I dont want to hear the bullshit cope of just waiting or taking bullshit like nac. I took 5 grams in the span of end of may to end of september in 2024 doing 14 or 13 rolls, my last 4 rolls were all in 5 consecutive days in which i did half a gram. I got complete loss of erogenous sensation and ability to be horny from my first dose. I got blank mind from acid in november 2024 and at the end of january i had gotten dpdr with daily panic attacks (which have passed) and anhedonia (hasnt passed), those i got without using any substances as i was sober for 2 months. I also dont feel any sort of emotion but after all that mdma there were times where i felt something and i also have adhd and autism so i cannot be sure of the reason why.What i've tried and what it did:
LSD+ketamine: did only once in july 2024, could feel emotions normally for some time during the trip and afterwards i had natural strong libido (i was hypersexual before) and urge to masturbate rather than masturbating because i wanted to. Did psychedelics other times without ketamine and never had any sort of change sexually but some times i could feel emotions.
9-me-bc: completely cured my adhd for an entire month to the point where i was hyperfixating on cognitive tasks, made anhedonia better but did nothing sexually or emotionally. A dude who had pssd from mdma healed from it and reccomended it to me but he also abused meth and this is probably the reason why it cured him.
pro and prebiotics: did absolutely nothing, although i ordered them during summer and they probably arrived dead. On the pssd reddit a dude that had it from mdma healed this way.
nmda antagonists: i can feel anxiety on them and they stimulate me. Make anhedonia slighly better. Some make my adhd better.
sarcosine: gives me memory issues which i don't normally have, actually my memory is the same as ever but it goes back to normal after ceasing use.
dxm: i can feel only its dissociative effects and nothing serotoninergic, i had lost the ability to feel serotoninergic effects from it before the mdma tho and it wasnt due to tolerance since when i stopped using it i could still feel it and when i tried in 2024 again after a lot of time i didnt feel anything. Since acid it also has visuals.
methylphenidate: does nothing for my anhedonia, it probably worsens it but it makes adhd slightly better.
l-theanine: gives me crazy panic attacks and all symptoms of dpdr from burning head to manual breathing. Only supplement that gave an actual reaction in me.
all other sorts of supplements did nothing and i've done tons of blood exams and they were all normal except high ferritin 2 months ago. I've done no hormonal checkup for prolactin and similair hormones that could impact the condition.
Im gonna try all the hardest substances like ghb and phenibut, reccomend me some that 100% work. If those also don't work imma start oppioids and if they're not enough im killing myself.
LSD+ketamine: did only once in july 2024, could feel emotions normally for some time during the trip and afterwards i had natural strong libido (i was hypersexual before) and urge to masturbate rather than masturbating because i wanted to. Did psychedelics other times without ketamine and never had any sort of change sexually but some times i could feel emotions.
9-me-bc: completely cured my adhd for an entire month to the point where i was hyperfixating on cognitive tasks, made anhedonia better but did nothing sexually or emotionally. A dude who had pssd from mdma healed from it and reccomended it to me but he also abused meth and this is probably the reason why it cured him.
pro and prebiotics: did absolutely nothing, although i ordered them during summer and they probably arrived dead. On the pssd reddit a dude that had it from mdma healed this way.
nmda antagonists: i can feel anxiety on them and they stimulate me. Make anhedonia slighly better. Some make my adhd better.
sarcosine: gives me memory issues which i don't normally have, actually my memory is the same as ever but it goes back to normal after ceasing use.
dxm: i can feel only its dissociative effects and nothing serotoninergic, i had lost the ability to feel serotoninergic effects from it before the mdma tho and it wasnt due to tolerance since when i stopped using it i could still feel it and when i tried in 2024 again after a lot of time i didnt feel anything. Since acid it also has visuals.
methylphenidate: does nothing for my anhedonia, it probably worsens it but it makes adhd slightly better.
l-theanine: gives me crazy panic attacks and all symptoms of dpdr from burning head to manual breathing. Only supplement that gave an actual reaction in me.
all other sorts of supplements did nothing and i've done tons of blood exams and they were all normal except high ferritin 2 months ago. I've done no hormonal checkup for prolactin and similair hormones that could impact the condition.
Im gonna try all the hardest substances like ghb and phenibut, reccomend me some that 100% work. If those also don't work imma start oppioids and if they're not enough im killing myself.
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