Harm Reduction Bupropion - started abusing it. Need something safer.

[lostsoulforgood]

Still stuck on the Bupropion. Haven’t had my followup appointment yet to try to get the Ritalin.

I tried quitting this stuff but after 2 days I can’t even control myself. I’ve never been so addicted to anything in my life. I got up to snorting about 2,000mg over the course of 24hrs once. Started hallucinating. Got very emotional.

Today I did a 600mg line of it. Halfway through everything went black and I lost my balance, but it was only for a split second. Finished the line and NOW I know what they’re talking about. Holy shit I felt like a god for a few minutes. Effects lasting all day. Didn’t have to snort anymore after that. Good lord.

Yesterday I snorted 450mg after trying to quit for two days. Couldn’t do it. I went to buy some new running shoes. After I left the mall and got in my car I went to drive home. I ended up not knowing how I got to someplace I did not intend on going. I was on a completely different road than I thought I was on. Luckily the road had a bunch of “rd. Closed” signs and the I saw a Lowe’s and was like, “WTF? Where even am I.” That was strange.

Anyway it sure as fuck is numbing me out. Problem is I can’t really work right after snorting that much, and when I go on business trips I stay up all night binging on this shit and watching porn.

I truly am a lost soul and can’t come back. It feels to good and if I stop after two days I give in.

 

[streaM Freak]

Still stuck on the Bupropion. Haven’t had my followup appointment yet to try to get the Ritalin.

I tried quitting this stuff but after 2 days I can’t even control myself. I’ve never been so addicted to anything in my life. I got up to snorting about 2,000mg over the course of 24hrs once. Started hallucinating. Got very emotional.

Today I did a 600mg line of it. Halfway through everything went black and I lost my balance, but it was only for a split second. Finished the line and NOW I know what they’re talking about. Holy shit I felt like a god for a few minutes. Effects lasting all day. Didn’t have to snort anymore after that. Good lord.

Yesterday I snorted 450mg after trying to quit for two days. Couldn’t do it. I went to buy some new running shoes. After I left the mall and got in my car I went to drive home. I ended up not knowing how I got to someplace I did not intend on going. I was on a completely different road than I thought I was on. Luckily the road had a bunch of “rd. Closed” signs and the I saw a Lowe’s and was like, “WTF? Where even am I.” That was strange.

Anyway it sure as fuck is numbing me out. Problem is I can’t really work right after snorting that much, and when I go on business trips I stay up all night binging on this shit and watching porn.

I truly am a lost soul and can’t come back. It feels to good and if I stop after two days I give in.

What works for you during those 2 days? What things lessen the cravings, and what things trigger them?

Really take your time thinking about this. Because this is getting very serious.

 

[paranoid android]

Ritalin is so much better then wellbutrin. Not even comparible. Some concerta would probably help

 

[Dextro .45]

Ya don’t snort Bupropion (Wellbutrin) …I was on it for a few years. Starting forgetting words and forgetting shit. It’s due to its prominent anti choline properties

Biphentin / Ritalin (Methylphenidate MPH) is absolutely amazing. It’s IR formula lasts 3-4 hours which is short, that’s why Biphentin XR is great (capsule with XR beads lasting 8-10 hours) can even crush the beads to convert to IR Ritalin

Fully capable of enduring euphoria…..very strong euphoria actually. Nearly identical to the euphoric bliss I experienced with oral Oxycodone. The 2 more pleasurable drugs I’ve ever tried in my entire lifetime, far surpassing IV Hydromorphone, H, Dexedrine, Cocaine, etc

Methylphenidate & Oxycodone = Best oral Speedball ever…..plus a little Alprazolam perhaps lol

 

[lostsoulforgood]

What works for you during those 2 days? What things lessen the cravings, and what things trigger them?

Really take your time thinking about this. Because this is getting very serious.

What works for those two days is I still have enough in my system so I feel happy and nothing bothers me. The half life of this stuff is 24hrs, so my blood concentration just stays high enough for me to not physically crave it. Once enough is out of my blood, I can’t even control myself. I go and crush more pills and then I’m off to the races again. The only thing keeping me off it this morning is that the line of 600 yesterday is still wearing off. I ate breakfast. I’m going to run now. Then work and hopefully I can make it through the workday without taking this shit again. If I cave at the end of the day, so be it, but I can’t take this shit like this and work. I also thought of like waking up at 4AM and doing it so it wears off enough that I can work.

I just don’t know how to get off of it. Maybe if I get the Ritalin the euphoria will be enough for the addiction to bupropion to wear off and then I can quit both. Idk

 

[canadianpeduser]

If you crush the pill down to a fine powder. Then microwave it in short increments until its crystallized and you can scrape off the plate with a card or a razor, it definitely takes some of the cut out, and you’d be snorting something more like a crystalline type of line, it minimizes the amount of chalk you’re sniffing up your nose. Just a little trick I used to cut my meth up with when I sold it. Might give you some sinus relief at minimum

 

[canadianpeduser]

I am i no way condoning snorting Wellbutrin. I had like 400 x 300 mg tablets I tossed in the trash because it’s actually garbage . But I feel your pain brother I wish you the best. My microwave technique worked for me back then (10 ish years ago)

 

[lostsoulforgood]

I am i no way condoning snorting Wellbutrin. I had like 400 x 300 mg tablets I tossed in the trash because it’s actually garbage . But I feel your pain brother I wish you the best. My microwave technique worked for me back then (10 ish years ago)

I agree this stuff is garbage and I wish I had something I didn’t have to snort up my fucking nose.

I have a doctors apt Thursday to try to get the Ritalin. That shits schedule 2 though, but I shall remain positive.

One things for sure, I have to get off of this stuff.

I couldn’t make it two days this time. Cracked sometime this morning.

Anyway. Maybe if I get the Ritalin I can use that to get off the Wellbutrin and then quit the Ritalin. Not sure what will be harder.

Not sure I even want to.

 

[canadianpeduser]

I agree this stuff is garbage and I wish I had something I didn’t have to snort up my fucking nose.

I have a doctors apt Thursday to try to get the Ritalin. That shits schedule 2 though, but I shall remain positive.

One things for sure, I have to get off of this stuff.

I couldn’t make it two days this time. Cracked sometime this morning.

Anyway. Maybe if I get the Ritalin I can use that to get off the Wellbutrin and then quit the Ritalin. Not sure what will be harder.

Not sure I even want to.

Ritalin is even harder to stop in my experience . I was prescribed 20 x 10 mg apo IR’s per day and bang 15 of them in one shot first thing every day. Changing the stim to something stronger probably will not yield the result you’re seeking. Hate to say it because I have the same thinking in some ways but it’s true.

 

[AlphaMethylPhenyl]

Ritalin is even harder to stop in my experience . I was prescribed 20 x 10 mg apo IR’s per day and bang 15 of them in one shot first thing every day. Changing the stim to something stronger probably will not yield the result you’re seeking. Hate to say it because I have the same thinking in some ways but it’s true.

This. You'd just be moving up the chain of drug hardness that way.

Best case scenario is most likely if you tell the doc what you're doing, and I get the impression you won't but I hope you reach out for help!

 

[lostsoulforgood]

This. You'd just be moving up the chain of drug hardness that way.

Best case scenario is most likely if you tell the doc what you're doing, and I get the impression you won't but I hope you reach out for help!

Yeah. I don’t know what I’m going to do tomorrow but the last thing I’m going to do is tell them WHAT I’m doing LOL. Cutting off my supply isn’t an option right now. I’m going to tell them I’m forgetting stuff (honest) and the dose I’m on does NOT remove my emotional pain (true). If Ritalin will get rid of this pain I feel from the trauma I endured and can’t do shit about, AND I don’t have to snort it up my nose and destroy my sinuses, I’m all for that!

Today I made it through with 450mg crushed up and under my tongue, but holy fucking shit if someone wasn’t with me all day I would’ve cracked. That’s like 25% of the effect I get, and it wore off after a few hours.

 

[lostsoulforgood]

I couldn’t get the Ritalin from my regular doctor. Their practice is to get a psych eval first and get diagnosed with adult ADHD. That’s my next quest. Then they can take over the prescription. All this to make sure the depression and misery doesn’t come back. Ritalin has got to be better than snorting this stuff. Still doing it under the tounge now two days in a row, but only in the morning. It wears off by the time I go to bed and I feel emotionally poor by that time.

Going to sleep. Will call psych dr tomorrow.

 

[opiatekrzy]

If your already heavily addicted to bupropion I definitely don't see what the point of getting on Ritalin will do for you? Rtalin is a hundred times more euphoric and potent then bupropion so your going to end up heavily addicted to a real stimulant mind you and far heavier risk of going through psychosis or even worse. I promise your script of Ritalin will only last one sitting. You will snort one and end up blowing through all your pills . At least with bupropion you seemed to make your script last you. Not with Ritalin it definitely has Cocaine like tendencies and redosing Is frequent. When I was 14 I got addicted to ritalin and started snorting it. On average I sniffing a pill or two at a time every thirty minutes until I ran out . Good luck to you

 

[canadianpeduser]

If your already heavily addicted to bupropion I definitely don't see what the point of getting on Ritalin will do for you? Rtalin is a hundred times more euphoric and potent then bupropion so your going to end up heavily addicted to a real stimulant mind you and far heavier risk of going through psychosis or even worse. I promise your script of Ritalin will only last one sitting. You will snort one and end up blowing through all your pills . At least with bupropion you seemed to make your script last you. Not with Ritalin it definitely has Cocaine like tendencies and redosing Is frequent. When I was 14 I got addicted to ritalin and started snorting it. On average I sniffing a pill or two at a time every thirty minutes until I ran out . Good luck to you

This is facts.

 

[lostsoulforgood]

If you’re already heavily addicted to bupropion I definitely don't see what the point of getting on Ritalin will do for you? Rtalin is a hundred times more euphoric and potent then bupropion so your going to end up heavily addicted to a real stimulant mind you and far heavier risk of going through psychosis or even worse. I promise your script of Ritalin will only last one sitting. You will snort one and end up blowing through all your pills . At least with bupropion you seemed to make your script last you. Not with Ritalin it definitely has Cocaine like tendencies and redosing Is frequent. When I was 14 I got addicted to ritalin and started snorting it. On average I sniffing a pill or two at a time every thirty minutes until I ran out . Good luck to you

Okay. I’m canceling the appointment. I can’t keep doing this shit. I got some 7o last night. Did 14mg of it on top of about 600mg of bupropion in my system. I thought I OD’d and was going to die. I couldn’t swallow at all. I had to consciously tell myself to breathe, and my chest was losing feeling. My whole body went numb. I couldn’t keep my eyes open. I was hallucinating for a couple of hours and couldn’t walk.

I think I probably came close to dying. Either way, it was the worst experience of my life. I flushed the remaining 70mg of the 7o down the toilet vowing to never touch the shit again. I haven’t taken any bupropion today and don’t plan on taking any ever again. I’m a marathon runner and lately once I hit a certain level of exhaustion my cardiovascular system starts getting all tingly and I have to completely stop what I’m doing to rebalance myself.

I’m hoping my NDE brings me to my senses. My poor wife thinks I’m going to die. I have to stop.

 

[streaM Freak]

I'm sorry you had to experience that.
I absolutely agree that quitting is what needs to happen..

What is your wife telling you?

 

[CfZrx]

I take it for “depression” although I’m not really depressed. I started it to help stop drinking along with naltrexone. Now 6 months later I’m chasing that euphoric feeling I used to get when taking it and drinking coffee.

Dude! I know so well this dragon you hunt. I did plenty of wellbutrin sniffing back in the day. Me and my pals would sit around drinking mad strong coffee made cowboy style (throw the grounds in a pot, add H2O, bring to a boil, simmer a bit, then let cool) and writing like some dang ol' Kerouacs! I have seen a novice sniff it and go into a night of seizures.
Dangerous shit. You may want to strongly consider getting treatment. Ironically at AA meetings they will be guzzling (one of) your drug(s) of choice.

 

[abefourth]

If Ritalin will get rid of this pain I feel from the trauma I endured and can’t do shit about

Have you talked to someone about what you went through?

 

[Psychonauticunt]

Many bits of good advice in this thread. May I suggest you quit before you start shooting it up, because damn. That'll fuck you up.

 

[qazw]

If you can't get off the seizure drug you should absolutely get on ritalin instead. It'll fuck you up in other ways and maybe even turn you into a degenerate porn addict but at least it won't give you a seizure. Once you get your foot in the door to the shrink world getting ritalin/amphetamine is really easy. Even if you don't have ADHD the symptoms are braindead easy to fake.