Endymion00
Bluelighter
Well I'm home from University for the break until like the 11th and my parents are going away this weekend. Naturally my overly eager and extremely social younger sister decided it would be the perfect time to have a party. Ever since she ran the idea across me I've been feeling extremely nauseous and tired...
I mean, I've never been good with people...but these guys are all friends...so I don't know why I'm so nervous about it. I think it could be the concept of drinking (as I throw up when I drink hard liquor) but even when I decided not to the feeling is still there. I think it might be guilt that I'm taking advantage of my parent's trust while they're away for the weekend...
which in itself is an ironic considering I do drugs freely when I'm away from home....
in any case this has been ruining my day and I've felt sluggish and sick to my stomach all morning now.
the party is only a few hours away and I don't want to be the killjoy ruining everyone else's fun.
I think I probably won't drink. I never did like it. I get violently ill. I think I must have an allergy or something...liquor just doesn't agree with my stomach, even if I drink the bare minimum.
I did however get a hold of some very fine bud and I've heard it helps with anxiety and such...so I was wondering if maybe smoking a little before the party would help ease my rattled nerves?
I mean, I've never been good with people...but these guys are all friends...so I don't know why I'm so nervous about it. I think it could be the concept of drinking (as I throw up when I drink hard liquor) but even when I decided not to the feeling is still there. I think it might be guilt that I'm taking advantage of my parent's trust while they're away for the weekend...
which in itself is an ironic considering I do drugs freely when I'm away from home....
in any case this has been ruining my day and I've felt sluggish and sick to my stomach all morning now.
the party is only a few hours away and I don't want to be the killjoy ruining everyone else's fun.
I think I probably won't drink. I never did like it. I get violently ill. I think I must have an allergy or something...liquor just doesn't agree with my stomach, even if I drink the bare minimum.
I did however get a hold of some very fine bud and I've heard it helps with anxiety and such...so I was wondering if maybe smoking a little before the party would help ease my rattled nerves?