about 4.5 years ago. I was a fat kid. 250 lbs. Went to the gym and ran 2-3 miles a day and did intense cardio work and alot of diet changes.
3 yrs ago. became ocd and severe anxiety and depression started to manifest, i became severly underweight.
Do I get anything special for reposting this one? I saw a request
hahaha
This was a little less than 2 years ago. Exs dog. He was such a pudgy mess..
After some improvements on antidepressants I relapsed with hardcore depression and mood swings. All my friends started becoming junkies, fiends, dealers...And my best friend who was hiding an h-habit that turned into a profession gave me 2 e pills to cheer me up...said they were safe...heh..
meth bombs.
Before that I had rarely drank and smoked weed about 4-5 times...
Started getting free coke from friends and doing amp/k/mdma/mda and tramadol
about 1.5 years ago. coke/amp psychosis days of wandering around the apartment questioning the my little pony dolls and holding a switchblade to stab any shadow creatures that may spring from the corners...
this is me with an acidic mindframe of lets where a snowsuit in the summer and latex gloves so that no allergens can attach to me when i try to give the cat a shower because he has gross dandruff...
Honing in on the bottom of my downward spiral. Everyone I knew was either a hardcore user or dealer. I had stayed in control till I fucked up the half lives and then got so strung out i just stopped caring about the days between.
After I woke up one day feeling sick and realized I had become addicted I stopped using everything aside from smoking weed. Withdrawal was pretty awful and seemed to last for almost 2 weeks. I'm glad I faced it however, it taught me to just appreciate being alive and not feeling like my soul was being sucked out through my frigid bones as i poured sweat and had tremors while puking all over...
Ok heres where things are better. Diet is somewhat regulated and I actually eat now, haven't and will never touch opiates again, don't smoke or drink anymore. I am not a straight edge...I just make my own decisions, for me, and I consider consequences and care now..
mmm udon
clubbin with my cup of icewater....lol.
The morning after
Randomly assorted..
Before goin out to a club
california rest in peace simultaneous release california show your teeth shes my priestess im your priest yeeeeahhh
damn it, I must look at it... wahh... lol, sorry... please
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