Okay, well you typed it that way.
Hey what's up dude let me tell u about the other day man but I almost overdosed on hydrocodone HAHAHAHA
See? Anyway it's not a big deal, not even a deal, u just sounded like those people you described about calling hydro a "pussy drug" when it definitely isn't. I remember when i first started using Vicodin and the Hydrocodone red syrup when I didn't have a high tolerance.. wheeewwww!![]()
The thing is, I'm not the type of guy to have a high tolerance for anything. Must be my liver eh?
Just wondering, has anyone ever walked that fine line between really high and ODing?
The last 3 nights in a row, and several scattered times over the past 2 weeks, I think I have been there. I keep passing out because I am so high, then my body is jerking me awake I think because I am not breathing. My heart is pounding when I wake up and I feel the need to breathe a LOT.
The only thing that is confusing me is the increased heart rate, because it is POUNDING when I wake back up, but it is also beating really fast the whole time I am in that really, really f-ed up state. I wonder if I am OD-ing on heroin or possibly on a cut. The weird thing is, it has been many different stamps from several different people. I am wondering if there is just something going on with me because I haven't been doing a crazy amount or anything.
Just wondering if anyone has felt anything similar? I have really held back on my usage tonight because last night was the scariest, I was almost completely paralyzed for a while....it was bad. I was really relieved to wake up okay this morning.
By the way, this is from sniffing -- not even IV.
Dammit man, we love to fight ourselves don't we? I look back at all my close calls and I just about shit myself thinking about all the trama I put upon my mind and body thru, oh yeah !! and uhmm...I could charm the fuckin green right out of everyones wallet that believed my bullshit fables. I could write two books. One would be titled "How To Rob The ones That Care For You The Most." And the other one would be called " Heroin Robbed My Soul When I Was Lookin Down".....I've come close to death a few times, the worst i ever had it was when I did about 7mg of xanax snorted, along with 5 bags of dope and a bottle of robitussin. I don't know what I was thinking, or how I made it through that night alive. I don't even remember it. All I know is that when I woke up in the morning I had puke in my mouth. After I woke up I snorted some adderal I had. About 20 minutes later I lost all controll of my body and had a seizure. Fell on the floor and hit my head, and layed there jerking for about 5 minutes, conscious but I couldn't do anything voluntarily. my buddy(drug dealer) said he was ready to bury me if I died.

I surprise myself on a regular basis. I see things now that I never knew were right there the whole time...addiction had me by the throat...I have my guard up at all times I am doin well at this moment but we all have the same thing in common we all have a pity pot and they are easy to fall into if ya ain't on your tip toes....and I hope I manage to always be one step ahead of that reflection of mine ...PEACE