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what drug are you addicted to or used to be

HeadphonesandLSD said:
I am a junkie through and through. I require opioids just to get out bed in the morning. I'm on kratom now because I can buy it over the counter and don't have to deal with junkie and dealer bullshit to get my fix. Don't have to worry about where my next fix is coming from. Recently I've started taking those 7-ho and pseudo tablets from time to time. If I do it just right sometimes I can get close to a proper nod.

It fucking sucks. I can't sleep more than about 5-6 hours because if I do I'll go into withdrawals and sweat so horribly it turns the sheets the same color as the kratom. I guess all the tanins come out of your system that way. Its also ruined my hair. My hair is birttle now and it breaks and falls out easily.

Aside from feeding my monkey I'm hooked on nicotine very badly. I make my own cigarettes with a machine to stuff the tubes. I pay $10 a week for what amounts to carton and a half of cigarettes. Since they're so cheap I smoke them constantly. I've turned into a chain smoker just like my mother.

I love a lot of other types of drugs. But when it comes to what I require daily it's kratom and tobacco all day every day. The first thing I do when I wake up drenched in sweat from withdrawal is toss and wash about 5-10 grams of kratom (I eye ball it) and once it's done I have my cigarette. I've always been a smoke as soon as I get up kind of person.

I honestly hate it. I really want to quit taking kratom because I've been on it for years now and I know it's terrible for my over all health. I'm pretty sure it's the reason why I got a kidney stone last year since the stone was the same color as the kratom. I just can't find a free week to deal with the withdrawals in private since I've managed to hide the habit from my family. They know I used to be hooked on pills bad but they don't know I started buying kratom over the counter 5-6 years ago.

I also think the kratom is causing my hair and beard to turn white prematurely.

I miss having a connection for morphine. Morphine is the best opioid I've ever done and I've done most everything. Oxymorphone is a close second but morphine is great. I love morphine dreams. I love the histamine reaction. I love the feeling of warmth. I miss it so much.

I've never injected anything and never had anything good when I was at the ER. Even with my kidney stone they wouldn't push morphine. I want to expereince IV morphine before I die.
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If you hate it that much what about buying some scales, a bulk order so it's consistent and just shaving a little bit off every other day/week/month? Whatever works for you.

At the end of the day it's not the worst thing you could be doing. But if you're not happy you might feel better if you know you're working towards freedom from it.
 
BadBoy377 said:
Kinda the right age for that to happen.
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I don't want to hijack the thread BadBoy377 but what an awful day. Mild withdrawals compared to what most people here deal with but Ativan every other day and kratom every other day finally took a toll. I made it through today so I'm content. Gabapentin, THC, NAC and agmatine helped a lot.
 
agoraphobe said:
I don't want to hijack the thread BadBoy377 but what an awful day. Mild withdrawals compared to what most people here deal with but Ativan every other day and kratom every other day finally took a toll. I made it through today so I'm content. Gabapentin, THC, NAC and agmatine helped a lot.
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I think I hijacked it tbh. I like a bit of thread chaos tbh. Keeps life interesting. Like when cunts start shouting enthusiastically about random stuff in the pub.

Sounds shit. Well done you for getting through it! Ativan has decent half life doesn't it? How long you been doing that for?

What's the NAC do?
 
Things I am addicted to:
Diazepam (a mild 4mg a day compared to how I used to be - I used to be scripted a frankly irresponsible 50mg a day)
Nicotine (Cigarettes)
Cannabis (Hash and weed)

Thing I am in-between on:
Kratom (today is literally my last day on it hopefully, have been tapering down from 20g a day to maybe 2g).

I have been addicted to:
Heroin (14 years clean), Methamphetamine (12 years clean), Phenibut hcl, Tramadol hcl and plenty of binges and poly-drug abuse thrown in for good measure.
 
BK38 said:
Things I am addicted to:
Diazepam (a mild 4mg a day compared to how I used to be - I used to be scripted a frankly irresponsible 50mg a day)
Nicotine (Cigarettes)
Cannabis (Hash and weed)

Thing I am in-between on:
Kratom (today is literally my last day on it hopefully, have been tapering down from 20g a day to maybe 2g).

I have been addicted to:
Heroin (14 years clean), Methamphetamine (12 years clean), Phenibut hcl, Tramadol hcl and plenty of binges and poly-drug abuse thrown in for good measure.
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Fairly broad spread there @BK38.

How are you? Doing good?
 
Used to be addicted to alcohol. Over 6 years sober.
Was almost off Diazepam, ended up back on it. I used to be addicted, not anymore, I just take it to not have withdrawals. I've tapered off before, it's a pretty easy benzo to taper tbh. I was also addicted to Gabapentin and pretty bad with kratom, but weed just started affecting me to where none of those drugs have an appealing high anymore. I get baked and forget to take my Dazzies all the time.
 
BadBoy377 said:
Fairly broad spread there @BK38.

How are you? Doing good?
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Yeah man. I'm actually doing quite well. There was a little anticipation in my gut as I took my last dose of Kratom this AM. I have legit shoulder pain and I've been scripted some pregab, so had 600mg of that, my last 2g of kratom, 4mg diazepam and a spliff of some very nice hash. I'm messing with more of my creative pursuits, trying to socialize more and improve my French.

I think it's good that I get rid of the Kratom from my life for now. It is a handy substance to have in the arsenal and I may order more at some stage, but I want it out of my life for a bit.

Nice to hear from you, how are you mate?
 
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BK38 said:
Yeah man. I'm actually doing quite well. There was a little anticipation in my gut as I took my last dose of Kratom this AM. I have legit shoulder pain and I've been scripted some pregab, so had 600mg of that, my last 2g of kratom, 4mg diazepam and a spliff of some very nice hash. I'm messing with more of my creative pursuits, trying to socialize more and improve my French.

I think it's good that I get rid of the Kratom from my life for now. It is a handy substance to have in the arsenal and I may order more at some stage, but I want it out of my life for a bit.

Nice to hear from you, how are you mate?
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That all sounds pretty positive! Pregabalin is decent for pain and head too. I'm also on it. But yeah, well done.

I'm doing ok, thanks. Making some major life changes just now and shooting for the positives. Trying to stay out of trouble. Could do with a bit more exercise but nobody's perfect now are they?

Keep it up, pal 👍
 
Dissociatives, at the moment DXM but it could be any of them. I've tried all classes of drugs and I always returned to the dissociatives, they give me more than they take, which is not always the case with drugs. I just like myself much more while on a disso, and I am more at peace with the world and myself. I see my use as a form of maintenance like with methadone or psychiatric meds, just that I have to roll my own. It sucks that I can't have a legal prescription, this would make things so much easier.
 
Odd thing - DXM is quite rarely abused in the UK. I think it's because it's mostly encountered in [P] medications that also contain an antihistamine and/or paracetamol (acetaminophen). While there certainly are people who will risk overdoses in search of an ASC, it's a minority.
 
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