This is my report of my first, and only experience with DXM. It was quite a while ago, and no doubt one of the strangest experiences I've ever had. I'm curious to know which plateau I reached if anyone can tell by the report. Here it is:
Me and a few friends were planning on rolling at a concert in a couple weeks. One friend, A has not rolled before so he wanted to try MDMA before hand to get a feel for it. We acquired some pills and popped them this Monday night, just to find out they were completely bunk with nothing in them. Feeling quite put off by the situation I eventually suggested doing DXM that night which I had read about before, yet never tried it.
Some background. I am a small built teen weighing only 110lbs. I drink and smoke weed a few times per week. I also have a few experiences with mushrooms, MDMA, vicodin, codeine and salvia. I came off the SSRI Cipralex about a month prior to this experience. I am currently prescribed the benzo Lorazepam to take as needed for anxiety and insomnia.
A is a bigger guy weighing 160lbs. He drinks and smokes weed a few times a week as well. His only other drug experience is salvia. As far as I know he is not on any prescriptions.
10:00pm - Me and A start walking to the drug store. We meet up with a friend B on the way who decides to tag along.
10:15 - I buy 2 bottles of Robotussin cough gels, one for me and one for A. Each bottle contains 20 gels containing 15mg DXM each.
10:20 - We each down our whole bottle for a dosage of 300mg each. B buys some food and we begin walking back to our area.
10:45 - We stop on a bench and I begin to notice some faint euphoria. A says he feels very happy. We smoke a cigarette which is much more enjoyable than usual. A then realizes his phone fell out of his pocket so we spend the next 15 minutes looking for it which is a huge buzz kill.
10:50 - A is defiantly feeling the drugs a lot more than I am. He is having a blast running through sprinklers on the way home without a care in the world.
11:00 - We sit down at a park and smoke another cigarette. Another friend C shows up to hang out.
11:15 - A begins to act very weird. He lays on the ground and has trouble responding to questions. He says he's really fucked up and doesn't understand how I'm controlling myself. I only feel slight euphoria and have no idea what he is talking about.
11:30 - All of a sudden it hits me all at once. So unexpectedly like the first time I did MDMA. Waves of numbness flow over my body. The feeling is not exactly pleasurable like MDMA, it's a kind of edgy feeling that is very intense.
11:45 - I continue to come up with body rushes becoming more and more intense. I take a bite of B's donut.
12:00 - I vomit out the donut. B asks if I'm okay and I assure him that I am fine, although I don't believe it myself. I keep coming up strong.
12:30 - C offers to take us to his house so we can settle down a bit and get some water. B decides to go home. The walk to C's house, although only about 5 minutes, seems to take hours.
12:40 - I drink some water and immediately regret it as my stomach handles it very roughly. Making the transition from sitting to standing up and vice versa is extremely uncomfortable and takes me a minute for my body to 'get used to'. I feel very anxious and worried as I have no idea when I'm going to stop coming up and finally peak.
12:45 - A is extremely fucked up and spills out a lot of dark details about his life. He reveals that he just tried to make his dad happy ever since he died. He says that he's seeing that it's time to move on and be more considerate of his own life. He seems to be having a very profound experience. He keeps telling me and C that he loves us and continuously wants hugs as if he is on MDMA. I experience nothing close to what he is. I just feel anxious and very fucked up.
12:50 - I puke out the water. I now feel very distant from the outside world. I feel that I may never return, yet I don't really care if I return. I have thoughts that I may die but don't really care. When I start realizing what kind of things I'm thinking about I get scared. I really wish I had some benzos to calm myself down.
1:00am - Me and A leave C's house. Once again the 5 minute walk seems to take hours. We go to the park and lay in the field looking up at the stars. I peak around now. I get hot flushes and have to take my sweater off. I feel like I need to stretch out my body, then I feel like I want to tuck my legs in. I cannot comfortably cope with the very intense feeling throughout my whole body. The stars are not very visible from all the light pollution. When I sit up in the field it feels like I'm switching worlds. A has the same feeling. Once again, the transitions from sitting to standing feel quite uncomfortable and take me time to get used to.
1:15 - While standing I find it hard to stand still. We decide to go for a walk. I'm now experiencing cold flushes and have to walk with my arms crossed with awkward leg motions. I probably look quite weird walking like this and this may be what they call the 'robo walk'. From time to time the top of my head feels itchy, but it goes away if I ignore it. A does not experience any itchiness.
1:30 - We continue walking mindlessly. I still feel quite uncomfortable and anxious. A continues to talk and talk and talk. I ask what time it is, thinking we have walked for hours and it will be morning soon. A checks his phone and we both cannot believe that it has only been 15 minutes. We lay on another hill and one again look at the stars.
At this point we are still peaking and the effects are really indescribable. The only way I could relate to other drugs would be if you were drunk on mushrooms. Light visuals from the mushrooms combined with dizziness and anti-anxiety/anti-care effect from alcohol. I also still have a feeling throughout my body that I cannot describe as positive or negative. Just 'intense'. I have no appetite and surprisingly no craving for cigarettes.
This time the stars seem to look amazing. I would have to call this my favourite part of the experience. We could pick out constellations, and observe the beautiful night sky that seems to not be suffering the light pollution we saw just half an hour ago. If it was really 30 minutes making that big of a change in the night sky, or if it was just the drugs making us think that, I don't know. I do know that it was truly an insightful experience. Stars seem to be moving around as we become apparent that our vision is quite impaired.
2:00 - We walk down to the waterfront and sit on a bench to observe the breathtaking lake and night sky. Everything is still. We can hear the waves quietly hitting the shore. It is at this point that I realize I have now been enjoying the experience instead of trying to combat it. My body has gotten used to the effects and I no longer feel anxious. It feels as if me and A have been living on DXM for days, although it has only been a few hours. A makes lots of phone calls full of apologizes and empathy.
2:30 - On the walk back home I can happily tell myself that I am very gradually coming down. The feeling is still there very strongly. No other psychoactive I've done is more intense than this one. However, I feel good that I can now cope with the feeling. A complains he still feels nausea and says he wishes he could throw up. My nausea has seemed to subside since I stopped drinking water.
3:00 - After lots more walking around during the come down we decide to head in. I realize that I have completely forgot about phoning my parents throughout the whole night, so I find myself locked out of the house. A says I can stay at his place.
3:15am - We try to get to sleep but we both know it won't come for a while. I now experience lots of closed eye visuals. Not patterns and such that I see on mushrooms. It seems like whatever I'm thinking about in my head comes to life when my eyes are closed.
4:00 - Still cannot sleep. Once again wish I had benzos. I'm thinking I've pretty much come down, but on the way to the washroom I stumble and realize that the drug is defiantly still hitting me. I believe I fell asleep somewhere around 4:30am.
7:30am - Me and A wake at the same time. We worry that we have slept in too long. It feels like we have slept 8-10 hours. When we check the clock we cannot believe it is only 7:30. We can still feel the drug but feel much more sober since we went to bed. We decide to try and get some more sleep.
11:30am - Wake up again, this time feeling refreshed. I have a mild headache and a bit of a dizziness, similar to an alcohol hangover. We agree that we will never touch DXM again, although still believe the experience was worth it. Similar to a really good movie such as Shindler's List which I love but could not watch more than once. I head home and my pupils are still dilated.
So overall this experience blew me out of the water. I didn't think something over the counter could be so strong. Like I said, I don't think I will touch DXM again. Just like mushrooms and salvia it seems to increase my anxiety rather than reduce it. I did, however, have some amazing times on the drug and it has some qualities I really appreciate. I did not get scared of negative feelings or feel oncoming panic attacks like I do on mushrooms and sometimes marijuana. I did not feel like I needed a certain setting to enjoy the drug like I do on MDMA or alcohol.
This experience was a strange one, and I only recommend high dose experiments to those experienced in the world of psychedelics.
Me and a few friends were planning on rolling at a concert in a couple weeks. One friend, A has not rolled before so he wanted to try MDMA before hand to get a feel for it. We acquired some pills and popped them this Monday night, just to find out they were completely bunk with nothing in them. Feeling quite put off by the situation I eventually suggested doing DXM that night which I had read about before, yet never tried it.
Some background. I am a small built teen weighing only 110lbs. I drink and smoke weed a few times per week. I also have a few experiences with mushrooms, MDMA, vicodin, codeine and salvia. I came off the SSRI Cipralex about a month prior to this experience. I am currently prescribed the benzo Lorazepam to take as needed for anxiety and insomnia.
A is a bigger guy weighing 160lbs. He drinks and smokes weed a few times a week as well. His only other drug experience is salvia. As far as I know he is not on any prescriptions.
10:00pm - Me and A start walking to the drug store. We meet up with a friend B on the way who decides to tag along.
10:15 - I buy 2 bottles of Robotussin cough gels, one for me and one for A. Each bottle contains 20 gels containing 15mg DXM each.
10:20 - We each down our whole bottle for a dosage of 300mg each. B buys some food and we begin walking back to our area.
10:45 - We stop on a bench and I begin to notice some faint euphoria. A says he feels very happy. We smoke a cigarette which is much more enjoyable than usual. A then realizes his phone fell out of his pocket so we spend the next 15 minutes looking for it which is a huge buzz kill.
10:50 - A is defiantly feeling the drugs a lot more than I am. He is having a blast running through sprinklers on the way home without a care in the world.
11:00 - We sit down at a park and smoke another cigarette. Another friend C shows up to hang out.
11:15 - A begins to act very weird. He lays on the ground and has trouble responding to questions. He says he's really fucked up and doesn't understand how I'm controlling myself. I only feel slight euphoria and have no idea what he is talking about.
11:30 - All of a sudden it hits me all at once. So unexpectedly like the first time I did MDMA. Waves of numbness flow over my body. The feeling is not exactly pleasurable like MDMA, it's a kind of edgy feeling that is very intense.
11:45 - I continue to come up with body rushes becoming more and more intense. I take a bite of B's donut.
12:00 - I vomit out the donut. B asks if I'm okay and I assure him that I am fine, although I don't believe it myself. I keep coming up strong.
12:30 - C offers to take us to his house so we can settle down a bit and get some water. B decides to go home. The walk to C's house, although only about 5 minutes, seems to take hours.
12:40 - I drink some water and immediately regret it as my stomach handles it very roughly. Making the transition from sitting to standing up and vice versa is extremely uncomfortable and takes me a minute for my body to 'get used to'. I feel very anxious and worried as I have no idea when I'm going to stop coming up and finally peak.
12:45 - A is extremely fucked up and spills out a lot of dark details about his life. He reveals that he just tried to make his dad happy ever since he died. He says that he's seeing that it's time to move on and be more considerate of his own life. He seems to be having a very profound experience. He keeps telling me and C that he loves us and continuously wants hugs as if he is on MDMA. I experience nothing close to what he is. I just feel anxious and very fucked up.
12:50 - I puke out the water. I now feel very distant from the outside world. I feel that I may never return, yet I don't really care if I return. I have thoughts that I may die but don't really care. When I start realizing what kind of things I'm thinking about I get scared. I really wish I had some benzos to calm myself down.
1:00am - Me and A leave C's house. Once again the 5 minute walk seems to take hours. We go to the park and lay in the field looking up at the stars. I peak around now. I get hot flushes and have to take my sweater off. I feel like I need to stretch out my body, then I feel like I want to tuck my legs in. I cannot comfortably cope with the very intense feeling throughout my whole body. The stars are not very visible from all the light pollution. When I sit up in the field it feels like I'm switching worlds. A has the same feeling. Once again, the transitions from sitting to standing feel quite uncomfortable and take me time to get used to.
1:15 - While standing I find it hard to stand still. We decide to go for a walk. I'm now experiencing cold flushes and have to walk with my arms crossed with awkward leg motions. I probably look quite weird walking like this and this may be what they call the 'robo walk'. From time to time the top of my head feels itchy, but it goes away if I ignore it. A does not experience any itchiness.
1:30 - We continue walking mindlessly. I still feel quite uncomfortable and anxious. A continues to talk and talk and talk. I ask what time it is, thinking we have walked for hours and it will be morning soon. A checks his phone and we both cannot believe that it has only been 15 minutes. We lay on another hill and one again look at the stars.
At this point we are still peaking and the effects are really indescribable. The only way I could relate to other drugs would be if you were drunk on mushrooms. Light visuals from the mushrooms combined with dizziness and anti-anxiety/anti-care effect from alcohol. I also still have a feeling throughout my body that I cannot describe as positive or negative. Just 'intense'. I have no appetite and surprisingly no craving for cigarettes.
This time the stars seem to look amazing. I would have to call this my favourite part of the experience. We could pick out constellations, and observe the beautiful night sky that seems to not be suffering the light pollution we saw just half an hour ago. If it was really 30 minutes making that big of a change in the night sky, or if it was just the drugs making us think that, I don't know. I do know that it was truly an insightful experience. Stars seem to be moving around as we become apparent that our vision is quite impaired.
2:00 - We walk down to the waterfront and sit on a bench to observe the breathtaking lake and night sky. Everything is still. We can hear the waves quietly hitting the shore. It is at this point that I realize I have now been enjoying the experience instead of trying to combat it. My body has gotten used to the effects and I no longer feel anxious. It feels as if me and A have been living on DXM for days, although it has only been a few hours. A makes lots of phone calls full of apologizes and empathy.
2:30 - On the walk back home I can happily tell myself that I am very gradually coming down. The feeling is still there very strongly. No other psychoactive I've done is more intense than this one. However, I feel good that I can now cope with the feeling. A complains he still feels nausea and says he wishes he could throw up. My nausea has seemed to subside since I stopped drinking water.
3:00 - After lots more walking around during the come down we decide to head in. I realize that I have completely forgot about phoning my parents throughout the whole night, so I find myself locked out of the house. A says I can stay at his place.
3:15am - We try to get to sleep but we both know it won't come for a while. I now experience lots of closed eye visuals. Not patterns and such that I see on mushrooms. It seems like whatever I'm thinking about in my head comes to life when my eyes are closed.
4:00 - Still cannot sleep. Once again wish I had benzos. I'm thinking I've pretty much come down, but on the way to the washroom I stumble and realize that the drug is defiantly still hitting me. I believe I fell asleep somewhere around 4:30am.
7:30am - Me and A wake at the same time. We worry that we have slept in too long. It feels like we have slept 8-10 hours. When we check the clock we cannot believe it is only 7:30. We can still feel the drug but feel much more sober since we went to bed. We decide to try and get some more sleep.
11:30am - Wake up again, this time feeling refreshed. I have a mild headache and a bit of a dizziness, similar to an alcohol hangover. We agree that we will never touch DXM again, although still believe the experience was worth it. Similar to a really good movie such as Shindler's List which I love but could not watch more than once. I head home and my pupils are still dilated.
So overall this experience blew me out of the water. I didn't think something over the counter could be so strong. Like I said, I don't think I will touch DXM again. Just like mushrooms and salvia it seems to increase my anxiety rather than reduce it. I did, however, have some amazing times on the drug and it has some qualities I really appreciate. I did not get scared of negative feelings or feel oncoming panic attacks like I do on mushrooms and sometimes marijuana. I did not feel like I needed a certain setting to enjoy the drug like I do on MDMA or alcohol.
This experience was a strange one, and I only recommend high dose experiments to those experienced in the world of psychedelics.
