Rodya
Bluelighter
first il give you a quick history:
i started smoking when i was a freshman in highschool, by soph year i was doing it daily, i was high more than i wasnt high, then junior year i started to get super socially awkward, paranoid, and the high just pretty much lost its fun, i started doing heroin for like 8 months, then i quit and stayed completely clean from everything for a couple months. now im 18 and i started smoking weed again and its completely different, it actually makes me more sociable, its soooo much more fun than it was during sophmore year, and it just seems like a whole different drug.
as a side note, during sophmore year pot was pretty much an addiction for me, if i didnt smoke one day then i would feel like shit and i would crave like crazy. now its like a whatever thing for me, i smoke when i want to and im happy, and if i dont smoke im cool with that too. theres no real pattern to my use, its pretty much arbitrary, like whenever i feel like it or whenever the occasion arises.
it could be that my year of virtual abstinence from pot caused me to find a new love for it, but i think its moreso my maturity level, i dont want to sound pedantic or like a jackass teenager, but im definetly much different than i was sophmore year and i think that now that my mind is more developed and experienced, i can enjoy pot in a whole new way and its definitely better integrated into my lifestyle.
so what do you guys think? have some of you experienced a similar change as you matured or got older?
i started smoking when i was a freshman in highschool, by soph year i was doing it daily, i was high more than i wasnt high, then junior year i started to get super socially awkward, paranoid, and the high just pretty much lost its fun, i started doing heroin for like 8 months, then i quit and stayed completely clean from everything for a couple months. now im 18 and i started smoking weed again and its completely different, it actually makes me more sociable, its soooo much more fun than it was during sophmore year, and it just seems like a whole different drug.
as a side note, during sophmore year pot was pretty much an addiction for me, if i didnt smoke one day then i would feel like shit and i would crave like crazy. now its like a whatever thing for me, i smoke when i want to and im happy, and if i dont smoke im cool with that too. theres no real pattern to my use, its pretty much arbitrary, like whenever i feel like it or whenever the occasion arises.
it could be that my year of virtual abstinence from pot caused me to find a new love for it, but i think its moreso my maturity level, i dont want to sound pedantic or like a jackass teenager, but im definetly much different than i was sophmore year and i think that now that my mind is more developed and experienced, i can enjoy pot in a whole new way and its definitely better integrated into my lifestyle.
so what do you guys think? have some of you experienced a similar change as you matured or got older?