Early, early childhood.

[applesandvodka]

Has anyone here ever experienced any sort of psychedelic induced strong resurgence of childhood memories? This could include anything from learning your native language to your own birth.

I'm just curious and would like to hear people's experiences on the matter, since that happened to me almost a year ago and the experience still baffles me.

 

[deff]

i haven't had anything that profound (i.e. experiencing birth)

but i've had a couple of mescaline trips that seemed to take me chronologically through my childhood memories, and worked to emotionally heal a number of things that i didn't even remember had happened prior. of all the psychedelics, mescaline seems the best to me for inner emotional work and recalling past memories.

 

[0live]

yeh, somewhat i take a lot of ketamine, and get a recurring extremely familiar feeling centred around my tongue, which makes it feel like it has been cut in half or like its being pushed down my throat, and this, for some reason, takes me back to being very very tiny (though I'm not sure how/why as I have little memory of that time - 2/3years old) and is wildly familiar in a deja vu sort of way.

I also see 'things' / entities which I 'know' from being a child but they are inconceivable to my present mind but that I know from that time. They relate in intricate and known ways to my life now, but when I come round from the trip I obviosuly cannot remember the details. I find it really helpful that these things happen and it has put me at peace a lot, even though I cant remember the resolve I come to in the trips, I still know that I came to it and that seems ok. Its really comforting, as if I have 'forgotten' these things in my conscious life, but my unconscious still remembers them..hope that makes sense?! :/ !!

I also get flashbacks from when I was in hospital as a child, things like the operating rooms, the mural painted on the ceiling in the anesthetic room, doctors and nurses, voices, drips being put in etc, I can only assume this is maybe because I may have been treated with Ketamine for operations when I was young and my body physically remembers the sensation.

Its a really interesting topic to bring up!

 

[Psychonautical]

Oh yes, i have experienced lots of childhood things.

When i took 100mg of 4-aco-dmt, i had the memory of the time when i was 3-4 years old and my parents rented an R.V. and drove out to New Brunswick, and i remembered when i layed down on the couch with my eyes closed the music i was listening to reminded me of the "head noise" i used to have as a child. with eyes closed i had the vision of standing on the beach, i could turn my head and look behind me and see my parents and the R.V. and i would run out to the sea, and have the tide chase me, I felt so happy i started to cry with joy.
and then, as in my vision of the past i stepped on this tiny baby crab, and it pinched my toe and i actually felt the pain and everything...

I had to call my parents the next day to ask them
about what happened because i don't have
"perfect memories" of the early days, and my mom was telling me how i stepped on a baby crab and started crying because i thought i killed it, and thats why it bit my toe lol.

and i dunno, i hadn't really been able to reminisce like that with my Mom before or anything like that, and it just felt like something in my life had been completed.

 

[klkl]

my first time on LSD, I got a 100% clarity flashback to watching a D.A.R.E. video in elementary school rofl (like 4th grade - was in college)

was really ridiculous, remembered like a 20 second fragment in full detail

I think it happened because I was thinking about how stupid it is that people take the fact that it's called acid and say shit like it fries your brain, and then remembered the video

LSD is a crazy drug

 

[imcool]

DXM in doses of about 400-700mgs have done this for me. I would sometimes smell past places i used to visit when i was around age 5 or so. Like the dollar store that my parents always let me buy shit in. Its a very strange nostalgic feeling.

 

[porkstock]

outside in the winter on 2ce reminded me in a deja vu sorta way, of being a young kid and walking to the bus stop.
and smells have reminded me of things too.
much more profound when it happens, than my words make it out to be.

 

[L3inad]

I also see 'things' / entities which I 'know' from being a child but they are inconceivable to my present mind but that I know from that time. They relate in intricate and known ways to my life now, but when I come round from the trip I obviosuly cannot remember the details. I find it really helpful that these things happen and it has put me at peace a lot, even though I cant remember the resolve I come to in the trips, I still know that I came to it and that seems ok. Its really comforting, as if I have 'forgotten' these things in my conscious life, but my unconscious still remembers them..hope that makes sense?! :/ !!

I also get flashbacks from when I was in hospital as a child, things like the operating rooms, the mural painted on the ceiling in the anesthetic room, doctors and nurses, voices, drips being put in etc, I can only assume this is maybe because I may have been treated with Ketamine for operations when I was young and my body physically remembers the sensation.

Its a really interesting topic to bring up!

This ^

I've had the whole "entities" or just random patterns and what not that would bring me back to a long forgotton childhood memory, mainly from weed trips belive it or not lol.

Also the childhood hospital flashback one time, but nitrous being the catalyst rather than K. I was on a single good blotter, and did a tripple nang hit. Got sent back in the OR as a 3 year old, can actually remember them putting the mask on me o.0

Thats about the most profound nitrous experience I can remember, pity you can hardly ever take anything back with you =\

 

[0live]

Thats about the most profound nitrous experience I can remember, pity you can hardly ever take anything back with you =\

definitely, its such a shame that so much gets left behind in trips. I seem to be getting better at remembering the sorts of things that happen though, maybe because I am much more familiar with that 'other world'...who knows... 8)

 

[Roger&Me]

I've had the whole "entities" or just random patterns and what not that would bring me back to a long forgotton childhood memory, mainly from weed trips belive it or not lol.

Its funny you mention that because back when I had a very low weed tolerance, I would blaze up and become extremely high, and I would feel extreme nostalgia almost every time I smoked. As my tolerance increased, this effect seemed to go away-- but for a while, it happened every single time I smoked.

 

[swpk]

This happens to me almost every time that I'm tripping. The most vivid ones I have actually are of learning my native language. I remember lots of memories in which I am learning word and object association. It's really amusing because most of them are just plain wrong, and ridiculous for that matter. One of them was me for some reason seeing a pitcher of sweet tea in the fridge, and knowing certainly that that was "angry". To me, the word "angry" represented that tea lol.

On another note, my parrot loves to ramble. He told me that this happens to him most when he is very very stoned. He says that he just lies back, his eyes kind of flutter, and he relives very old memories and remembers forgotten ones.

 

[tara]

When I'm on acid, if I'm not moving around much during my peak I slip pretty deep into my head, my thought-stream will spiral around and out, and pretty much one of these two things will happen:

my thoughts will go sexual in this folding-back/repetition of self thing;

my mind will fill with forgotten memory fragments of childhood (old clothing or toys, drawings I'd made, an imagined language(?) ) -- never involving other people at this point, and nothing profound;

OR

some combination of the two... in this way that I can't possibly express adequately but is odd but not disturbing, per se. It makes sense at the time, in that way that things that make no sense do in that state. I just relax into and and see what there is to see as best I can; I figure, I'm still pretty new to this with maybe a dozen trips under my belt, there's plenty of time to see how things will unfold over time. There is usually this sense of no-shame that goes along with the trip for me, a very child-like state of non-judgement and ease which I really like -- in a lot of ways, acid gives me some of the things I wish E would (I don't roll hard, ever. *shrug* dunno why).

 

[nearjat]

LSD didn't really bring up memories for me, but I recognized my mindset as pretty much exactly how I viewed the world as a small child. May be a delusion, but whatever, it doesn't make it any less amazing.

 

[beau99]

I have always had flashbacks to my younger days, and while I can't say I've had any while on DXM, it seems to have enhanced my memory.

 

[Solipsis]

In one of my best trips on redose LSD I had fragments of very early childhood memories but some of it was jumbled and portrayed things that never really happened. Still one of my most valuable remembrances to this day.

 

[L3inad]

LSD didn't really bring up memories for me, but I recognized my mindset as pretty much exactly how I viewed the world as a small child. May be a delusion, but whatever, it doesn't make it any less amazing.

This ^

I get that ALL the time. And it is amazing. I dont know how fucked up I was as a kid, but acid really makes me feel like I'm seeing the world in the same way I did as a child. Very strange. I also get intense nostalia on LSD at times, as if I'd been in this exact situation before, like in a previous life or something. (Not that I'm much of a beliver, but it really does feel like it!)

 

[That-Strange-Guy]

I used to see paterns as a child, almost like closed eyed visuals and i never knew what they were or even payed attention to them untill i tried psychs....
Anyone have similar experiences?

Also I used to look into a light for a long time to see the inverted blob that blinds your vision for short periods of time

This may be some of the familiar hallucinations

 

[bighooter]

when i first took ketamine i had memories of when i was a child and had a sort of iner happiness feeling.

 

[shulsd33]

The first time I took acid I had a massive feeling of deja vu. That experience reminded me of the excitement and wonder of childhood. When you are on acid, it's like looking at the world for the first time, not just because the world looks so different, but because LSD can actually bring your mind back to a child-like state (temporarily) allowing you to see the world for the first time, again.

By a "child-like state", I don't mean acid will make you a kid again, but that it can temporarily disable your brain's organization system, allowing sensory information that is normally ignored to make it all the way into your consciousness. This puts your mind in a state that is ripe for rewiring, allowing new ideas, concepts, skills, associations -anything, to be integrated into your perceptual model.

All of the wonder, imagination and creativity that were present in your mind as a child comes flowing back again, uninhibited by your experiences.

This is why you may feel like you're seeing the world for the first time (or like when you were young).

One practical application of this is in learning new skills. Under the influence of LSD, one can actually put their mind temporarily in a state where they are capable of learning as easily as a child. If you are interested in learning more about this, I highly recommend reading LSD: The Problem Solving Psychedelic.


I have a friend who was brought up in a very rigidly structured environment and as a consequence had difficulty understanding concepts that were totally foreign to him. All of his unconscious anxieties and fears have prevented him from being able to get in touch with himself and express himself. He's very athletic, but he was never that good at frisbee because it wasn't something he did much in his younger days. For a while he struggled to throw the disk with any smoothness. He was very tense and rigid, which really hurt his throw. Even with plenty of practice, he was never as smooth as anyone else, until we tried playing frisbee on acid. With a little bit of instruction and guidance he was able to quickly unlearn all of his bad habits and throw as well as the best thrower in our group.

Acid broke down the mental "block" he had developed and allowed him to actually feel the correct way to throw the disk. Once he felt the correct posture and form, he could understand it and it got imprinted in his mind.

Although this one anecdote doesn't prove anything, it does give one example of how LSD can remove mental barriers. For even better examples, take a look at the link I posted above.