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I hope TDS helps, my first time on it. I haven't spent much time on here except to get info on drugs. I'm dependent on opiates BAD. I kind of quit for the new year I've been tapering with lortabs, I still need help cuz tomorrow will be day one n I have no idea what to do lol. Oh well I'll be in hell for a week, but it all be worth it in the long run.

If anyone has advice please PM me or check out my post on OD in Addicted help thread

~DJ Play~
 
great to be here

Thanks to a good friend of mine who intoduced me to this site, I became a member after seeing what a great site this is.

Hello to all of you new internet m8s , As you can c Im not a lurker and find this site awesome. Ive so much to read and interact with.

Trying to be clean, I can't use a needle but I am on alot of barbs...opiates and narcs etc from doc for pain..means Im not clean these being...oxycontine, oxycodone , endone, vals, moggies etc. Im trying to get some info from this site regarding them as am having bad experiences from them. Also it's great to b on this top site as i say above

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Welcome to TDS and to BL OPfM and Flowerchild
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hey everyone i'm shreya i dont think anyone here's from india ...well theres gotta be a first i've been reading TDS long time now only now got it me to start postin
not too much o an addict rite now sticking to opiates weekends ...new group of friends who've all been there done that
love ya all
 
numbtar said:
is there anyone here frm ma part o d wrld ? a fish bowl full of shit .. is what i'm lookin at
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tSorry to hear that and I tend to agree with you there......and they all say ' it will get better ' but it doesn't necessarily. But trying to be optomistic as possible :)

GLuck
 
Hi

I started using drugs, marijuana when I was 14, and from there it has been a long, long journey. I started smoking crack in 1982. It never my intention to smoke it. I did it to to be excepted. I was too embarrassed to say no. I am now 55 and still struggling to stay away, completely, from crack, which is the only drug I use now. I've been able to stay away from it for up to six months at a time, now, and when I use it's only for a day or two, but it's totally unplanned and disruptive. I've got a great a new high profile, high responsibility job and I just missed a day from work getting high. Didn't show, didn't call. I've also met a wonderful woman and we had a great time two nights ago, then I don't answer my phone for 2 days. I really want to leave crack alone. I don't ever want to smoke it again. I can see me loosing everything, again, and I'm way too old for this. But crack dose not care about how old, or how young you are. I'm going to try to use this forum to honestly vent, and share my feelings, and listen to what you have to say. I'm hoping to use this forum as a tool to help me never use again. Crack is a wicked witch. Crack is a devil demon. Crack is so, so seductive. I hate crack.
 
Aloha TDS, im Travis. I live in beautiful Hilo, Hawaii. One of the only places in the world where you can see a live volcano, see black, white and green sand beaches or go snowboarding all in the same day! I was born and raised 'Island Style' meaning im pretty much a nice guy, just dont fu*k with me! Im an only child, but was never spoiled, my parents were poor. My childhood was a mess, due to a drug using father and a mentaly ill mother. But now me and my Dad are like best friends. I can tell him anything! I started my drug life with weed at 13 and pretty much tryed whatever (coke, crack, shrooms, ex, lsd, speed, meth, and pills) But my favorite of all still is Marijuana, nothing like taking a big hit of some bud! Anyways I found Bluelight by accident, and never really used it untill recently. Im so surprised at how smart some of you all are on here! It blows my mind! I bet some of you could build an Hydrogen bomb! lol
I came back to Bluelight, and TDS for help in kicking an Oxy addiction and recieved some great advise. Now its up to me to see it through! You got a lurker, hopefully a poster later, for life tho... Well, that about it. Oh im also a father of 3 sons, ages 8, 6 and 1 and a half. And married, going on 10 years to the love of my life. She met me at my lowest point, and because of her I have'nt killed anyone yet (inside joke) xD I LOVE YOU CHRYSTAL! Aloha, my new friends!
 
E komo mai o BL!

and especially TDS, we have our own 'live volcanoes', ups, downs and all arounds here as well, in all colors shapes and mentalities ;) but you've probably noticed that.
glad to have another smoker around, i grow and smoke medically, and am very passionate about marijuana, but, we try or do not glorify it out of courtesy&respect for others who are struggling.

anyway, welcome again, and keep up the thoughtful posting!
 
Hey TDS, first time poster, long time lurker. Sup everyone, mods, fellow junkies, etc... I came back from the hospital tonight, after coming to the end of my rope regarding my dissociative use. Used both PCP and ketamine twice over the holidays, including one botched IV attempt with K. In September I was effectively addicted to PCP for three weeks after being sold a large amount as CBD, one of the components of hash. I'm still dealing with the toxic effects on my body and mind, as well as the psychosomatic pains I deal with on a daily basis. No doctor has been able to give me a solid diagnosis or anything to help deal with life, medical science apparantly can't help me.

Just as well since I gave up on it after being hastily diagnosed with bi-polar disorder and filled with Seroquel and mood stabilizers last May. I was over-prescribed Quetiapine and began to become somewhat delerious, I had to hide my symptoms and was urged to continue taking it by my useless doctor and psychiatrist. They say Seroquel isn't addictive-bullshit, it's just not pleasant! If you discontinue it suddenly you'll experience horrific symptoms, which is what I did against medical advice. Pretty much nobody has been able to help me for the past two years, aside from my family, but there's only so much they can do.

Sorry for the ranty first post, but I'm exhausted, head is pounding, and I think I'm gonna sleep now. G'night everyone <3
 
[B]Hey All[/B]

I've been reading Bluelight TDS for some time now but have just recently joined on. I want to help and support anyone that I can as well as receive support from the vast amount of knowledge and experience that comes from it's members.
 
General Patton said:
Hey TDS, first time poster, long time lurker. Sup everyone, mods, fellow junkies, etc... I came back from the hospital tonight, after coming to the end of my rope regarding my dissociative use. Used both PCP and ketamine twice over the holidays, including one botched IV attempt with K. In September I was effectively addicted to PCP for three weeks after being sold a large amount as CBD, one of the components of hash. I'm still dealing with the toxic effects on my body and mind, as well as the psychosomatic pains I deal with on a daily basis. No doctor has been able to give me a solid diagnosis or anything to help deal with life, medical science apparantly can't help me.

Just as well since I gave up on it after being hastily diagnosed with bi-polar disorder and filled with Seroquel and mood stabilizers last May. I was over-prescribed Quetiapine and began to become somewhat delerious, I had to hide my symptoms and was urged to continue taking it by my useless doctor and psychiatrist. They say Seroquel isn't addictive-bullshit, it's just not pleasant! If you discontinue it suddenly you'll experience horrific symptoms, which is what I did against medical advice. Pretty much nobody has been able to help me for the past two years, aside from my family, but there's only so much they can do.

Sorry for the ranty first post, but I'm exhausted, head is pounding, and I think I'm gonna sleep now. G'night everyone <3
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i hate seroquel too. i never had any social problems, once i was put on that i developed other issues
 
wow hello hello hello.

hello?

there has been a surge in new members, and fortunately for TDS it has been a wave of interesting intelligent people.
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what you no0bZ need to know from here on out, is that you are appreciated, and you make an impact on us all...!
 
Thanks panic in paradise, nice to know that us noobz are valued too :)

Lifeandtimes said:
i hate seroquel too. i never had any social problems, once i was put on that i developed other issues
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I'm really surprised that stuff got past first trials, something like 75% of people dropped out due to lack of effectiveness or unacceptable side effects. I can safely say that 75% of me hates seroquel and wishes to never do it again, after having dealt with it's s effects on the mind I can think of myself in parts... Which isn't a good indication that it worked at all, I'm sure it helps some people who deal with severe psychosis. But it really boggles my mind and saddens me that a fucking atypical antipsychotic is being pushed on every depressed or anxious teen... I mean there's even ads for it in People magazine and Teen, rediculous.
 
General Patton said:
Thanks panic in paradise, nice to know that us noobz are valued too :)



I'm really surprised that stuff got past first trials, something like 75% of people dropped out due to lack of effectiveness or unacceptable side effects. I can safely say that 75% of me hates seroquel and wishes to never do it again, after having dealt with it's s effects on the mind I can think of myself in parts... Which isn't a good indication that it worked at all, I'm sure it helps some people who deal with severe psychosis. But it really boggles my mind and saddens me that a fucking atypical antipsychotic is being pushed on every depressed or anxious teen... I mean there's even ads for it in People magazine and Teen, rediculous.
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yeah it's a fucked up world we live in. I had small anxiety issues maybe depression maybe some ocd but once i was put on seroquel and im talking low dosage of like 25 mg for about a month and a half, i start getting these weird paranoid feeling whenever i went for a walk, and weird out of body experiences, all sorts of weirdness, stopped feeling normal in public. Doctors know how to ruin lives and make us mental slaves to them. ever see how condescending some psychiatrists are.
 
Lifeandtimes said:
yeah it's a fucked up world we live in. I had small anxiety issues maybe depression maybe some ocd but once i was put on seroquel and im talking low dosage of like 25 mg for about a month and a half, i start getting these weird paranoid feeling whenever i went for a walk, and weird out of body experiences, all sorts of weirdness, stopped feeling normal in public. Doctors know how to ruin lives and make us mental slaves to them. ever see how condescending some psychiatrists are.
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I can relate to your experience of feeling strange while walking, which I would sometimes have to do quite often in order to deal with the restless feelings. I love going on nature walks, urban areas, anywhere, but on seroquel I felt as if the input from my surroundings were muted. It didn't matter where I was, I just felt apathetic and derealized, and couldn't appreciate any activities due to the strange side effects. I remember when I was first prescribed them, the pharmacist that filled out my prescription said something like "Oh, once we get you dialed in we can play around with the big pills!" which almost made me run out of there. Like holy shit! How am I supposed to trust these people with my health? It's hard to continue treatment when someone's idea of your happiness barely coincides with your own. Stay strong man.
 
Hello all. New to BL and just registered today, but have been lurking for a couple weeks. Looks like this thread is well read. I'm a 53 year old male, who has been on Tramadol for at least 10 years, and a regular, as in daily user, for the past 7 years. Tolerance is a BITCH! But before I go there a little history. I begin my love affair with opiates back in the late 80's, and for ten years was happy enough with hydrocodone in the form of cough syrups. I went from one doc to another, way back then, and had no problems getting scripts with refills. This progressed upwards to the now defunct, and infamous online pharmacies, where only a one page form was needed for a 120 count of 10/325 Norco, with 2 refills. That was enough to set the hook for me. My marriage of 23 years went south about 6 years ago, and I ended up in massive debt. But always, there is light at the tunnels end. I got off the hydrocodone for good in 2004, and am I ever glad I never tried oxycontin! Though I had my share of oxycodone. Anyways, it is now 2010 and I have kept my head above water and finally got the debt taken care of, mainly thanks to the job I have and family. So now I am on Tramadol only and am one of the "lucky" ones who has it to work for me. In fact I came to prefer Tramadol over hydrocodone quite readily. As far as the tolerance goes I mentioned above, I am up to 30+ pills a day. Way, way too much! I am working on bringing it down but plan on a slow, slow taper to do so. There you have it, and I am happy to be here.
 
the lucky ones

so I have been a sideliner of this site for a number of years. The luckyones(TLO)
are polydrug users. They have affinity for the power of poppies and their derivatives. TLO went to jail twice for forging scripts. It was almost always a good deal. TLO does not have the luxury of getting caught again. Yet so tempted to the point that it became obsessive and it happened thankfully without consequence but that only made it more tempting to these fools. The DR used is old forgetful but not stupid. Experience tells me pods pods pods. Canada is no longer a good spot for poppies. owning a credit card would give access to foreign pharmacies, not the case. Any suggestions from an insult to credible lecture would be appreciated.
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