I feel like such a scum bag...do i sound like a drug addict

[scott5809]

everyday for about a month iv been takin about 2 or 3 tramadols every other day then on the other days id take like 2mg of xanax and iv been smoking weed everyday along with that but i also dont go to school bc im taught from home because of my injury and i also cant get a job yet so its not like i have many responsibilities but does this much intake of pills and weed seem like im a junkie or something bc i just feel like total shit

 

[User Name Here]

Two or three tramadols? That's the minimum prescribed amount when doctors give it to people for pain or whatever other ailment they may have. I can't even imagine 100mg of tramadol actually doing anything to someone... So no, that doesn't make you sound like a drug addict. The fact that you can get off on two tramadol and 2mg of Xanax makes it seem like you don't use enough to have a tolerance. Plus, plenty of people smoke weed everyday. I'm not someone to consider this a problem even... It just depends on whether or not you're able to handle it. So with all that being said, no, it doesn't sound like you are some kind of scum bag hardcore drug addict. Just be careful though! You are heading in a scary direction and if you're already feeling guilty, you're headed down a bad path. Since you're obviously not building up an insane tolerance I'm thinking you don't have an addiction [yet], so do yourself a HUGE favor and cut out these drugs before anything happens.

 

[scott5809]

thanks that makes me feel a little better

 

[User Name Here]

thanks that makes me feel a little better

No problem. Just make sure you start taking this seriously [even though you're far from having a problem it sounds like] because there's this line that people cross and they don't realize they've done it until it's too late. You don't wanna end up like most of us BL'ers 8) Hopefully all of the posts here in TDS make you wanna steer clear of being a drug addict... It's not pretty or fun. Be careful!

 

[hyroller]

you're a habitual user, yes. a junkie, not quite. just wait til your life revolves around taking/scoring drugs and you start selling all your shit to be able to fund your habit... and then maybe you'll be worthy of the title.

I still wouldn't suggest your level of use is healthy or setting a very good precedent for your future. be careful.

 

[totach]

id say u are a pre junkie lol cuz thats how it starts to becoming a full junkie unless u hav some amazing self control which maybe u do i c nuthing wrong wit drugs if u can cantrol it i wish i was able 2 : (

 

[Subdivisions]

I think a junkie has more to do with what you have going on in your life. If you live for that next high- you're a junkie. If you take care of yourself, know what you want out of life and are just having some downtime at the moment- enjoy it!

However, it seems like you need to do some soul searching. Find out what it is you want to do with yourself (you know it already) and go after it.

I've learned that when I was at my worst as far as chasing the next high, it was when I lost sight of my goals and my true reasons for living.

Life is short mate!

 

[sid3]

Sorry to sound like your mother, but stay away from the xanax. It's one of the meanest drugs to wd from. Trams can be pretty wicked too depending on amount, duration etc. I smoked weed for twenty years, looking back I wished I'd have stopped after a few years. Addiction to anything is a bytch, be careful. I'm sure I'd laugh off someone when I first started taking a little ativan and oxy here and there had they told me to stay away, eight years later, severely addicted, IDK. Like the other poster said there is this line and once you crossover it your screwed.

 

[thelung]

If using drugs makes you feel like shit, stop using the drugs! You are far from a junky; I bet it wouldn't be that hard to stop using completely if you found a supportive network of friends to help you along...

 

[totach]

i jsut wanna add also imo someone that uses heroin is not a junkie someone that has to steal to get heroin is a junkie well thats atleast my point of view cuz i was a heroin addict for 5 years n i never stole never robbed if i was broke then i stayed sick

 

[Lazyscience]

Ever since my university finished and I'm now free for the summer plus, my girlfriend is away for a month, all I can think about is getting as high as possible as much as possible.

I'd better be responsible and find a job or find a happy balance between the two.

 

[Thick_as_a_Planck]

Man, a lot of people have said this, but it won't hurt for me to repeat it again.

You're not a junkie... yet. But you could be one day. Think about how guilty you feel right now and how much worse you might feel in the future. You're already calling yourself a 'scumbag'. While I don't think you're deserving of this title just yet, read a few of the stories on the TDS, think how you would feel if you were the person who'd done these things. There are people on this site who have stolen money from their parents, seen their best friends die of overdoses, gone to prison and worse. Are you ready for these things to happen to you? They all could. But if you just stop taking a few measly fucking pills - pills that, if you're honest with yourself, don't even make you feel that good anyway - then you can avoid all that bullshit and have a good life.

I'd say you were at a fork in the road man... turn the right direction, please.

 

[sid3]

^^ well said. I'd add that not only could some of those things happen, it's likely many of them will. Ask anybody who's crossed the line and wish they could just quit, the fucking pills don't even make you feel good anymore, they just keep you from feeling like shit.

 

[unsettled]

No you're not a junky, but you're heading in the general direction. I guess you'd be in the beginning phase. The good sign is that you feel guilty (although I don't think you have anything to feel guilty about) because you are less likely to let things get out of hand if you feel guilty about this level of drug use even when you don't have any responsibilities.

I didn't feel guilty for a long time, it was more like what will this pill do to me? what will this other pill do to me? what do these drugs feel like when I'm out at the bar? Is it more fun to play the guitar on these pills or the other ones.....etc.....I would just get caught up in how it all felt, never had any moral issues with it, and I always continued to follow my dreams and live my life until one day I realized I couldn't function without the drugs. Even then I didn't worry about it, I just made sure I had the drugs I needed and kept going on my way. Somewhere along the line I realized I had some major addiction issues and I quit drinking (mostly), quit weed, made some lifestyle changes and got some professional help for my depression anxiety stuff. I'm still dependent on benzos and opiates but they are at therapeutic levels and I keep a close eye on my drug use. Obviously not out of the woods and I think about drugs way too much.

So maybe it's good that you feel guilty, you can quit now and save yourself a shitload of trouble down the road. Find what you want to do, you sound young, it's essential to find something you love to do whether it's a career or hobby to keep your life moving forward.

p.s. stay the hell away from xanax, it seems harmless but it will own you if you keep it up and it's very hard and not to mention potentially dangerous to come off of on your own.