starting treatment. I said no, she wrote the blood test order and the next time I went in, they said I was "OFF THE CHARTS LOW" and in risk of serious long term health risks including skin disorders, dietary issuses, DEPRESSION, heart disease ... the list is very large and who knew low testosterone could cause all those problems?
I now get shots once a month and I feel completely normal. I suggest you ask your doc for the blood test ... it's quick and easy and would answer a lot of questions if I'm righjt - at least give it the possibility that this depression - no matter how real it seems - could be artificially created in your brain and it can be fixed.
Good luck .. and please keep us posted!
Buck
JohnnyHopkins
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Good to hear. As you probably know, death by over-dose of the drugs you listed is usually death by liver-failure, which is, from what I've read/heard from a nurse, is one of, if not the most painful and horrifying ways to die. You will be in agonizing pain for 24 hours, pain no opiate can touch, and you will probably realize it was a mistake and want to live...but there is nothing they will be able to do for you, death is all but inevitable. Think about how horrific that type of death would be?
Of course, lol, as my grandma would say, living to be 90 is no picnic either, but
I hope you'll live to enjoy many of things that make human life special. We have all been there, experienced days when jumping off a bridge felt like the best move(I'm there way too often), but family/friends/hobbies/nature/learning keeps me going. Nothin but the best, mate...
They can't always come back to post again...
And in my opinion if you are posting this on a forum, I think they want to be talked out of it..Feel that someone somewhere cares.
I mean every suicide thread that asks to not be talked out of it, but want opinions on how to go out, actually want to be talked out of it imo.
I mean you can just google which drug to use..
TearItDown
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You're wrong though. People aren't stupid, they're lazy. If someone presents something to them on a silver platter, they'll take it. Acetaminophen was the most lethal and easiest to off yourself with, so that's why I think they chose it. I'm glad that they lived and are on the road to recovery. I'd been watching this thread hoping that they did come back, thinking that they wouldn't.
Thizz, there are so many thing in this world worth waking up for. I'm happy you're alive now, and I hope you do well in the future. Life isn't always great, whenever I feel like shit, I realize how much better things can get. I think about everyone that would miss me, everyone I would miss too. I think about how I'm here, right now, for a reason. I'm not done yet and neither are you.
raver2008
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Holy fuck man i dont want you to overdose at all but by the jesus if your gonna dont use shit chemicals like that your just gonna suffer so intensly badly from any of those, and it will be a long long death.
Good to hear! :D Stay positive.
CLOUDnine420
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Vitamin D Levels...
^^ Hey, I read on here that testosterone can cause depression. But I also recently had some blood work done and I found out my vitamin D level is really low, so I am prescribed a once a week pill that I have to take to raise the levels. I to have depression and right now this is what I'm trying. Just another simple blood test, you could prolly get it done at the same time as the testosterone test, if you choose to look into that. Hope this is some what helpful to you, and seriously get a blood test to see if anything is low it could be a very simple fix.
I'm glad to see you responded after the post, and Good Luck!
^^ Hey, I read on here that testosterone can cause depression. But I also recently had some blood work done and I found out my vitamin D level is really low, so I am prescribed a once a week pill that I have to take to raise the levels. I to have depression and right now this is what I'm trying. Just another simple blood test, you could prolly get it done at the same time as the testosterone test, if you choose to look into that. Hope this is some what helpful to you, and seriously get a blood test to see if anything is low it could be a very simple fix.
I'm glad to see you responded after the post, and Good Luck!
Jesusgreen
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I just read through the thread and it's great to hear you're alright. Having had issues with depression and suicidal thoughts myself in the past I can say that one thing that really helps a lot is just to find someone you trust - they can be someone you already know, or you can meet someone new - and to talk to them, if you feel down, tell them, vent a little, explain it all, get a hug, just take your mind off things. I think therapy will definitely help.
Another additional tip I'll offer is to find new hobbies. While I have never had a problem with addiction other than maybe caffeine, I do find that when I do not have drugs I sometimes tend towards negative thoughts or simply feeling bored with my life - however by finding new things to do, reading (Haha, it might sound boring but since I got back into reading I'm 100x happier than I was before), art, writing, online gaming, sports, exercise.. There are a million and one new hobbies you could replace existing hobbies with, or integrate into your routine, and doing new things regularly is a great way to keep yourself happy and make life more interesting.
Hope this helps, best wishes
BuckieGoldstein
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I would think a full CBC panel plus the testosterone would cover everything but who the hell knew that drugs could fuck with you to that level. When I was at my worst, I could literally look at some hot babe like that chick on the Transformers and think to myself, "I wonder if she buys those clothse on sale or if she pays through the nose at some designer shop?" - slappin that ass never once crossed my mind and it was fucking WEID - Sometimes I'd see a hot chick at the mall and I would catch myself thinking, "I wonder what her dad would think of her dressed like that!" ... At the same time though, it was nice because I was able to focus on work all the time and never get distracted. Now that the testosterone levels are back to normal, well ... life in all areas are very much back to normal as well. No more depression and back to hound dog status when I see the hotties.
Testosterone is an extremely vital hormone in both men and women and without it, life isn't worth living - seriously.
Buck