I'm at 4 months, just few days ago I couldn't get out of bed, now it's much better thank God, I can walk longer distances and open my laptop to do basic tasks.
Do you feel empty inside like nothing makes you react? Do you get anxiety or anything? I don’t feel anxiety either nor depression but thats good to hear man, did it suddenly come on?
One time, I was just chilling outside watching a faint aurora for hours alone just last year. I sort of miss being able to be outside at night without being afraid of aliens and cryptids and demons. I don't know if these things are real, but they don't scare me less than when I was a child. Maybe cryptids, there isn't going to be a bigfoot around here or anything like that and I think most of the creatures people see are explainable.I'm sorryit's hard, I have OCD too, that was my original diagnosis for so many years now. It's back along the anxiety now. Don't isolate yourself, it's hard to break the barrier between you and what you fear, don't force yourself to do it, but when the occasion presents itself, don't let the fear hold you back. Maybe it's how I see ERP. I've never tried doing it with a therapist. Sending my prayers
Yes I feel anxiety and I can cry, but I don't feel comfort and warmness, I don't know how to describe it. Like when you walk in the forest, you know it should feel good, the air, the view, but still it feels like nothing. The night doesn't feel soothing or anything too.
I'm really sorry you're going through such a hard thing, have you tried reaching to a therapist?
I know exactly wht you’re talking about, was this your first psychosis? I had that feeling during my first psychosis, it’s just ‘exist and freak out internally every day’ it took me roughly 9 months the first time to recover and one day like a light switch it switched and my brain came flooding back within minutes and it was a shock to everyone, but I noticed before the obsessions to look at other things other than recovery stories and food started flickering, have you noticed any flickering of interest lately? Mine at the moment is just pure internal emptiness which I feel sounds better but it’s scary because even the adrenaline from anxiety is gone so everything’s missing but when the anxiety was there it was pure torture so I don’t know which I could consider to be worse but I recovered when I felt anxiety and the ability to become upset because there’s emotion linked to both in my opinion, possibly you’re further on than it seems
I'm really scared of falling into psychosis again me too. In both times I did, I was on sertraline so I made the link. But I don't know what's happened to the structure of my brain. Praying for both of us to recover our emotions and not to ever fall in psychosis again.
Have you lost all sexual ability?
Psychiatrists tell many people this, but the brain isn't fully understood, and predicting whether psychosis will recur is very difficult (unless, of course, you have schizophrenia or bipolar disorder, as these endogenous conditions accompany a person's entire life). In my opinion, the sooner you stop Invega injections, the faster your recovery will begin. And you also need a second opinion, because psychiatrists typically have different opinions (one will continue to threaten you with psychosis, while another might consider pills and change your treatment). You deserve a doctor who listens to your experience, not just one who follows a protocol
I live with it everyday Id rather let voices piss me off so bad I have heart attack then take that shit again. Probably whats gonna end happening lol, I cant even sleep now I get about 2 to 4 hours of sleep ounce I fall asleep around 3 or 4 wake up around 7. I think I would have a mental breakdown if I had to deal with that level of akathisia and anhedonia again in my current state.
Insomnia is awful
I have that too recently. I wonder what does it mean? My sleep schedule is just fucked Im extremely depressed probably the most I ever been in my life instead staying sleeping all day I stay up. I go back in forth, I dont even have the energy shower or anything. I dont even change my cloths much and letting all my facial hair grow out like a cave man. I just give up with everything thats going on, my health is big part of it. I think have MS or some shit so you can imagine the existential crisis happening. Basically in same place I been in since I was in school my parents basement with no friends and no relationship without a women my body is just shutting down at this stage. I dont even have appetite I lost so many pounds in the last month from 142 to 127 and dropping without recreational drugs.Insomnia is awful
I think we should watch out for early signs of psychosis, stay safe