KurtAurelius
Bluelighter
I have been depressed as long as I can remember, and have had an incredibly cynical, nasty inner critic to boot.
My reason for making a thread is I want to see if anyone has any other ideas for endogenous endorphin release.
Cognitive stuff is very helpful but it never changes the root of the issue, which I’ve always felt to be chemical.
I have always found opioids to basically temporarily cure me, but opioids are not sustainable.
As I have also found, exercise that is strenuous (45 min 1 set to failure full body with antagonistic super setting)
Produces the same feeling as let’s say a 10mg oxy with no tolerance.
Walking at 90% max effort (similar to in terms of how heavy you’d train to failure) for long enough gives me the same result .
I generally feel the same warm rush, relief of anxiety, I no longer feel tense, I can slow down and not rush, I am not filled with the loud bitter noise of inner hatred.
Generally if I maintain a habit of 10km walking a day, and daily weight lifting (not always max effort) I feel like a different man paired with enough sleep, good food and socialising.
I had one of the worst winters and was stuck inside, and I now see what I did to myself was just make myself incredibly ill. I still trained twice a week and got about 5km of walking a day but it is not enough.
Sex gives me a similar feeling, and the right kind of socialising too, and being outdoors in the sun for long enough will also give a buzz.
This is in line with my theory that activity’s are merely drugs, and I want an endorphin drip to run all day.
I suspect as my adhd causes chemical imbalance (which again can be temporarily fixed with Methylphenidate) the complex trauma I have and my autism also causes some kind of endorphin regulation issue.
My reason for making a thread is I want to see if anyone has any other ideas for endogenous endorphin release.
Cognitive stuff is very helpful but it never changes the root of the issue, which I’ve always felt to be chemical.
I have always found opioids to basically temporarily cure me, but opioids are not sustainable.
As I have also found, exercise that is strenuous (45 min 1 set to failure full body with antagonistic super setting)
Produces the same feeling as let’s say a 10mg oxy with no tolerance.
Walking at 90% max effort (similar to in terms of how heavy you’d train to failure) for long enough gives me the same result .
I generally feel the same warm rush, relief of anxiety, I no longer feel tense, I can slow down and not rush, I am not filled with the loud bitter noise of inner hatred.
Generally if I maintain a habit of 10km walking a day, and daily weight lifting (not always max effort) I feel like a different man paired with enough sleep, good food and socialising.
I had one of the worst winters and was stuck inside, and I now see what I did to myself was just make myself incredibly ill. I still trained twice a week and got about 5km of walking a day but it is not enough.
Sex gives me a similar feeling, and the right kind of socialising too, and being outdoors in the sun for long enough will also give a buzz.
This is in line with my theory that activity’s are merely drugs, and I want an endorphin drip to run all day.
I suspect as my adhd causes chemical imbalance (which again can be temporarily fixed with Methylphenidate) the complex trauma I have and my autism also causes some kind of endorphin regulation issue.
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