Do You Think It's Worth It?
Hi, I might get a lot of shit for this post, but at this point I just don't care. I'm a newly turned 16 year old girl, and I have watched drug use in my family for about 5 years. I am not an addict, and nor will i ever become one, due to the nasty affects it's had, and that I have seen, on my family. Weed isn't even an option for me. I have watched my brother's sit there and ruined every chance of life they will ever have because of Heroine. My oldest brother, if you can even call him a brother anymore, is so disgusting to me. I've seen him cheat, steal, lie, and con his way through his life. He can't keep a steady job, and has been to jail mulitple times for the same thing. Finally he has decided to become clean. But the lieing and the conning is never going to change. He still tries to cheat his way through life, because that's all he knows. I have watched my mom have break downs, and have to deal with so much stress because of him. He has caused so much strain on my family's relationship. My mom would do anything for him, that's her first baby, if it ment that he would try and get clean, where as my dad wanted to cut ties with him forever. My mom couldn't let him go. Our family was there through his battle to get clean. But as i said before, the conning the lieing never changes. It hurts me to say, I do not have a realationship with my brother anymore. Not after i decided to stand up, and give him my form of opinion on who he is, and he said hurtful things back, even though he is clean. I've watched him teach my other brother the ways of drug use. I've watched him turn my 21 brother into a full blown addict. His drug of choice, heroine. I'm just greatfull that my 21 year old brother is now in jail, clean, and will come out of jail clean, and will hopefully stay that way. But again, our relationship is strained because of one word. HEROINE. Heroine has caused my family so much, pain, stress, fights, everything. It affects more than the addict itself. My littlest brother has no role model. He cannot look up to his bigger brothers. What's he supposed to grow up to be? A loser? No. So i have to be his role model. A big thing for a 16 year old to do.
So you decide. Is trying to get a stronger high, worth losing and hurting your family, and fucking up your own life?