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Bad trip making you want to trip that much more?

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angelicknights

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So I once had a very bad trip, I wrote about it in another thread but I'll copy and paste it in here too.

"I have only ever had one truely bad trip, and that was when I did 6 grams of the most potent shrooms I have ever seen. The trip before that was 5 grams and it was the normal laughing " Holy shit guys look at the walls" kind of trip. On the bad trip me and 3 other friends, all of us with very high doses, went to Alice in Wonderland, and right there it was a disaster. I got way into the movie and forgot that I had taken shrooms, and when I looked around me I was literally in the movie, I freaked out and through I was bleeding and kept asking a friend if I was "really here". This freaked the other 2 guys out and we all had terrible trips.

Now they both quit shrooms, one guy quit drugs 100%, the other just shrooms. But to me that bad trip was our fault the setting was horrible, but ever since the bad trip, I've been tripping more and more trying to prove I can have a wonderful trip, that just because I had one bad trip doesn't mean all will be. It is almost like that bad trip pulled me more into the world of psychs and trying to learn everything I can about myself and about the world."

Is it just me, or are there others out there, that the bad trip was just a bad trip it does not deter you from drugs at all, but seemingly make you want to do them more, and maybe you'll have another bad trip, but this one will not get the best of you. You will overcome that bad trip and have one of the greatest trips of your life, while learning some of the deepest things about yourself.

I just always wondered, even now, about 3 days ago one of the guys asked me
"Have you done mush since that, you know that day."
my answer yes
" Yes, about 4 times or so since then."

And he looked at me as if I was nuts, and asked how I could do it, the idea of shrooms just makes him ill in the stomac.

So am I alone in that my bad trip only made me more interested in just how deep that hole goes?
 
I cant relate to you directly, but a friend of mine experienced something like this. Once I thought he was joking around when he was saying "Imma eat all these 10 tabs" and i was like "hahaha yeah right". He took them all and had such an intensely bad trip.

The next day he said, next week, we're going out into a forest, camping for a weekend and tripping balls.
 
nothing like a bad trip to show you the kind of power your own brain can unlock if you only give it a proper chance.

i know my BAD mushroom trip (intense delusions, thought i was causing the destruction of the universe and killing my friends) made me really want to understand my own mind and made me intensely curious about the outer space that lies within oneself.
 
Inner space isn't quite grandiose enough for him ;)

As for the difficult trips, gotta love em. Takes a lot for me to be freaking out these days though. They don't necessarily make me want to take more drugs though. They help me figure out what issues I might have (people assume they know what's wrong with themselves too much, look outside your assumptions usually its not something conscious) and how I might go about working through them. If I get stuck or I genuinely think it will help, I may go another round for that purpose.

To say "Bad trips make me want to take more drugs" is way too fiendy for mine. Unless there's more thought behind the statement than previously indicated. It just sounds like terrible advice, generally speaking.
 
You're not alone. I've tripped a number of times since That Night (as it is known amongst those who were present), and although I'm still working at integrating that experience, I still take LSD. I guess I'm multitasking :D
 
A bad trip just can't deter me from taking another healthy dose of psychedelics. I've only had one what some might consider a bad trip. To me it was more of a rough one. Well in fact, I don't know how to classify it, but for about 30 minutes to an hour, I was extremely scared, mainly of police, and I just started thinking it wasn't going to end, and that I was possibly stuck like that. I was so scared in fact that I started crying for a bit lol. Drugs. Anyway, I wouldn't call that a bad trip, just a rough scary one. Besides that little moment, the rest of the trip was amazing.
 
Bad trips can be the best. I often find that at times, during spiritual and psychic distress, I desire psychedelics more. ATM, I am finally getting through heroin/morphine withdrawal, and a big smoke of DMT earlier was the exact thing I needed. I regained my centre; or at least, sure where my center was and have begun moving towards it...
 
Got that right .i think its all to do with the purity.

the more you have the more you start freaking out.

but yes the day after its all like,fuck that was a bad trip MAN,

then next weekend your at it again,

ohh acid and being young
 
Definitely, i learn the most about myself through bad trips, so i dont look at them in fear but more through curiosity. I've dosed LSD in the upwards of 60+ times and have had countless bad trips, some that effected me for months, others that eased out by the next day.

Once your drawn in that far that it starts becoming difficult or uncomfortable, you can't help but wonder the potential of the mind. Which i would attribute to the desire to continue tripping.

After i had my first breakthrough experience on DMT and the foundations of my entire reality and self were literally ripped apart into infinity, it was only then that i slowed down how frequently i was tripping and for what purpose. I've had friends who had horrible trips and never went back such as yours, but there's usually always a few in the group that are completley captivated by the experience weather bad or good that they 'must' understand more, find that answer that they dont know the question too.

You are far from alone my friend :)
 
I find bad/difficult trips (I tend to think of them as more a temporarily uncomfortable learning experiences than as a Bad Thing) are like scabs - they are ugly and uncomfortable but necessary for healing. And I can't stop myself from picking at them. I once spent a week shooting ketamine/MDPV "speedballs" and was down a deep, dark, lonely ol' hole for pretty much the whole week. I've never been so scared of the places a trip took me in my life but had to go back and explore it further. Repeatedly. I consider that week one of the most psychologically healing I can recall.
 
I too think you are not alone. DMT did it for me too :). After my first breakthrough insufflated dose (back before I had a scale....) I was so scared but so consumed by the desire to understand my fear, the experience, why it scared me, that I began doing more DMT. Lol same thing happened after the first time I experienced ego death with mushrooms
 
As I said before in another thread, the traumatizing trips are the ones that make me appreciate psychedelics, life, love, beauty, friends, and myself.

Just thinking about my hardest trips give me the chills, and a little anxiety.
 
lightitup said:
As I said before in another thread, the traumatizing trips are the ones that make me appreciate psychedelics, life, love, beauty, friends, and myself.

Just thinking about my hardest trips give me the chills, and a little anxiety.
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I always think of that one report on erowid titled Beauty and Terror...or something like that. I think it must be something like the feeling before skydiving (sadly, I have not been able to go yet, perhaps this summer ;)) that terrified but excited feeling, that THIS is being ALIVE
 
Raw Evil said:
You're not alone. I've tripped a number of times since That Night (as it is known amongst those who were present), and although I'm still working at integrating that experience, I still take LSD. I guess I'm multitasking :D
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Your post & TheMerryPrankster's post are very detailed and a very enjoyable read, but the story's are in fact very shattering experiences for the reader (in my case) at least, let alone for you.

hopefully you can pass through the problems. Don't try and sprint, crawl..
I'm rooting for you both :)<3
 
I've only had one "bad" trip really, and it wasn't even a bad trip in the epic "trapped in the torturous fires of psychological hell" variety. Nevertheless, I've often been worried about having a real bad trip, and it has prevented me from tripping a few times (or upping the dose) when I wasn't in the perfect mindset.

However, since my last trip (which wasn't bad), that seems to have changed. All of a sudden, far from being fearful of a bad trip, I find myself wanting to experience it. In my last trip I came to a new understanding of suffering (anxiety and other forms of physical and psychological pain/discomfort), and since then I've not yet found a pain that isn't worth my fully experiencing. I feel like I've been liberated.

It's not that I no longer believe in bad trips, but that I know that if and when it happens, I'll be ready to experience the suffering head on for all it's worth. And I will grow.
 
No such thing as a bad trip :p

No matter how uncomfortable you might find yourself, remember that your current state of mind is not a simply a result of a drug acting on your brain--instead, your brain is acting with the drug. You're just as much a part of the problem as the drug you've consumed.

Examine your reactions and find places for improvement. :)
 
i had a bad trip recently on my birthday, My Birthday was on April 19th i turned 24 this year.
basically i live on my own, have for quite some time.
My parents have never approved of my lifestyle but i dont find it that out of the ordinary.

Earlier in the morning on my birthday my parents called me and instead of happy birthday wishes i just got a bunch of we're disappointed in you bullshit. i mean i have a job i am working, i am conducting myself just the same as any other normal person would, they just have their own issues.

On top of all of that, I am adopted,
and my real mother, suffers from immensely bad schizophrenia.

So anyways... i just gotta say, that it was my birthday, and the 4-ho-dipt i consumed decided to turn me into a control freak, i mean, if you think about it, the morning of my birthday i had an argument with my parents, parents are one of the things we all want approval from, and i've never been able to get that from them, I just assume it really is because i am adopted...


i took a psychedelic drug, and the psychedelic drug, turned me into a control freak for the first 15 minutes before the drug hit, as soon as the drug hit me, it took away all control i had over my thoughts and feelings and expressions about said emotions about what was going on with my parents, which has happened hundreds of other times and unleashed them into the world like some kind of vicarious pandoras box.

I yelled at all of my friends and told them to leave, but my girlfriend stood by me because she knew that it was probably all related back to my parental units.

I have been doing mushrooms off and on sense i was 14. I am very very far from schizophrenic.

this has been my first bad trip in over 6 years.

Primarily i really do have to say that if you have something that is bothering you buried in your emotional memory because you don't feel the urge to let it out and communicate it effectively with your friends or lovers, the psychedelic drug will turn that feeling into a monster, and thus i unleashed a shit ton of misguided rage at all the wrong people...

On my birthday of all fucking things. Thankfully, everyone understood, my friend adam, took a few of the people who were at my house with me and started to explain to them, that i had just had a rough morning, and probably shouldn't have taken drugs.... like, if there is anyone on here interested in hearing the whole semantics of what its like being adopted by people who adopted a child as an accessory, i would be more than glad to fill you all in...

My whole life, has been a bad trip, up until the day i tried to kill myself, and my parents kicked me out of the house. lol

It has been a long strange trip, but it has been worthwhile completely in every single facet.

1 bad trip, can be so horrifying to some people.
Some people do have. Darkness within them, and not all of us keep that darkness in check.
Psychedelic drugs can bring out that darkness if we don't have it balanced and kept in check properly. I know who i am, i know what life is about, i know whats important,
but there is a very fine balance in the world mentally and understanding how the mind works is a really good way to find harmonious resolve.
 
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