i'm glad i heard the audio hallucinations from my schizophrenia before using drugs. i wouldn't want to not know if my symptoms were entirely drug related.
drugs really fuck some people with schizophrenia up... not really sure what happened to myself. i had a really good time making art and music with drugs and schizophrenia. haven't really had an overall negative experience with my mental health state. idk. drugs and schizophrenia really hurt some people sometimes. i'm a bit confused with reality, but it gives me some positive emotional feeling being confused. i don't think what worked for me would work out for other people, which makes it hard for me to write on the internet cause my experience might not be what's going to happen for other people.
sucks people get late on set schizophrenia too, so saying younger people should wait to use drugs is kind of stupid to me. idk about how the brain develops and what not though. i wonder about younger people starting with psychedelics and how the neuroplasticity would occur. i think a lot of younger drug users are using all drugs like alcohol and what not too, so who knows what's really going on in the brain... drugs really fuck some younger people up, but waiting till you get older, you could still lose it later on in life... idk if it's really right for me to be making this comment. i don't know if it's really right for teenagers to use drugs. i'm just glad i did what i did in my life though..
i don't know, what's going on with me with schizophrenia and heavy drug use. the thing is that i don't really know what's going on, but i'm making objectively good art and music, i tend to be full of myself, so maybe my mind that produces the hallucinations reflect that i am really proud of myself and my delusions become a good time or i also ponder if schizophrenia is a spiritual thing. i really don't know. i just know that when i tune a guitar by ear, and then go back with a guitar tuner, i'm getting objectively better results when i'm high. i've had doctors tell me i shouldn't care about my art and music, but that's entirely where my well being comes from. not all doctors tell me not to concentrate on art and music. some of the doctors say it's positive. the dude that didn't get how making music was making me feel was a total ass hole though. people don't get that being a psychedelic artist is actually a spiritual thing.
using drugs and having schizophrenia, from what i read my experience is better and more enjoyable than what a lot of people get. i would say really that recreational drugs are not for all schizophrenics, but they are actually for the small percentage of people that have schizophrenia and can utilize the drugs as tools for making art. lol. there are probably going to be more casualties than people that actually have a good time and do positive stuff if encouraging schizophrenics to do drugs, but people definitely have different experiences.