laurengotdatfire
Bluelighter
My original instinct told me to put this in TDS, but I would really like the sexually-active youngins in SLR to read this. 
Just like the vast majority of the population, as a young girl I had my share of flings and one-night-stands. Some protected, some unprotected. Being naive and young I basically blocked the thought of STD's and getting pregnant out of my mind, and since I had never experienced signs or symptoms of either, I assumed I was in the clear for a little bit too long. I became celibate for around 2 years until I met my current SO (happy anniv. soon!) and during the time of celibacy, I noticed some pretty strange pains going on in my abdomen. Specifically, my ovaries just felt sore, and if I used a tampon or anything it hurt real bad sometimes. I continued thinking nothing of it until my boo and I started fucking, and sometimes it would really really fucking hurt! He's bigger than most the guys I've been with, but the pains were not a stretching feeling, more of a stabbing in my organs.
I thought maybe he penetrated me too deeply, or hit it from a bad angle but these pains started to get more frequent during sex, my menstrual cramps started to be way more intense (I also hemmorage every time I get my period for about 3 days..and my period lasts up to 2 weeks...but this has been happening forever, just getting worse) and I started developing a discharge. My boyfriend and I went to the clinic and after being piss screened they concluded I had a minor vaginal infection. I took doxycycline for a month, and so did my boyfriend incase he had an infection as well... but my symptoms never went away. By this time my pains were still increasing, and it started to hurt to defecate and also hurt after orgasm. After a few weeks of being too afraid, I finally called a gynecologist and made an appointment.
After doing a pap-smear she concluded that I have HPV. Ok...HPV isn't uncommon or that terrible, but it's an STD so I got emotional over it. My boyfriend got examined by a doctor at a clinic and they discovered a few very small warts underneath the head of his penis, concluding that he had a low-risk form of HPV. I went for a few more routine visits and then I had a very strange episode. I got my period and about 15 minutes later I was in agonizing pain, sitting on the toilet with blood just pouring out of me (sorry to be graphic) also I started to vomit and convulse on and off for around a half hour. I should have called 911, I know, but I was home alone and couldn't even get up off the toilet or TRY to move. After taking some oxycodeine the pain finally subsided enough for me to fall asleep.
The next morning I called my doctor and let her know what happened and she was very concerned. She scheduled me to come in for a colposcopy ASAP (a colposcopy is a procedure where they wash off the walls of your uterus, cervix, and vaginal canal and they use a light and a microscope to search around for any abnormal-looking areas of tissue, and they take a sample and send it to the lab for results). I waited about 2 weeks for the results, and I finally got them. The doctor tells me I have the early-stages of cervical cancer and she wanted to send me directly into surgery to get the cancerous tissue removed before it starts to spread even more. She said I have a "dangerously-high" ridk type of HPV (along with a low-risk one, I'd presume, since my boyfriend and I *only* have unprotected sex). Since I am terrified of needles and being cut open, (they had to basically drag me into the colposcopy, and I cried the whole time and they only had to cut a tiny bit outta me) I told her I needed more time to think about it. She said there is no thinking about it unless I want full blown cancer.
I go into surgery on monday and the first procedure they are going to perform is a cone biopsy, to find out the exact level of abnormality of my cells. I find this pretty unneccesary since she could already tell it was (this is a direct quote from her mouth) dangerously high, but I'm terrified out of my skull and so is my boyfriend. I am in severe pain 24/7, it never subsides long enough to forget about it. I have to pay hundreds of dollars, maybe thousands, for people to cut me open! I do not want any of this, and it's going to be really hard to walk into that hospital. I just wanted to share my story with other girls (and guys, they're carriers) out there who are sexually active and not having regularly-scheduled gynecologist visits and pap-smears. Even anal paps for guys! It is not a joke. I didn't take my health seriously and now I have cancer. Great, right? If you are sexually active GO GET TESTED, USE PROTECTION, DON'T HAVE SEX WITH RANDOM PEOPLE (don't think someone you've known forever can't have an STD, though!), and GET THE GARDASIL VACCINE BEFORE YOU'RE SEXUALLY ACTIVE, OR ASAP. This all sounds like common sense but I can tell you that 99% of the people I know havn't even been tested well into their twenties, not to mention LIE and tell their partners and friends that they have been and are clean, to avoid questioning and embarassment. That is terrifying to say the least. I'm living my life in pain and stress because of some "fun" and attention I wanted as a kid. The cancer has caused me to gain weight in my abdomen, nowhere else. It has also given me terrible back problems, and it's impossible for me to sleep through the pain without some type of aid. I have not enjoyed penetration for quite a while because after a while it's just excrutiating and my boy has to stop. Trust me, you do not want to go through this.
It's SO much more important to be a little bit more safe, than a wholeeeeeee lot more sorry.
Just like the vast majority of the population, as a young girl I had my share of flings and one-night-stands. Some protected, some unprotected. Being naive and young I basically blocked the thought of STD's and getting pregnant out of my mind, and since I had never experienced signs or symptoms of either, I assumed I was in the clear for a little bit too long. I became celibate for around 2 years until I met my current SO (happy anniv. soon!) and during the time of celibacy, I noticed some pretty strange pains going on in my abdomen. Specifically, my ovaries just felt sore, and if I used a tampon or anything it hurt real bad sometimes. I continued thinking nothing of it until my boo and I started fucking, and sometimes it would really really fucking hurt! He's bigger than most the guys I've been with, but the pains were not a stretching feeling, more of a stabbing in my organs.
I thought maybe he penetrated me too deeply, or hit it from a bad angle but these pains started to get more frequent during sex, my menstrual cramps started to be way more intense (I also hemmorage every time I get my period for about 3 days..and my period lasts up to 2 weeks...but this has been happening forever, just getting worse) and I started developing a discharge. My boyfriend and I went to the clinic and after being piss screened they concluded I had a minor vaginal infection. I took doxycycline for a month, and so did my boyfriend incase he had an infection as well... but my symptoms never went away. By this time my pains were still increasing, and it started to hurt to defecate and also hurt after orgasm. After a few weeks of being too afraid, I finally called a gynecologist and made an appointment.
After doing a pap-smear she concluded that I have HPV. Ok...HPV isn't uncommon or that terrible, but it's an STD so I got emotional over it. My boyfriend got examined by a doctor at a clinic and they discovered a few very small warts underneath the head of his penis, concluding that he had a low-risk form of HPV. I went for a few more routine visits and then I had a very strange episode. I got my period and about 15 minutes later I was in agonizing pain, sitting on the toilet with blood just pouring out of me (sorry to be graphic) also I started to vomit and convulse on and off for around a half hour. I should have called 911, I know, but I was home alone and couldn't even get up off the toilet or TRY to move. After taking some oxycodeine the pain finally subsided enough for me to fall asleep.
The next morning I called my doctor and let her know what happened and she was very concerned. She scheduled me to come in for a colposcopy ASAP (a colposcopy is a procedure where they wash off the walls of your uterus, cervix, and vaginal canal and they use a light and a microscope to search around for any abnormal-looking areas of tissue, and they take a sample and send it to the lab for results). I waited about 2 weeks for the results, and I finally got them. The doctor tells me I have the early-stages of cervical cancer and she wanted to send me directly into surgery to get the cancerous tissue removed before it starts to spread even more. She said I have a "dangerously-high" ridk type of HPV (along with a low-risk one, I'd presume, since my boyfriend and I *only* have unprotected sex). Since I am terrified of needles and being cut open, (they had to basically drag me into the colposcopy, and I cried the whole time and they only had to cut a tiny bit outta me) I told her I needed more time to think about it. She said there is no thinking about it unless I want full blown cancer.
I go into surgery on monday and the first procedure they are going to perform is a cone biopsy, to find out the exact level of abnormality of my cells. I find this pretty unneccesary since she could already tell it was (this is a direct quote from her mouth) dangerously high, but I'm terrified out of my skull and so is my boyfriend. I am in severe pain 24/7, it never subsides long enough to forget about it. I have to pay hundreds of dollars, maybe thousands, for people to cut me open! I do not want any of this, and it's going to be really hard to walk into that hospital. I just wanted to share my story with other girls (and guys, they're carriers) out there who are sexually active and not having regularly-scheduled gynecologist visits and pap-smears. Even anal paps for guys! It is not a joke. I didn't take my health seriously and now I have cancer. Great, right? If you are sexually active GO GET TESTED, USE PROTECTION, DON'T HAVE SEX WITH RANDOM PEOPLE (don't think someone you've known forever can't have an STD, though!), and GET THE GARDASIL VACCINE BEFORE YOU'RE SEXUALLY ACTIVE, OR ASAP. This all sounds like common sense but I can tell you that 99% of the people I know havn't even been tested well into their twenties, not to mention LIE and tell their partners and friends that they have been and are clean, to avoid questioning and embarassment. That is terrifying to say the least. I'm living my life in pain and stress because of some "fun" and attention I wanted as a kid. The cancer has caused me to gain weight in my abdomen, nowhere else. It has also given me terrible back problems, and it's impossible for me to sleep through the pain without some type of aid. I have not enjoyed penetration for quite a while because after a while it's just excrutiating and my boy has to stop. Trust me, you do not want to go through this.
It's SO much more important to be a little bit more safe, than a wholeeeeeee lot more sorry.
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