Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v 12

[blanch116]

155 days update - showers are somewhat starting to feel refreshing!

 

[Chanel_monster]

Small wins matters just as much.

 

[dopamineClippedAngel]

Cheers, your name says everything I’m going through right now. Dopamine is 100% clipped and I am an angel. Thing is … I don’t even have money relying on my GF to buy me a sudafed tomorrow although I have one at my temporary accommodation step down place , where I hate to go as it’s the same broken places with african staff that I feel broke me In first place, So I may have to go there to survive and not be a burden asking my girl for money - but it’s also the thing that I’m going to have to survive until morning … my dopamine is so clipped I can’t even have fun and god knows how long it’s going to last … this evil truly… dopamine fucked and blocked nose for 100 more days ; at bare minimum just feels hard to swallow - yeah you’re right it’s agony - but it will get better i believe

I totally get that feeling, hence the name... it sucks and it's the worst. I'm sorry you're having difficulty swallowing as well, but I'm glad you still have some hope. I don't have money either- relying on parents and unfortunately had to move back in with them. I really miss the freedom and independence of living alone, as they are very controlling in some aspects. But, I have to focus on university so it will be a few years before I actually get that freedom. I totally get missing having fun, I have honestly been able to have some fun recently which has been good... improvements come slowly, but they do come so keep hope and keep trying to fill your day with things even if you don't feel it.

The things we have to do for survival and it's temporary, it may be worth it to go back but just keep on your guard and don't put up with shit you don't have to.

 

[flystr8]

I totally get that feeling, hence the name... it sucks and it's the worst. I'm sorry you're having difficulty swallowing as well, but I'm glad you still have some hope. I don't have money either- relying on parents and unfortunately had to move back in with them. I really miss the freedom and independence of living alone, as they are very controlling in some aspects. But, I have to focus on university so it will be a few years before I actually get that freedom. I totally get missing having fun, I have honestly been able to have some fun recently which has been good... improvements come slowly, but they do come so keep hope and keep trying to fill your day with things even if you don't feel it.

The things we have to do for survival and it's temporary, it may be worth it to go back but just keep on your guard and don't put up with shit you don't have to.

being alone i don’t really know what to do but thanks for your words they’ve helped i slept from like evening till 8am today, tried to continue sleeping with a subliminal on but, i got really like thirsty my throat felt dry and water was making it more dry… im questioning everything at this point - i really wish things were better - they ruined me

 

[flystr8]

I totally get that feeling, hence the name... it sucks and it's the worst. I'm sorry you're having difficulty swallowing as well, but I'm glad you still have some hope. I don't have money either- relying on parents and unfortunately had to move back in with them. I really miss the freedom and independence of living alone, as they are very controlling in some aspects. But, I have to focus on university so it will be a few years before I actually get that freedom. I totally get missing having fun, I have honestly been able to have some fun recently which has been good... improvements come slowly, but they do come so keep hope and keep trying to fill your day with things even if you don't feel it.

The things we have to do for survival and it's temporary, it may be worth it to go back but just keep on your guard and don't put up with shit you don't have to.

Sorry to sound down though, the most important thing when it feeels like nothings happening I am processing this drug and healing. Same with you …
I’m so sorry it happened to you as well.

Anyway had a little well big fight with gf after this we made up on text is the best thing i don’t wanna sound like a jerk , but mentally im not even there i cant process my knowledge or wisdom as i should for example how to treat a woman its like the paliperdone has severed my brain in half and its trying to heal back but the drug is still leaking in my brain, to the point where it feels like i have no sense of coherence or control and i can’t control myself - or direct my girlfriend - we had a big fight and honestly that just wasn’t me…

It’s funny

I wanted to be in this step down just to get my sudafed

My dad drops down some money and sudafed to my girlfriends

I get caught doing something that should be kept private you don’t share certain energies with some people

And one thing lead to another and it was like a near enough full blown fight

we both said we love each other and she told me

not to take her for granted

i learned that

but you may reply this later


Anyway what’ I’ve realised with these hard core drug money breeds lroblems

And rothschild wanted a nation of workers not thinkers

I feel these drugs invented by them has fucked something in my brain i used to be a go getter now instead of talking to AI on how to build my businesses etc and take action i use it for trivial problems like this

Im really trying tkcheal but it feels so hard and next to impossible

 

[flystr8]

I totally get that feeling, hence the name... it sucks and it's the worst. I'm sorry you're having difficulty swallowing as well, but I'm glad you still have some hope. I don't have money either- relying on parents and unfortunately had to move back in with them. I really miss the freedom and independence of living alone, as they are very controlling in some aspects. But, I have to focus on university so it will be a few years before I actually get that freedom. I totally get missing having fun, I have honestly been able to have some fun recently which has been good... improvements come slowly, but they do come so keep hope and keep trying to fill your day with things even if you don't feel it.

The things we have to do for survival and it's temporary, it may be worth it to go back but just keep on your guard and don't put up with shit you don't have to.

Sorry to sound down though, the most important thing when it feeels like nothings happening I am processing this drug and healing. Same with you …
I’m so sorry it happened to you as well.

Anyway had a little well big fight with gf after this we made up on text is the best thing i don’t wanna sound like a jerk , but mentally im not even there i cant process my knowledge or wisdom as i should for example how to treat a woman its like the paliperdone has severed my brain in half and its trying to heal back but the drug is still leaking in my brain, to the point where it feels like i have no sense of coherence or control and i can’t control myself - or direct my girlfriend - we had a big fight and honestly that just wasn’t me…

It’s funny

I wanted to be in this step down just to get my sudafed

My dad drops down some money and sudafed to my girlfriends

I get caught doing something that should be kept private you don’t share certain energies with some people

And one thing lead to another and it was like a near enough full blown fight

we both said we love each other and she told me

not to take her for granted

i learned that

but you may reply this later


Anyway what’ I’ve realised with these hard core drug money breeds lroblems

And rothschild wanted a nation of workers not thinkers

I feel these drugs invented by them has fucked something in my brain i used to be a go getter now instead of talking to AI on how to build my businesses etc and take action i use it for trivial problems like this

Im really trying tkcheal but it feels so hard and next to impossible


But positive note engage in stuff that make you rise it’s hard for me cause i don’t even have a TV or radio and not with parents anymore i fled the nest to soon, not to say i didn’t want this but i didn’t want it like this being injected ! and nkt in a self contained flat

 

[Nina2021]

I wonder if anybody has tried with a low dose of amisulpride. It's meant to help with "negative symptoms of schizophrenia", which is actually the anhedonia, depression, etc. Let me know what you think about this.

 

[flystr8]

My bones just feel fragile, everything is a drag.

I’ve been falling and was a victim to the enemies plan.

Mother was never any good controlling dark mother.

But forget that the main thing is my bones feel brittle…

My only faith now is my self and raising the kudalini

 

[lostsoulowen]

I wonder if anybody has tried with a low dose of amisulpride. It's meant to help with "negative symptoms of schizophrenia", which is actually the anhedonia, depression, etc. Let me know what you think about this.

You heald already right?

 

[lostsoulowen]

You nailed it. At first, even using the computer again was impossible for me, and I could only scroll social media on my phone for 10 hours a day.

Eventually, I started going to the gym as I slowly felt a bit more recovered. Now, I'm able to feel comfortable on the computer at my desk again. I knew I'd come a long way because in the first couple of months I was in and out of the hospital, and could not stop pacing when the akathisia was at its worst. I would literally walk around my kitchen for hours and watched each minute pass by in agony.

The days are starting to feel more normal again, and if it weren't for the insomnia and oversleeping I'd say I feel 70% recovered. I'm able to enjoy video games a bit now, as well as talking to friends online again. A lot of it was just getting used to life without the nicotine and caffeine, though I still pay pretty close attention to them day-to-day to track my recovery. In my opinion I've already made a lot of progress 4.5 months in, and soon I think I'll be ready to apply for jobs again.

Currently I'm occupying myself with small tasks like household chores and selling old belongings so I can save up money and make up a little bit for the time I've spent unemployed. Having future goals like work and travel is giving me hope to continue living each day, one at a time.

I hope everyone who's recovering from the injections can also find ways to fill their time to make the days go by quickly. It doesn't have to be something big or productive, but even the small things that keep your mind occupied can help.

Your just 4.5 months and you say your 70 precent recoverd.
I'm already 1.7 years lobotomized, 4-5 months on injections, 1 year disable after and one month in the hospital. My life is gone.

 

[lostsoulowen]

Should i quit this life? I'm already 1.7 years lobotomized i can't go on suffering like this, I still feel my whole brain burning like i got the injection yesterday i think my body can't heal from this.
Do you think i will go to heaven or hell if i wanted to live but invega was too much?

 

[Invegatorment]

Should i quit this life? I'm already 1.7 years lobotomized i can't go on suffering like this, I still feel my whole brain burning like i got the injection yesterday i think my body can't heal from this.
Do you think i will go to heaven or hell if i wanted to live but invega was too much?

Suicide is never the answer. I doubt there are such things as heaven or hell, it's just lights out and that's it.

At this point if you really have some symptoms, it's possible that the injection isn't the cause. You can get pretty messed up mentally and physically just from laying around for a year. But the drug has a certain half-life and should pretty much be out of your system by now. It's hard to imagine that *nothing* has changed since your last injection.

Other than the burning brain sensation, what symptoms do you still have? Have you recovered sexual function and/or ability to feel substances? Same with experiencing emotions or joy. Any changes at all?

 

[lostsoulowen]

Suicide is never the answer. I doubt there are such things as heaven or hell, it's just lights out and that's it.

At this point if you really have some symptoms, it's possible that the injection isn't the cause. You can get pretty messed up mentally and physically just from laying around for a year. But the drug has a certain half-life and should pretty much be out of your system by now. It's hard to imagine that *nothing* has changed since your last injection.

Other than the burning brain sensation, what symptoms do you still have? Have you recovered sexual function and/or ability to feel substances? Same with experiencing emotions or joy. Any changes at all?

I'm 1.7 years on antipsychotic, but 1 year and 8 days since last injection.
When i got the injection i felt 99 precent lobotomized, now i feel 92 precent lobotomized. I go out and do some part time construction with my friend, but 99 precent off the day I'm in bed.
I feel my brain is blocked and an ugly lobotomized senation in my forehead, i feel alcohol, but i almost don't feel Adderall.
I lost a bit of weight, i study one hour of Portuguese and biology per week, but 99 precent on the day i feel lobotomized in the bed waiting for god to take me back.
I also had sluggish cognitive tempo, my body couldn't produce dopamine even before i was hospitalized, i could only feel decent dopamine with Vyvanse, now it doesn't work, i think my body can't heal from this.
My proclatin was okay, i take supplement eat healthy fish veggies fiber.

 

[flystr8]

I'm 1.7 years on antipsychotic, but 1 year and 8 days since last injection.
When i got the injection i felt 99 precent lobotomized, now i feel 92 precent lobotomized. I go out and do some part time construction with my friend, but 99 precent off the day I'm in bed.
I feel my brain is blocked and an ugly lobotomized senation in my forehead, i feel alcohol, but i almost don't feel Adderall.
I lost a bit of weight, i study one hour of Portuguese and biology per week, but 99 precent on the day i feel lobotomized in the bed waiting for god to take me back.
I also had sluggish cognitive tempo, my body couldn't produce dopamine even before i was hospitalized, i could only feel decent dopamine with Vyvanse, now it doesn't work, i think my body can't heal from this.
My proclatin was okay, i take supplement eat healthy fish veggies fiber.

Are you feeling better now and when did u

 

[flystr8]

1 month since my last injection - i got 5 more months till it’s out my body.