Choronzon333
Bluelighter
So i don't know where else to post this. I know music isn't like a drug but I think i have a music problem? As funny as it sounds this is NOT a joke. Please take this seriously. I have always been a music lover and played at least 1 instrument semi seriously for a majority of my life now. I have always liked listening to music too but lately I feel like I have to listen to alot and find sometimes I have a difficult time stopping once I've started. Also I feel like once I start listening I want to give it my full attention so it is keeping me from doing other things I like or need to do sometimes.
For instance Sometimes although less rare I will get stuck listening to music even though I want to go out and party or hang out with friends. Or when I have something important to get done like a paper or studying I will say I'm gonna listen to one song and hours will go by delicately listening to whatever. I like jazz and technical metal, especially death metal and brutal death metal... and I also like classical, various kinds of electronic and countless other genres. I don't know if there is something wrong with me or what. Like, I enjoy every minute of it like sex or drugs. Its like having my ears carressed and at times its feels on par with sexual stimulation albeit in a different way. Everytime I listen I feel like i'm going on a journey and I would say I have a very sensitive sense of sound perception/cognition so I can almost see the environment of the recordings, like how big the rooms they were recorded in are etc... and different images for different types of manipulation of the sound like with reverb, gain, compression etc... It is hard to describe and I can go into almost a trance state listening for hours without realizing how much time has gone by. Mainly the listening addiction centers around either technical metal, jazz/jazz fusion or classical. Sometimes this happens with playing/making music too.
I wouldn't mind doing it if I had more time on my hands but enjoying listening so much and not stopping is having a bit of a negative effect on my life sense I give so much attention to the music and it takes my attention away from other important things. I don't know what the deal is or if there is something wrong with me or what to do because if I don't listen for at least a devoted hour I feel very deprived and kinda depressed or yearning it.
Any thoughts or advice. ANything is much appreciated and please be serious as I am entirely serious about this.
For instance Sometimes although less rare I will get stuck listening to music even though I want to go out and party or hang out with friends. Or when I have something important to get done like a paper or studying I will say I'm gonna listen to one song and hours will go by delicately listening to whatever. I like jazz and technical metal, especially death metal and brutal death metal... and I also like classical, various kinds of electronic and countless other genres. I don't know if there is something wrong with me or what. Like, I enjoy every minute of it like sex or drugs. Its like having my ears carressed and at times its feels on par with sexual stimulation albeit in a different way. Everytime I listen I feel like i'm going on a journey and I would say I have a very sensitive sense of sound perception/cognition so I can almost see the environment of the recordings, like how big the rooms they were recorded in are etc... and different images for different types of manipulation of the sound like with reverb, gain, compression etc... It is hard to describe and I can go into almost a trance state listening for hours without realizing how much time has gone by. Mainly the listening addiction centers around either technical metal, jazz/jazz fusion or classical. Sometimes this happens with playing/making music too.
I wouldn't mind doing it if I had more time on my hands but enjoying listening so much and not stopping is having a bit of a negative effect on my life sense I give so much attention to the music and it takes my attention away from other important things. I don't know what the deal is or if there is something wrong with me or what to do because if I don't listen for at least a devoted hour I feel very deprived and kinda depressed or yearning it.
Any thoughts or advice. ANything is much appreciated and please be serious as I am entirely serious about this.
