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🤝 Cultural 🤝 What Was Your Morning Fix v. Hit The Bottle & Go Right To The Rock

Good morning Blue World!
Today is my first day without any Kratom. 💪 Woke up with a stiff neck, then:
200 mg Pregabalin, later 200 mg more
1 g Agmatin
100 mg Caffeine
A back fit course at the gym that showed some serious muscular insufficiency 😅
Sauna ,- took me several years of membership to finally go and use it. Always had some stupid excuse like no time, I don't want them to judge my body etc 🙄. But it's simply good for the body and I'm glad I got over my hesitation.
Nice little victory in every day life 🙂
Hope y'all are safe out there 🙏
 
Mushoku_Sensei said:
Woke up soaked in sweat as usual, no serious aws at this point, just incredible exhaustion... Tried to eat first but gave up after a few spoonfuls...
3 g Kratom,
1,5 mg Pridinol ( muscle relaxer with zero high, that I'm really grateful for, as by now my back would be killing me otherwise)
The only thing I get for pushing my first dose to later is 1-2 hours during which I'm moving like a 90 yo, because I have near zero energy to function, so I'll give up on that strategy.
500 mg Agmatine in the late morning, this is my last attempt. If I still can't tolerate it, that's it. I guess the fat- burner is not an empty slogan, so either it's low dose or none for me.
Any ideas how to convince my intestines to actually digest something, instead of just throwing it out?
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Suboxone? What did you end up doing?
 
Mushoku_Sensei said:
Well I still want to avoid having drug addiction on my record, so no subs for me. I increased my dose again, just couldn't step down so fast... Ofc I messed up again in between, but now I'm off it 😁
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Yeah fuck telling doctors, ever, that I've ever abused any substance. I ain't loosing my good scripts just for some dope while kratom still exists.
 
I guess most folks here ain't morning types eh? lol

I hate when that alarm goes off and I'm deep in a dream and shit is so disorienting... last day of work for this week, got the next three days off after this. Gonna go pickup a new 65" OLED tv tomorrow, catch a movie, take care of house stuff. Drink, maybe drug on Saturday.


This morning:
-cup of strong Joe
-teaspoon of green maeng da

That'll be all. Saturday I'll probably have some Irish coffee with Jameson to start off :)
 
Heroinimus Bosch said:
250mg Diacetylmorphine (pharmaceutical) IV
200mg Morphine (slow-release capsule) oral
strong cup of black coffee
nicotine-vape with cactus + kiwi flavour
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How on earth do you get that in pharma grade??

OT:
400 mg Pregabalin,
Mg
~80-100 mg Caffeine,
Vaped Nic - my liquid is getting dark quickly with the heat and irritating my throat then, so I'm replacing it daily now 😒

@Dr. John Thackery : How on earth do you manage to stay (almost) clean for that long between your high doses (in every meaning of the word)!?? I'm trying to pull that since last year and didn't manage even once! ... Last week's 5 day are my record and didn't do shit for my tolerance obviously.

Goddamn I just want to add opioids and I know I'd have to eat them pills blister-wise... Which is not an option 😮‍💨
 
Mushoku_Sensei said:
How on earth do you get that in pharma grade??

OT:
400 mg Pregabalin,
Mg
~80-100 mg Caffeine,
Vaped Nic - my liquid is getting dark quickly with the heat and irritating my throat then, so I'm replacing it daily now 😒

@Dr. John Thackery : How on earth do you manage to stay (almost) clean for that long between your high doses (in every meaning of the word)!?? I'm trying to pull that since last year and didn't manage even once! ... Last week's 5 day are my record and didn't do shit for my tolerance obviously.

Goddamn I just want to add opioids and I know I'd have to eat them pills blister-wise... Which is not an option 😮‍💨
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how?

like dependency wise or wanting to use wise?

for the latter it’s because i only use drugs to escape physical pain, not for fun or relaxation. so i didn’t have bad pain during that time that called for use.


for the former / that’s just what my dependency level currently is after tapering down to a low level. i can’t seem to ever get below that low level down to 0. like i always say it’s harder to go from 1/2 a milligram to 0 mg than it is to go from 50 mg to 1/2 a milligram.
 
Dr. John Thackery said:
how?

like dependency wise or wanting to use wise?

for the latter it’s because i only use drugs to escape physical pain, not for fun or relaxation. so i didn’t have bad pain during that time that called for use.
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Seriously? You're taking 60+ mg only for pain!? and the Diazepam too? Ik you're semi-suicidal sometimes with the pain but you DO get high, don't you?
Ok so you don't need drugs in daily life. Ignoring the low dose dependence, same question: How did you get away from daily abuse?
I did my taper and I'm done with WD.
But I'm really struggling with the urges.
 
Mushoku_Sensei said:
Seriously? You're taking 60+ mg only for pain!? and the Diazepam too? Ik you're semi-suicidal sometimes with the pain but you DO get high, don't you?
Ok so you don't need drugs in daily life. Ignoring the low dose dependence, same question: How did you get away from daily abuse?
I did my taper and I'm done with WD.
But I'm really struggling with the urges.
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i feel something of course, mainly just tired/drowsy and pain relief. t’s a shitty high, particularly the methadone…it’s a dirty feeling opioid imo. the benzo doesn’t have a high but the fact that it puts you to sleep so instantly or easily is what i love about it.

i’ve honestly just become sick of drugs after 25 years. it’s not fun. it’s never as good in reality as i imagine any high will be. and i actually feel happier and higher the more time im off drugs or the less i take.

my use is only limited to prescriptions that address pain… sometimes it gets to the point where o want to knock myself unconscious but it’s always rooted in physical pain not a craving to do that just for the fuck of it.

if i have a streak with no pain there is no desire to get high anymore. i’ve learned my lesson that doing that just makes life worse and i’ve got stuff in sober healthy life i value more than ruining my mood or time with using just to use

having recurring pain flares , i also want the drugs to work when i need them so i cant afford to ruin my tolerance to their effects.

they are also so extremely rationed and under prescribed in the US because the country decided to eradicate chronic pain management because they think that will solve the fentanyl epidemic (this approach is what caused it and worsened it - which i think was done on purpose as im currently arguing in a other thread but thats a whole other topic). so i have to preserve them and not waste them using just to use

any drug that activates me or turns up my senses like stims or psychs i havnt done for over a decade. i dont want to be more activated, more awake, or have thrills.

im just tired of all of it.

i guess if i had access to something of really good quality like dilaided i could IV…..i might start going down a hedonistic path ….but i dont have access to any “fun” or super hedonistic drugs like dilaided and im too scared to break the law so i just dont have that option
 
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