So you just jumped off Subx at 4mg/day? More than a week ago, and you're fine? I read your quitting journal briefly... So you did subx for only a few days or was this time the 5 months? Either way, that's pretty unusual and impressive. But if it's been a week+ & ur not in wd, then you're good. Seems like you have a very unusual reaction, though, since most people start feeling wd a couple days after abrupt cessation of Subx.
This is sort of unrelated but I've been in and out of this forum for years but today I read stuff on here I just can't believe. Shooting Suboxone???? I mean that is a level that I just can't even imagine. People dying?? It's so sad here!!!
RIP Carsick. I can't believe a smile like that ODed.
Anyway, I was prescribed 16mg/day (took it for five months) and I never took anywhere close to that. Usually I would just take one pill
whenever I remembered. I never thought about opiates on the stuff it's pretty incredible. I would even forget to take the Subs until I started feeling w/d! I am very thankful that I my father supported me one hundred percent and paid the very expensive doctor who did not take insurance. It worked and today I am so happy. I used to go to NA but I totally disagree with their attitude. I can have a drink and be fine. Anyway, I have very intense guilt about my use and I am very open about it -- my doctor says too open to the point that I e-mailed all my professors to tell them that I used! Very dumb but I feel like it creates a safety net and I also wanted to demonstrate that every is susceptible to drug addiction or something like that.
When I first stopped, none of my "friends" believed that I would actually stop. I made it a mission to prove them wrong. I also have a feeling that I can redirect my addictive tendencies to non-drugs. I've abused almost all rec drugs except crank and all those crazy chemicals some of the people on the forum create or obtain (well I did 2c-i once). Then when I got on subs they told me w/d would be just as bad but over time they came to see that I was functional again... I became an example for them and my typical behavior in this realm of life is nothing exemplary. My dad told his psych I was on subs and his doctor freaked out which alerted my dad that bupe is the active ingredient and bupe is an opiate. my father was so worried about me quitting suboxone but I gave him the bottle and that was it. He was surprised at how little w/d I experienced.
I also needed to prove my father wrong. I owed my dealer $150.00 and had to call my dad crying one morning to pay him back because I'm too honest (I will never allow myself to be in debt). I went on a binge and was nodding off like never before. I think I was close to ODing after banging an 120mg oc and smoking .6 gs of heroin 3. I never shot up. I don't know if you can OD without shooting but I suppose the answer to that is of course. Anyway, that scared the hell out of me and led to me quitting. Got on the subs and that was it. I made new friends, started dating women, it was just so much better than nodding off in front of my friends. I also was on 2-3 mg of Klonopin the whole time which might have made things more dangerous.
All the people I used to use with after a while started to respect me because I stopped and I was a pretty heavy user amongst my group. The best day of my life was when my dealer who I stopped talking to for many months came up to me man and finally admitted to me that he was just stubborn and wanted to quit. I don't know how he is doing now but I don't think he ever told anyone that before. I felt like I had done my job by helping someone it was great.
I am hoping to do that here too. Perhaps it is unusual to so easily quit Subs but it is at least possible and I just want to let everyone who uses Subs to actually help themselves (how you recreationally use that shit I don't even know -- I mean a fat 80 line vs 2mg of subs? Are you kidding?
WHOEVER READS THIS POST AND WANTS TO BE CLEAN -- IT DOESN'T HAVE TO BE N/A CLEAN -- WHATEVER CLEAN NEEDS TO BE FOR YOU -- TO BE STRONG!!
Today is my twenty-third birthday

and I just got this e-mail from a college in Medford/Somerville:
Hello,
I want to let you know that I have just certified your degree. Congratulations on your achievement!
Your official date of graduation will be February 6, 2010 and your diploma will be sent to your permanent address about 8 to 10 weeks after that date.
:D
I am out of the states now and just feel so great. Next up... kpins... thanks guys you are giving me the same strength I need to quit the kpins and continue working to be totally drug free (you know what I mean) though some of the posts honestly scare me! I usually don't consider myself a pussy but here I will readily admit that I am! Sorry this post is kind of a long ramble and maybe belongs in the Dark Side I don't know.
Cheers,
Boston340