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Drug Sabbatical Support & Appreciation Thread

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Karaboudjan said:
In my experience, when I didn't have a job I used to just get worse and worse. I'd go to bed later every night, rarely get up before midday, have a shit diet, no exercise, do too many drugs. It's amazing how much better you feel for having a decent routine and sleeping patterns etc, even if I'm not *happy* in life.
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This man, he speak the truth. Was terribly miserable emotional alkie wreck til recently but getting into a good routine and having a bit of exercise and that made a world of difference in the early days of giving up. Hard to get into one while you're fucked up though but a thousand times more worth the effort <3

Start doing stuff, find some pointless hobbies and something to love or enjoy and the rest will come.
 
^ 23 bluelight points
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What I want to see is a leader table / score board detailing point totals B9. Your forever awarding them but never updating us with who has what. I imagine I have approx -345,000. ;)
 
Karaboudjan said:
In my experience, when I didn't have a job I used to just get worse and worse. I'd go to bed later every night, rarely get up before midday, have a shit diet, no exercise, do too many drugs. It's amazing how much better you feel for having a decent routine and sleeping patterns etc, even if I'm not *happy* in life.
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I agree with every single word you have said!

However sometimes it's just not possible to work a full time job. It is person and situation dependent. There have been times when it was just mentally impossible for me to handle working 37 hours a week. Last year I had to leave a mentally challenging 37 hour a week job as my boyfriend had just died, I was a fucking mess and the medication they put me on was too sedating to cope with the early starts. I only actually ended up being signed onto the sick for two weeks as it happens, as I found myself a part time job.

Working night shifts from 7pm Thursday night through to 3am Monday morning seemed to suit me better. However, that's because I'm nocturnal.

There's no rule that when you are signed off on the sick that you have to sit on your arse and do fuck all. They actually insist that you get involved in courses, and voluntary work.
 
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Yeah, I'm still waiting to hear back from the RSPCA about voluntary work.
 
I got the boot off incapacity benefit nearly 2 months ago for being too sane and intelligent...didn't receive any money at all for 5 weeks so borrowed off my parents...ok they forced it on me as they are very far from broke....after X amount of fucking around I am finally on ESA and it was back dated,which has a whole different rule set to IB.Have got an appeal for IB in the pipeline pending.
Its all about the government hitting targets.I am expecting to be forced back onto JSA at some point soon unless I get my new form filled out in a way that makes me appear to be the biggest fuckup in town.Then there is a medical.
I know from experience of mine and others that when it comes to these things you have to be full bore fucked up on the day.
It doesn't matter what my various medical practioners know about me,or it would seem that much to do with the form I fill in to apply for reinstatement or extension.Its all about the PCA (personal capability assessment).
In the past I saw a DR and managed in some way to convince him to give me enough points to continue my claim.This year I went in after drinking for 3 days straight to counter the dopamine rebound of a fortnighter on the guice,and somehow convinced the DR that I was very fit for work even though I was trying to say and act to the contrary.
But I know now that what I should have done is gone in after 3 days without sleep,wearing very dirty clothes,and having just consumed a litre of vodka.Because then my appearance,demeanor and mental state would have got me a "no questions asked" way back onto IB.
 
Consumed the last of my mephedrone last night, and think it's time for a break.

I love the stuff - I'd take it every night if I could. Have had 2 sessions this weekend - Friday night and last night. Ok - 2 drug sessions in 3 days is bad, but it doesn't bother me anywhere near as much as my tendency to take it in the week, and go to work completely destroyed from no sleep (and probably still a little fucked).

I know I have absolutely no self control - but hey, I just ran out of the stuff. No self control required! Obviously need to not order more, but the instant gratification thing is gone, at least.

To be honest, I think this is going to be quite hard. I feel really rough (sick, dizzy) for a while after a mephedrone session - day after is fine, day after that is a bit urg but ok, after that it gets worse each day. Dunno how long before it gets better - I only made it as far as 5 days before having more. Sounds like I'm describing addiction - but I don't think mephedrone is physically addictive. I think it's just that I haven't allowed myself enough time to recover, and to be completely simple about it - I've been doing it much, much too often.

Like I said, I love the stuff. It's really good fun! I think that the fact it got away from me is more to do with me than to do with the drug itself, since quite a few others seem to manage to not do it every night. It's the first time I've had really easy access to a great drug, and while I should have known better, I'm not going to beat myself endlessly about having gone off the rails a bit.

I'm gonna say... no more meph until I feel better. Which sounds very woolley I know. But I don't know enough to put a time limit on how long it'll take me to not feel like crapness. And also, if I say "a month", it seems unbearably long!

I only hope that I can stick to this...otherwise I'll end up doing it the hard way -- keep going until I lose my job or my head explodes. I'd really rather not wait for something disasterous to happen!

Not sure if I'm allowed to ask - but I'll ask anyway - please can you guys not flame me about this? I'm feeling quite fragile, and although good intentions seem to often do no good in the face of AWESOME DRUGS, I really do have good intentions!

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Ah we won't flame you, tis the sabbatical thread, we're all on the same page :D Good luck with it! <3
 
We're nice, you're nice, and we only flame not nice people. :)

EDIT:- I'm going to have a 2 weeks sabbatical. My missus is getting cross/worried about my Fluoromethcathinone use. Bah, what does she know!
 
You're all mentalists! So what if its been 4 weekends in a row i've come home pretty battered and had topuble sleeping and been rubbish the next day?:\

It's not like it's coke, is it? It's LEGAL....hahahahaha ;)

I will be giving it a bit of a rest though, as i'm not a particularly good boy on stims, and one of the main reasons i'm good on the coke is that it isn't possible to get it here.
 
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I will be giving it a bit of a rest though, as i'm not a particularly good boy on stims, and one of the main reasons i'm good on the coke is that it isn't possible to get it here.
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Haha - yes, I think that's why I'm good with coke too. And mdma. And speed. Yeah.... :)

I requested no flaming cos it's damn easy to say "I'm taking a break" after a heavy night - and it's reasonable to point that out. But... I've known for a bit that I needed to ease up a bit, when sober... but I don't think I'd have the nerve to post honestly about it when completely straight. I think it'd come out a bit "I'm absolutely fine, but y'know, I wanna test my willpower" or some bullshit. I'm hoping that openly stating my wish to CUT IT OUT will make it a bit more real.
With alcohol, there were many "hmm, I'll stop... bah, I want a drink... meh, no one knows I intended to stop, so I'll stop... next week" times, and properly saying "no more!" was a good thing.
Sure, this is a forum I've been a member of for 2 months or so - does saying it on here mean anything? Maybe not, but I have nowhere else to say it, and I think an online community (I hate that phrase...not as much as I hate Google Chrome underlining "online" and saying it's not a word though. On-line anyone?) like this is the best place for someone who's quite afraid of criticism to air this stuff!
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I'm not sure i've seen any real criticism of people talking about taking breaks. Just support. The nob-heads in EADD seem to avoid this thread.
 
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I'm not sure i've seen any real criticism of people talking about taking breaks. Just support. The nob-heads in EADD seem to avoid this thread.
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Thinking about it, you're right. Maybe that's what I'd think, if I saw a post like mine. So I guess I'm a nob-head :) ;)

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I guess also because there seems to be very little sympathy for meph abusers around here. If someone said "I am doing way too much coke and it's really starting to screw me up", they'd get a fair bit more understanding than "I am doing mdma way too much and it's really starting to screw me up". For many good reasons. A small one being: one's addictive, the other is not :) I'm not saying that people should be sympathetic to meph monsters like me, I'm just saying they're generally not.

Explanation over! I don't wanna hijack the thread - but will drop in and let ya'll know how it's going.

It's a beautiful day outside. I'm not going to venture out into it, but I'll certainly appreciate the view :)
 
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Hahaha, you edit makes it make more sense.

I've no iusses with people feeling they need to quite "non-addictive" drugs. I used to take way to many pills many many years ago, so i know where you are coming from.
 
I'm hoping you're feeling a little better now brokenbrain *hugs* <3

Angel you don't need to be physically addicted, psychological addiction is just as much as a fucker :|... And - It's good to come here and sound off about wanting a rest from your drug taking. Especially if the drug taking is causing you some problems - regardless of the type of problems. There is no score or league table in here :)

Kid, I've heard it all before from you 8).... pissing off your misses, well is that not a "red flag" signal? :\

It is for me when people i love in my life go on about my drug use and not in a good way, I know things are, well spiralling...

You know what you're doing though <3%) Right.

I'm here to brag =D Over the last month I've had 3 that I'll admit to sessions...ok, 4 cause there was that incident with the codeine, but that wasn't supposed to be about getting fucked...that just kinda happened 8):o:| I've not taken any stimulants and this has been a GOOD thing...they were starting to cause problems. Again.

There's been hardly any alcohol and I've stopped smoking cigs too. I'm looking a lot better for it, but psychologically, feel like shit still :(

I've been ill though, which has had a lot to do with really making an effort to cut down and keeping me sticking to it.

I'm itching to go on a bender though...timing it as I type =D hehe
 
Well done then:)

I'm still off the drink! My appetite is incredible, eating enough for three people at the moment. Weed not shaken yet though. Ah well, one at a time. . .
 
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