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started drinking again after a year and 3 months, now im probably getting sent to rehab

spypilot

spypilot

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when i drink i fucking DRINK, thats why i stopped
that was february of 2025 now its 2026 and ive been wasted the last few days
this is why i havent really been active in the last week ive just been drinking
ok i nodded off writing this post this is the second day writing this
i almost got kicked out of school for showing up to school wasted three times
i went to my grandparents house and left wasted
idk what the point of this post is i just needed to get this off my chest
now my parents might actually send me to rehab
if they do ima fucking sneak shit in
maybe not idk im kinda drunk rn
end of post
 
Kicked out of school 3 times for showing up drunk, wow. Though could have been worse. You are not a teacher. Yet. Lot of teachers with drinking problems. a job that kinda allows drug use to stay un-noticed/ tolerated. Not me btw. Know teachers of mine had drinking problems. getting hammered on after school partys

Know that you are a bit younger then i would give you. 'the dude that drives car but is to young for a license" correct me when wrong. Would you when you are somewhat older. and arre teacher. or whatever job still display that behavior is more important. How responsible are you eventually when it comes down to it, we all did dumb things when young. But what everyone reason for doing it is isnt. Dont let it ruin your live to much.

And rehab, well if it is anything like they do it here. Relapse rate 90% +. Waste of time energy. If possible if I was you try not get physically depended on Alcohol. Avoiding that from happening nr.1 and take control over your own behavior. DIY detox-es ime better succes rate. But YMMV [and the place your at with parents/ level of healthcare available] You come over as way to smart for this. one thing good about the detox was seeing other addicts. Worst case scenarios are a good reason to not wanna become one.

Maybe there is something like a group of people same age same problems. that talk about it. Something that was absent in the rehab as well getting to the root cause, why take drugs in the first place. When this is not tackled rehab is mere detoxification of. Get back at this when you a bit sobered up spypilot. 🤙
 
spypilot said:
when i drink i fucking DRINK, thats why i stopped
that was february of 2025 now its 2026 and ive been wasted the last few days
this is why i havent really been active in the last week ive just been drinking
ok i nodded off writing this post this is the second day writing this
i almost got kicked out of school for showing up to school wasted three times
i went to my grandparents house and left wasted
idk what the point of this post is i just needed to get this off my chest
now my parents might actually send me to rehab
if they do ima fucking sneak shit in
maybe not idk im kinda drunk rn
end of post
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I'm not very good at emotional support, so i won't pretend to be.
You're so young... this isn't your fault; it is how society is set up.
People care, people understand, but you have to meet those willing to help (rehab) halfway by taking this seriously.

Things will not get easier if you continue down this road. They truly will only get more difficult.

Edit - but sober for a year is really impressive. You can clearly do this. So do it before it's too late.
 
Remember just because u relapsed doesn't mean u failed and it's over. I haven't been drinking since Sept2025 and had one slip up with a bottle of Clown Royal but all it did was remind me of wanting to get and stay sober and I learned I really just don't enjoy being drunk anymore. I can tell I fucked up my brain because I still can't get my balance back, very uneasy on my feet.
 
spypilot said:
when i drink i fucking DRINK, thats why i stopped
that was february of 2025 now its 2026 and ive been wasted the last few days
this is why i havent really been active in the last week ive just been drinking
ok i nodded off writing this post this is the second day writing this
i almost got kicked out of school for showing up to school wasted three times
i went to my grandparents house and left wasted
idk what the point of this post is i just needed to get this off my chest
now my parents might actually send me to rehab
if they do ima fucking sneak shit in
maybe not idk im kinda drunk rn
end of post
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In the same situation as you (started drinking again). I was offered rehab about 8 months ago but declined. Unfortunately I could go to rehab for a year the first time, and go again and again, and it wouldn't matter. I go to online AA meetings (intherooms.com) but stay anonymous and don't have a sponsor. I'm thinking about attending local meetings IRL soon and getting a sponsor, but not sure.

Hope you're going to be okay. Stay chipper, mate.
 
puke said:
Remember just because u relapsed doesn't mean u failed and it's over. I haven't been drinking since Sept2025 and had one slip up with a bottle of Clown Royal but all it did was remind me of wanting to get and stay sober and I learned I really just don't enjoy being drunk anymore. I can tell I fucked up my brain because I still can't get my balance back, very uneasy on my feet.
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I know absolute sobriety is often the goal others have for alcoholics but it's much easier for me to have small, moments of drinking than to remain completely without alcohol. I don't see anything wrong with it as long as it's "safe, sane, and consensual" but I know AA won't appreciate it.
 
emkee_reinvented said:
Kicked out of school 3 times for showing up drunk, wow. Though could have been worse. You are not a teacher. Yet. Lot of teachers with drinking problems. a job that kinda allows drug use to stay un-noticed/ tolerated. Not me btw. Know teachers of mine had drinking problems. getting hammered on after school partys

Know that you are a bit younger then i would give you. 'the dude that drives car but is to young for a license" correct me when wrong. Would you when you are somewhat older. and arre teacher. or whatever job still display that behavior is more important. How responsible are you eventually when it comes down to it, we all did dumb things when young. But what everyone reason for doing it is isnt. Dont let it ruin your live to much.

And rehab, well if it is anything like they do it here. Relapse rate 90% +. Waste of time energy. If possible if I was you try not get physically depended on Alcohol. Avoiding that from happening nr.1 and take control over your own behavior. DIY detox-es ime better succes rate. But YMMV [and the place your at with parents/ level of healthcare available] You come over as way to smart for this. one thing good about the detox was seeing other addicts. Worst case scenarios are a good reason to not wanna become one.

Maybe there is something like a group of people same age same problems. that talk about it. Something that was absent in the rehab as well getting to the root cause, why take drugs in the first place. When this is not tackled rehab is mere detoxification of. Get back at this when you a bit sobered up spypilot. 🤙
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yeah im honestly gonna stop drinking soon hopefully cuz i have literally acess to everything else
i show up to school high all the time but this is the first time ive gotten in trouble for it
also i dont really drive anymore as i got pulled over the other day and he let me off without checking for an id as i just gave him the registration and ig that was good enough for him so yeah im not gonna drive again
 
Alcohol is not really a high come on A intoxicant. And breath at gives it away at least 30 inch in advance. So no hiding it.

Not like smoking weed during the break. Coffeeshop next to the school. Not really good for my school performances. Did Play table-soccer with my math teacher 1 time. He didnt drink but smoked Weed. Was a ok dude not that brilliant as Math teacher. but i was certainly not the brightest student and stoned. [btw exception that school the rest sucked more not my kinda learning]

Wonder how is your school ?
 
I wish you the best in getting sober and staying sober.

Alcohol is really insidious. But any amount of time away from it is forward progress. Try not to let a slip up drag you all the way back down.

Take care and keep your head up 💗🙏
 
I'm not going to candy coat, or tell you what's what! Just know this... You just have to keep living and pushing the demon away, you might fail over and over again. No matter what anybody says to you no matter what kind of rehab you go to you're never going to be sober until you're finally done it could take a year it could take a day to take 10 years just hang in there dude. I've been dry for 13 years now only because the the smell of alcohol still makes me absolutely want to puke it that's how bad I drink myself sick so I'm lucky in that way I guess
 
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