white_magic
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I recently smoked some pot, first drug in quite a while, and it made me feel quite uneasy. My body started tingling (and a little later.. my leg(s) started twitching, making it difficult to drive home).
Then a general feeling of unrest came upon me. My heart started beating faster than normal. This reminiscent but unfriendly vibe kicked in. Let me describe it as such:
Pressure. Sound.Texture (of the air). Motion, As though a huge invisible hand is slowly waving the air, and creating pressure in the air - making everything uneasy.
At that point I have this disconnect between myself and the space I inhabit. I felt less myself than normal. I was walking in circles, trying to calm down. And when that feeling *mostly* subsided shortly thereafter, I headed home. This is when the leg twitching game in. It wasn't hardcore, but it made driving difficult. I had to keep my hand on my right leg, to kinda cool and calm it down, since my hand was at least mildy cold.
Anyway, halfway through the drive, the twitching kind of went away, and the tingling became more manageable. Music started sounding so soothing and pleasant, and I drifted into happy thoughts. Then the usual pseudo-intellectualism kicked in, along with really beautiful reminiscings and imaginings. I imagined myself flying in an icy or maybe a minty world. And I didn't want to surrender to it, being afraid to surrender to a different reality, while being aware how 'unhigh' I actually was, compared to my past experiences with pot or psychedelics. But I did decide it was alright to be flying through the ice worlds (I'm still driving at this point)..
Anyway, the point of all this is to give you a context to help me understand the following points. First, why did I have leg twitching? It was almost uncontrollable.
To add to this, I had the leg twitching also happen to me when I did a line of coke slightly to big for my tolerance level. But why would there be leg twitching and uneasiness from a non-stimulative drug like marijuana.. let alone from..
1 toke. That's it, really. I took 1 reasonable toke from a joint, and not one bit more. And at no point could I say that I was seriously stoned.
Also, I'd like to give a bit more background:
It had been a while since I had done anything. In specific, it had been 2 years since I did any weed, 1 year since I had 2 imcomprehensively bad 5-MeO-DMT trips, and a 1/2 year since I almost OD'd on E (+ all the other drug experiences that went without a hitch). I've been afraid of even getting too drunk since, because I don't wanna end up in a scary place. Not long ago, when I had a few beers, I temporarily found myself very restless and agitated, thinking something bad was happening.
Second, why was there an unpleasant, nervous part of the experience for the first hour and only happy times after that? Does marijuana have stimulative properties?
Third, should I be taking a hint? If 1 hit can do this to me, then have I changed for the worse, or is it just the fact that I haven't smoked any pot for close to 2 years?
Then a general feeling of unrest came upon me. My heart started beating faster than normal. This reminiscent but unfriendly vibe kicked in. Let me describe it as such:
Pressure. Sound.Texture (of the air). Motion, As though a huge invisible hand is slowly waving the air, and creating pressure in the air - making everything uneasy.
At that point I have this disconnect between myself and the space I inhabit. I felt less myself than normal. I was walking in circles, trying to calm down. And when that feeling *mostly* subsided shortly thereafter, I headed home. This is when the leg twitching game in. It wasn't hardcore, but it made driving difficult. I had to keep my hand on my right leg, to kinda cool and calm it down, since my hand was at least mildy cold.
Anyway, halfway through the drive, the twitching kind of went away, and the tingling became more manageable. Music started sounding so soothing and pleasant, and I drifted into happy thoughts. Then the usual pseudo-intellectualism kicked in, along with really beautiful reminiscings and imaginings. I imagined myself flying in an icy or maybe a minty world. And I didn't want to surrender to it, being afraid to surrender to a different reality, while being aware how 'unhigh' I actually was, compared to my past experiences with pot or psychedelics. But I did decide it was alright to be flying through the ice worlds (I'm still driving at this point)..
Anyway, the point of all this is to give you a context to help me understand the following points. First, why did I have leg twitching? It was almost uncontrollable.
To add to this, I had the leg twitching also happen to me when I did a line of coke slightly to big for my tolerance level. But why would there be leg twitching and uneasiness from a non-stimulative drug like marijuana.. let alone from..
1 toke. That's it, really. I took 1 reasonable toke from a joint, and not one bit more. And at no point could I say that I was seriously stoned.
Also, I'd like to give a bit more background:
It had been a while since I had done anything. In specific, it had been 2 years since I did any weed, 1 year since I had 2 imcomprehensively bad 5-MeO-DMT trips, and a 1/2 year since I almost OD'd on E (+ all the other drug experiences that went without a hitch). I've been afraid of even getting too drunk since, because I don't wanna end up in a scary place. Not long ago, when I had a few beers, I temporarily found myself very restless and agitated, thinking something bad was happening.
Second, why was there an unpleasant, nervous part of the experience for the first hour and only happy times after that? Does marijuana have stimulative properties?
Third, should I be taking a hint? If 1 hit can do this to me, then have I changed for the worse, or is it just the fact that I haven't smoked any pot for close to 2 years?