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Octsober!!

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Phactor, hockey fan I see! There are times when I just want to go out and shinny my worries away but being on the cusp of summer in Australia doesn't really work at times.

Nothing like skating around with a friend, passing the puck and goofing off until your feet get so sore that you can barely make it to the car without tripping over yourself.

I miss it. :(
 
Day 8 for me. I haven't been able to sleep much because I'm hoping/worrying that everything works out with what is going down related to the situation. I may end up having to do a drive to Chicago this morning, but its better then the 6 hour drive that I was looking at yesterday. Its 5:48 AM here and I'm going to get ready to go just in case.

Had a massive headache earlier, I'm also supposed to drive up to a Chicago Suburb on an equally screwed up case later in the day. Its looking like its going to be lots of Coffee today.

Again this wouldn't be possible if I had been drinking the night before. I need to keep telling myself that because I am going to be pretty damn exhausted today especially towards the end. Keep it up eveyone else!

j-bird said:
Phactor, hockey fan I see! There are times when I just want to go out and shinny my worries away but being on the cusp of summer in Australia doesn't really work at times.

Nothing like skating around with a friend, passing the puck and goofing off until your feet get so sore that you can barely make it to the car without tripping over yourself.

I miss it. :(
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Yeah I played it most of my life. We used to even build a skating rink in my yard so I could practice more. I'm thinking about getting involved in an adult league now. I would probably be really rusty.
 
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congrats mariposa on staying strong through those triggers... so hard to do! and yay to phactor for forgoing that celebratory drink!

work is nuts right now, too tired for the gym this week i think. yoga is keeping me sane though. as long as im doing something, you know?

good luck this weekend everyone!
 
^I'm considering starting a yoga class. My "sponsor" is a good friend (not a bler) I've known for almost 15 years, who is an absolute exercise and natural health fanatic. We are going out not for drinks, but for specialty tea and healthy munchies here this weekend. I don't think any of the Octsober folks are in the Bay Area, but if so, you're more than welcome to join us.

Question for everyone. For those who don't have the goal of complete sobriety from *everything* - how many of you smoke marijuana? I have a lot of books on medical marijuana and was thumbing through one last night. I will have to pull up the study that shows that marijuana may have a neuroprotective effect against alcohol-related brain damage.

Another benefit to the whole quitting thing: I've had a small tremor in my hands for as long as I can remember. After drinking, it's often more than a small tremor, and it's caused me embarrassment when others have noticed it. For about the past week and a half... it's GONE. I've always wanted to take a drawing or a painting class (probably painting) but held back because I felt like my hand wasn't steady enough. Now it is!
 
In December this year I will have been seeing my Suboxone doc for 24 months. I'm on the suboxone for an 320mg a day oc habit that I have been to detox/inpatient for 4 years ago but fell back into my old habits and here I am....I have relapsed twice over my 22 months on subs and gone for a 2 month run that killed my bank account that was finally starting to recover.

For the last 6 months or so I have been chipping once a week or so doing about 200mg on Saturday or Sundays. I decided to take a break for the rest of the month once I read this thread though. This is the first time I have written in though.

In answer to Mariposa I do currently smoke everyday after work as I have smoked just about everyday for the last 6 years (except rare occasions). After I get home from work after 9 hours I take a bong rip and go about making dinner and cleaning the apartment or just chilling with the g/f. It really helps during my 'down' time to help me chill out. I also have anxiety that it seems to help with. I have read that study on the neuroprotective effects of it and it seems intriguing to say the least. Perhaps MJ is my DOC and I dont wanna admit it, I dont know.

Well just thought I would chime in and great job everyone just about 1/3 of the way there!
 
Just got off of about 20 straight hours of work... I am to tired to drink lol. I was really on point today though and part of it is from not drinking.
 
Made it another 3 days sober...
Paranoia was once again super unbelievable. I had the worse hangover I've had in a while after my working lunch day...I didn't drink huge amounts more than a normal day for me but it was bad. First hangover in a while too, so it made me want to stay sober.

I'm starting to feel good... and right now I'm not feeling like drinking at my get together tomorrow...because I'd like to continue to feel good.

Mariposa;7604923Question for everyone. For those who don't have the goal of complete sobriety from *everything* - how many of you smoke marijuana? I have a lot of books on medical marijuana and was thumbing through one last night. I will have to pull up the study that shows that marijuana may have a neuroprotective effect against alcohol-related brain damage.[/QUOTE said:
I'd be interested in that study...I've considered a hit or two when I've had some cravings but haven't done that yet as I want to prove to myself I can be sober. I'm not really worried about exchanging one high for another because it's so not the same kind of feeling for me.
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To add to the list, I'm making this day #1 of no more cigarettes.

I was going to use Chantix but became impatient and threw a nicotine patch on last night before bed

We'll see
 
day nine!! loving it!

we had company for dinner last night and the boys were drinking beers and i didn't feel the slightest temptation.

mariposa: i actually smoked some marijuana last night and it was quite calming. im a one puff wonder though, i think less is more ;) oh, and yoga is so awesome, esp the second and third time. you'll love it.

good luck to OD!! quitting can be the worst, and the quit aids the give you always have crazy side effects, but if you set small goals and work up, it can totally help. i always did, two days, one week, two weeks, etc, so i didn't feel overwhelmed. also, plan what you are going to do when you get a really bad craving. sounds silly i know, but worked for me. small craving=deep breathing, med craving=glass of water, big one=jog around the block!

Optimus Crime: don't wait that long man. what do you do when you fall of the wagon? you dust yourself off and you get back on. good luck to you. :)
 
I'm smoking a cigarette at the moment. My 'quitting' didn't last long. I may not be ready. I flipped off an ambulance driver and have been in the mood to fight. That's not me so maybe its just not the right time?

I think I'll do Chantix. I understand that the irritability is greatly minimized. I can't be walking around in public pissed at the world wanting to punch someone in the face.

Oh well. I'm disappointed in myself but at least I'm 50 days clean from the drugs and alcohol and have been doing well with the rest of my Octsober 'to do' list
 
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No drink or drugs for two weeks...
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Good job im proud of you. I hope you keep it up :) .

PA, wow, that had to have been a huge trigger for you. Good for you for fighting it off.
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Well to be honest im kind of turned off alcohol now so it wasent that big of trigger. Even thinking of the stuff almost makes me sick for some reason probably because of all the bad memories attached to it.

There was the bad little bastard in the back of my head telling me to rip open the case of beer and start chugging them. Surely one night on the booze wouldnt hurt 8) . Ya right how many times have i said that. I guess there will always that part of my brain no matter how silenced it is telling me to drink everytime theres a trigger. I'll have to live with that and i can.
 
It's great to have those of you in this thread who have a good amount of sobriety behind you.

The month's now basically 1/3 over! PA, I understand what you mean by the nausea at the thought of alcohol. I went to buy cloves at the liquor store today, the first time I've been in there since I quit drinking. Even the massive bottles of Grey Goose looked, well, gross.

I'm still getting triggered here and there. But now there are some edible cannabis treats around the house. The dark chocolate covered hash peanut butter bar I am eating is making it easier not to drink. I definitely appreciate cannabis more lately, particularly edibles.

OverDone - congrats on quitting cigs, that's a great decision for your health. Chantix seems to be very effective and safe in most people that use it, but do be careful and let your doc know right away if you have any severe depression or suicidal thoughts. I understand those are possible side effects of the drug.

OC, yes, get back on the horse! Even if you aren't able to be abstinent, is cutting down in order? I am sure you would notice mental and physical benefits simply from lowering your intake. Think about it?
 
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