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Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v 12

YogirisingKundalini said:
Trauma bad diet cortisol all that's, its not just lowered dopamine
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Diet been bad, ish , trauma is all time high …. but I had this before it’s the dopamine and serotonin levels that are being attacked that’s causing me no sleep, etc

It takes weeks or maybe 1-2 months of this no sleep bs but maybe “god” can make it happen quicker … I’m really hoping for it to go
 
YogirisingKundalini said:
Trauma bad diet cortisol all that's, its not just lowered dopamine
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my kudalini should rise the end of this month fingers crosssed this medication doesn’t stress it - but when kudalini rises i would expect it to probably delete most of these symptoms as it’s such a powerful force do you have any information or instructions about anything i’ve said buddy?

you’re a legend
 
flystr8 said:
my kudalini should rise the end of this month fingers crosssed this medication doesn’t stress it - but when kudalini rises i would expect it to probably delete most of these symptoms as it’s such a powerful force do you have any information or instructions about anything i’ve said buddy?

you’re a legend
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Check Paramahansa Yogandanda, his teachings are great for kundalini awakening, real Guru
 
Brendan Clark said:
Guys after 9 invega shots it feels like my life is ruined forever. I can't even sleep at night nor do I feel tired it's so weird. When you wake up you know how you normally get that satisfied feeling of having rested, well I don't have that anymore. My last dose was over a month ago on 30th June and that was the one that made things so much worse. I can't even begin to describe the horrors I'm going through. I've lost interest in everything I was passionate in, even my degree subjects. I have zero interest in anything except my faith now. Those who got less shots than me consider yourselves fortunate because there are different levels of invega suffering and I think mine is on the extreme end of the spectrum. I feel so hopeless just now. And there's nothing anyone can do to practically help me so I'm genuinely praying for a miracle. Everything in life was going well (there were problems here and there of course but nothing comparable to this) until I was forced against my will to take these shots. The whole world carries on with their lives not knowing what a blessing it is to have functioning dopamine, serotonin, and adrenaline receptors and here I am watching everyone and wishing I had a fraction of what they've got. Even to genuinely laugh once would mean something to me. Words can't describe my suffering. Nothing can do it justice. I feel like I'm not living anymore, but just breathing. What did I do to deserve this? The future looks so bleak for me, and I'm only 30. I can't even take a month of this, how am I going to survive a potential 60 years? Even one hour like this feels like torture. Nevermind an hour, one minute! Will I continue suffering like this forever? It's mind boggling how such a drug hasn't been banned by now, how the industry is just able to get away with poisoning people like this...I can't find many people to relate to in real life who've gone through this like I have, and this makes my experience even lonelier. If I had my emotions back I'd be crying everyday, but this drug has turned my heart into a heart of stone with no human emotions or feelings. This is what it means to be truly dehumanised.
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I had more shots than you and I can feel emotions. But it could still be possible for you.
 
Chanel_monster said:
I had more shots than you and I can feel emotions. But it could still be possible for you.
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I really hope so. Life is just really depressing now and I've got nothing to do that brings me joy or satisfaction. It's turned me into an emotionless vegetable. I used to love taking walks outside. I went out for a walk today and couldn't feel a thing, not even a single moment of positive, happy vibes. I also went out last night to a pizza joint with my parents and normally I love going out with them for a meal but couldn't enjoy the family time like usual, neither the food nor the convo, and it discouraged me to see everyone there laughing and smiling and me just in my miserable bubble. This is just inhumane.
 
Brendan Clark said:
I really hope so. Life is just really depressing now and I've got nothing to do that brings me joy or satisfaction. It's turned me into an emotionless vegetable. I used to love taking walks outside. I went out for a walk today and couldn't feel a thing, not even a single moment of positive, happy vibes. I also went out last night to a pizza joint with my parents and normally I love going out with them for a meal but couldn't enjoy the family time like usual, neither the food nor the convo, and it discouraged me to see everyone there laughing and smiling and me just in my miserable bubble. This is just inhumane.
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I don't begrudge them of it but it made me think: If only I could have a fraction of their joy, then that would be amazing! It also made me think: "That was me this time last year, but not anymore."
 
Brendan Clark said:
Guys after 9 invega shots it feels like my life is ruined forever. I can't even sleep at night nor do I feel tired it's so weird. When you wake up you know how you normally get that satisfied feeling of having rested, well I don't have that anymore. My last dose was over a month ago on 30th June and that was the one that made things so much worse. I can't even begin to describe the horrors I'm going through. I've lost interest in everything I was passionate in, even my degree subjects. I have zero interest in anything except my faith now. Those who got less shots than me consider yourselves fortunate because there are different levels of invega suffering and I think mine is on the extreme end of the spectrum. I feel so hopeless just now. And there's nothing anyone can do to practically help me so I'm genuinely praying for a miracle. Everything in life was going well (there were problems here and there of course but nothing comparable to this) until I was forced against my will to take these shots. The whole world carries on with their lives not knowing what a blessing it is to have functioning dopamine, serotonin, and adrenaline receptors and here I am watching everyone and wishing I had a fraction of what they've got. Even to genuinely laugh once would mean something to me. Words can't describe my suffering. Nothing can do it justice. I feel like I'm not living anymore, but just breathing. What did I do to deserve this? The future looks so bleak for me, and I'm only 30. I can't even take a month of this, how am I going to survive a potential 60 years? Even one hour like this feels like torture. Nevermind an hour, one minute! Will I continue suffering like this forever? It's mind boggling how such a drug hasn't been banned by now, how the industry is just able to get away with poisoning people like this...I can't find many people to relate to in real life who've gone through this like I have, and this makes my experience even lonelier. If I had my emotions back I'd be crying everyday, but this drug has turned my heart into a heart of stone with no human emotions or feelings. This is what it means to be truly dehumanised.
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I know it's tough but you'll feel better in a few months. I had the exact same thing with the sleep too and it barely started improving after 4 months. Still fighting the insomnia and dealing with sleep meds not working anymore to make me feel tired, but it's manageable. Just try to take it a day at a time and go to the gym often if you can.

You're doing fine if you're managing to stay out of the hospital - I went back 3 times because the effects were so bad a couple months in. 9 shots is a lot but people have recovered from more (and less, obviously).
 
YogirisingKundalini said:
I dont want to lie so 2 years around you will have to wait to recover to good extent, @Serhat had similar amount as u and that's what he claimed, never give up, suicide is hell, we should aim to expose the abuse these monsters do, i want to but i'm still financialy dependant on abusers who dont want me to speak publicly how abused people are being misdiagnosed with mental ilness and forced max dose of antipsychotics in most of the time if im not mistaken
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I hope my brain's as resilient as Serhat's and can bounce back from this. Everyone's brain's sensitivity level is different so I hope mine isn't so sensitive that it stays permanently damaged. During this whole process it feels like my brain has shrunk in size.
 
I was here last year with the same issue, i’m waking up in my girlfriend bed … nose crying for help, it’s like I try to breathe then it blocks there’s not even a time frame i can expect to be normal by,

they’re telling me by 126 days drug is out my body

it took like 100 days last year when this happened

now it’s only been 21 days for me it hurts me
 
blanch116 said:
Dirty invega uploaded a new video, 7 years later if anyone’s interested
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I'm really interested in watching it, but I couldn't find it on YouTube. Could you drop a link or tell me what to search for? Stories of recovery are so important
 
InnerReturn said:
I'm really interested in watching it, but I couldn't find it on YouTube. Could you drop a link or tell me what to search for? Stories of recovery are so important
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Unfortunelty it’s not really a recovery story, hes done a short one, he had 6 shots but still has anhedonia and depression.. hes going to upload a longer one soon il try find you the clips one min
 
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