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i want opinions

nah, you're not a crybaby. we just confuse the shit out of ourselves emotionally, mentally and habit-wise. So what you're doing is actually what an intelligent person would do, you don't know so you ask others for perspective.

A lot of folks don't realize that it does take time to get back to 'normal' but really, when you step back and look at the bigger picture, a few months to a year isn't shit compared to the amount of years that are ahead of us.

This is uncomfortable for you right now because its new. Nothing ever stays 'new', man.

For me, saying stuff like 'I'm fucked for life' (yeah, I've said/thought that as well before) is just me trying to give me an excuse to keep getting high. When I've continued chasing after my drug with that mentality I would get pissed because I expected people to accept it and just say 'well, he says he's fucked for life and can't be helped so its ok' but they really were saying 'dude, you're just trying to justify your usage and you expect us to support ya? get the fuck outta here'

we didn't fuck ourselves in a few months so its unrealistic to think that we can unfuck ourselves in a matter of days or weeks.

You sound a lot like me, man. I get in my head and think the craziest shit in order to rationalize getting high, cutting/burning myself, etc. Its old thought patterns that we've grown accustomed to. Whenever we encounter something new and foreign its real easy and real comfortable to go directly to the ways we're accustomed to thinking. It seems safer that way because its familiar. When the pain of staying stagnant and using got greater than the pain of change I had to do something different.

Keep pushing through, man... there is a reward but it takes some time. A few months can feel like a lifetime but before you know it you start to notice that it has gotten MUCH easier
 
so true im the king of rationising i used to perpesly fight wit my girl just so i had a excuse to get high by the way i only just realised that now : ) but ya man its fucking tough but im gonna do it i hope this time i hav alot to loose man i guess i can say i was born lucky or wutever if you consider wealth lucky but i dont even care bout money i hate hurting my family so much so in reality i still am not sure if i am stoping for me or for them and ppl wopuld say that is a big problem because u r supposed to stop for yourself and only yourself but i honestly believe if its family ur stoping for or even your dog if it does the trick it does the trick
 
totach said:
i honestly believe if its family ur stoping for or even your dog if it does the trick it does the trick
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agreed, man. Stopped is stopped and you never know when your reasons will change. A person could realize later that they truly want it for themselves
 
overdone i feel like uve helped me so much that if i relapse i will feel like i failed u i dont know y i feel like this i dont even feel like that wit my g/f i guess its that i know u know wut im going thru n u took ur own time 2 help me thank u so much i will def keep u updated on how im doin if u dont mind ur a tremendous help 2 me : )
 
dude, we're all the same, man. Its a struggle and most of us understand how difficult and rewarding it can be after that struggle morphs from a full on 'to the death battle' to a minor, petty annoyance. I can't possibly put a time frame on when it will get easier for you because everyone is different. Just don't set your own time frame.

Some folks say, 'ok, I'll give this thing 2 weeks and if I don't feel significantly better, I'm out'. That kind of thinking is a set-up and just another way of justifying getting high again by setting unrealistic expectations/goals. Those same people roll out after their pre-determined time frames and never REALLY gave quitting a chance. I always wonder 'hmmmm, what if the pain was going to stop at 2 weeks and a day?' It sucks because sometimes we don't even give ourselves a chance
 
Shooting is a step down, up? from snorting/smoking. Its a step anyway lol. I was just snorting drugs for like a year and then I started shooting. I'll tell you, that was fucking hell. The addiction to the needle is like the addiction smokers have to having something in their hand. I used to shoot cold water when things were dry :/
 
i wish there was something i can chase with i think that would be a great help for me i love the physical part of chasing i honestly did try the needle once n od'd so i dont remember much i kinda remember the rush it did feel good but i didnt c the need of switching i still enjoyed my smoking : )
 
i made it thru the weekend im on my 6th day now but feel like shit overdone im taking ur word that this is all worth it : )

day 7 no subs im gonna try to not take my soma 2nite for sleep n c if i can get a couple hours of sleep that would b great the soma is starting to loose its touch sheyyyttt!!!!
 
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totach said:
day 7 no subs im gonna try to not take my soma 2nite for sleep n c if i can get a couple hours of sleep that would b great the soma is starting to loose its touch sheyyyttt!!!!
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Fuckin' awesome, man! This thread is inspirational, totach. It helps me because it reminds me that if I take just one of anything I'll be off to the races and I don't know if I could go through the beginning stages again.

Dude told me that its easier to stay clean than to get clean and I can easily agree
 
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thank man, but still none of us hav shit on u 8 MONTHS!!!!!!! hopefully in 7 months n 3 weeks i can say the same : ) as long as this thread is open i will check in evreyday until its closed sheyyttt!!! damn i cant stop typing that word
 
^^^^ lol....

definitely agree that staying clean is easier than getting clean....

although when I gave up my DOC for 9 months I just switched to taking a milder form of it, less often :|

thissss time I have to give it up altogether & I'm scared, scared as fuck :| especially since I just got on to a source who can give it to me for almost half price of the going rate 8o

mind over matter hey....
 
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its funny i have the same problem i managed 2 have only 1 connect for the 5 years i was using but it was some older guy whos bin using forever and theres no way he doesnt hav cuz hell die he always has he wasnt a dealer he just thought he was doin me a "favor" ya right misery loves company cuz towars the end he was always bein a dick like telling me he doesnt hav n shit so i found a new connect by chance n he comes to my job and evreything n half the price and i know his number by heart so well it sucksss but anyways today is day 8 clean SHEYYYYTTTT!!!!!!!!!! : )

hey evreybody today is day 9 and 2 wutout subs i feel pretty shitty but i am still taking soma n xanax at night cuz i have to sleep atleast for a few hours orelse thats my main thing that makes me relapse so in the back of my head im really scared but i hav to get off this junk so yay day 9 : ) SHEYYYTTTTTT!!!!!!!!!!

hey mods if you read this can you please not delete this thread even if no one writes but me it is very helpfull for me as i look forward to it evrey morning to come here n write that im still making it thanx : )
 
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hey guys day 10 sheyyyyttttttt!!!!!! i couldnt sleep for shit last night even with popping 4 somas this is not good i duno what to do i have like 60 2mg xanax left but didnt take it cuz im scared to get hooked FUCKKKKKKKKKKKK the soma was a godsend 4 a week now im screwed this sux : (
 
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