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Godjilla

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Hello EVERYBODY! :love:

You can call me Jill. I chose the name Godjilla for two reasons. Reason one, my cute little name is hiding within. Reason two, when I get mad, I break shit. This Kaiju is 33 and lives in beautiful Las Vegas, NV. I´m originally from New Mexico. I´m half Navajo and half White, but my white father was never in the picture. I grew up within the culture and consider myself a proud Dine. I do not personally have a lot of experience with drugs or Alcohol. I watched that stuff destroy so many of my friends, my Father I never knew (he drank himself to death by the time he was around my age, 33-34). A lot of folks are probably aware of the historical relationship between us Indians and substances, especially Alcohol.

You see the very worst of what Alcohol can do when you´re on the reservation or Indian hoods. It´s not James Bond asking for a Martini at a fancy bar. It´s people drinking themselves into a stupor, every time, experience DT´s and often end up with Alcoholic dementia by their 50´s. A big part of why I got into social work was because I had to experience the pain and misery of poverty, addiction and violence among my people. I wanted to be there, not just for my people, but for any person who suffers. It´s my hope that being on here, I can tell the story of my people and learn more about how to best help the people in my care.

I guess I was always too afraid to get heavily into that lifestyle. However, I have experience with a lot of this stuff, even if it´s only brief. I smoke weed, I like to trip and I´ve been known to roll my titties off when the occasion calls for it. I like to have fun!

I was brought here by one @Keif' Richards I met this guy a couple of months ago for the first time. He had come from out East and now works at the Mission with myself and some of the other most choice men, women, non-binaries and furries that Clark County has to offer. Some people may find this reference dated, but working with Ry is a lot like working with Creed from the Office. He is like if Steven Urkel became a Hells Angel. He tells incredibly dark, twisted stories about his life, often laughing and framing them as humorous experiences. There is a learning curve. Once I have gotten to know him, I realize he´s got a gift for communicating with people, telling stories in a way that makes them both educational and palatable.

I guess it´s old news to you all here. I don´t want to embarrass him, but this guy cares. I´ve seen him dress wounds, give lice treatments, handle bed-bug infested laundry without flinching and making sure people get the services they need. He is like the ¨Horse Whisperer¨ for extremely intoxicated clients. They listen to him because they know he is legit. He actually does care. I say this because Vegas is a place where people generally do not care. The poor are treated like refuse waiting to die. This is no exaggeration. We needed help at the Mission. The pigs have been breaking up the hobo jungles on the outskirts of town. There is basically a law that states they can´t sleep outside, so we get hit hard.

We really needed him. We´re happy we have him. I´m happy he came. He has been a bright light in my life. I was in a relationship that was physically and psychologically abusive that was very difficult to leave (it´s not totally over). That´s a big reason why I´m not back in NM. @Keif' Richards and I were just pooling resources at first. Now, I´ll just say we´ve done all of the things a couple would do and now we´re together pretty much every day as a team. I hadn´t felt safe for a while. I didn´t feel like I had a lot of support and I was often afraid. I feel like this person cares about me the same way he cares about our clients. I don´t know where life will lead. There is a lot of chaos and worry. There is a lot of poverty. Ry has brought all of us a little bit of light and I feel lucky to have him. He´s got a talent for framing painful, difficult situations in a way that makes them... something to laugh at. He is not terrible looking either...

I hope that I will be able to bring a little something to this community. I know @Keif' Richards really loves this place and he has been wanting me to join. I felt if it meant that much to him, it´s probably worthwhile to share my mind with you all. I´ll try to contribute as much as I can with my limited knowledge. I hope I can help and learn.

Your Truly

@Godjilla (Jill) :waver:
 
Godjilla said:
Hello EVERYBODY! :love:

You can call me Jill. I chose the name Godjilla for two reasons. Reason one, my cute little name is hiding within. Reason two, when I get mad, I break shit. This Kaiju is 33 and lives in beautiful Las Vegas, NV. I´m originally from New Mexico. I´m half Navajo and half White, but my white father was never in the picture. I grew up within the culture and consider myself a proud Dine. I do not personally have a lot of experience with drugs or Alcohol. I watched that stuff destroy so many of my friends, my Father I never knew (he drank himself to death by the time he was around my age, 33-34). A lot of folks are probably aware of the historical relationship between us Indians and substances, especially Alcohol.

You see the very worst of what Alcohol can do when you´re on the reservation or Indian hoods. It´s not James Bond asking for a Martini at a fancy bar. It´s people drinking themselves into a stupor, every time, experience DT´s and often end up with Alcoholic dementia by their 50´s. A big part of why I got into social work was because I had to experience the pain and misery of poverty, addiction and violence among my people. I wanted to be there, not just for my people, but for any person who suffers. It´s my hope that being on here, I can tell the story of my people and learn more about how to best help the people in my care.

I guess I was always too afraid to get heavily into that lifestyle. However, I have experience with a lot of this stuff, even if it´s only brief. I smoke weed, I like to trip and I´ve been known to roll my titties off when the occasion calls for it. I like to have fun!

I was brought here by one @Keif' Richards I met this guy a couple of months ago for the first time. He had come from out East and now works at the Mission with myself and some of the other most choice men, women, non-binaries and furries that Clark County has to offer. Some people may find this reference dated, but working with Ry is a lot like working with Creed from the Office. He is like if Steven Urkel became a Hells Angel. He tells incredibly dark, twisted stories about his life, often laughing and framing them as humorous experiences. There is a learning curve. Once I have gotten to know him, I realize he´s got a gift for communicating with people, telling stories in a way that makes them both educational and palatable.

I guess it´s old news to you all here. I don´t want to embarrass him, but this guy cares. I´ve seen him dress wounds, give lice treatments, handle bed-bug infested laundry without flinching and making sure people get the services they need. He is like the ¨Horse Whisperer¨ for extremely intoxicated clients. They listen to him because they know he is legit. He actually does care. I say this because Vegas is a place where people generally do not care. The poor are treated like refuse waiting to die. This is no exaggeration. We needed help at the Mission. The pigs have been breaking up the hobo jungles on the outskirts of town. There is basically a law that states they can´t sleep outside, so we get hit hard.

We really needed him. We´re happy we have him. I´m happy he came. He has been a bright light in my life. I was in a relationship that was physically and psychologically abusive that was very difficult to leave (it´s not totally over). That´s a big reason why I´m not back in NM. @Keif' Richards and I were just pooling resources at first. Now, I´ll just say we´ve done all of the things a couple would do and now we´re together pretty much every day as a team. I hadn´t felt safe for a while. I didn´t feel like I had a lot of support and I was often afraid. I feel like this person cares about me the same way he cares about our clients. I don´t know where life will lead. There is a lot of chaos and worry. There is a lot of poverty. Ry has brought all of us a little bit of light and I feel lucky to have him. He´s got a talent for framing painful, difficult situations in a way that makes them... something to laugh at. He is not terrible looking either...

I hope that I will be able to bring a little something to this community. I know @Keif' Richards really loves this place and he has been wanting me to join. I felt if it meant that much to him, it´s probably worthwhile to share my mind with you all. I´ll try to contribute as much as I can with my limited knowledge. I hope I can help and learn.

Your Truly

@Godjilla (Jill) :waver:
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Horse Whisperer - i fucking love that.

Kief is a legend. Consistently himself.

Take care, and welcome.
 
Amazing introduction, and Hero's Salute to @Keif' Richards. Goes to show no matter who you are or what you do if you do for others it does not go unnoticed. @Godjilla, I'm curious is there a specific reason why Native Americans are more suspetable to alcohol abuse and addiction than other nationalities? Do you see Native Americans as a people who have lost hope as a result of white oppression and loss of identity?

What is the general attitude among tribe members, Native Americans about life, hope and dreams?
 
I just want to say, I´ve never met this woman in my life ;) Secondly, @Godjilla the $20 Buffalo Wild Wings gift card and the half a joint I promised you for your testimony are underneath the gnome statue in the office.

I kid, I kid. You guys really know how to butter this old junkie up. I might as well be a lunch special at the Red Lobster. Jill is equally amazing. She´s got an amazing smile and a warmth that I wish I could fully emulate. She definitely feels the plight of our women and it makes me feel good knowing I´ve got a partner at work who can feel some of these feelings that, as a man, I´m sure I could never fully understand.

For the community that her and I serve (and that we all serve as Bluelighters) it seems black and white often, in that the only people who feel true compassion for the addicted, the homeless etc. are those who have experienced the pain. Jill is just a naturally loving and compassionate person. Even not knowing what addiction feels like or is like to live through, she never blinks an eye at hearing people out and treating them with kindness and sincerity. She´s really a cool chick and I hope that she finds a comfortable place here on the forums.

And she might tell you all different, but I know for fact that her Dine blood allows her to shapeshift into animals. She claims to be a human being, but the other night, she was undeniably a total fox. Explain that one!

Welcome @Godjilla I´m so happy and touched that you took the time to come on here and join us. :lowrider::mob:
 
Keif' Richards said:
And she might tell you all different, but I know for fact that her Dine blood allows her to shapeshift into animals. She claims to be a human being, but the other night, she was undeniably a total fox. Explain that one!
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Oh wow, she can do that? That's amazing. Once I turned into a bullfrog and woke up as a human. All kidding aside, if you are a human service type person your gift is serving people in whatever capacity you are led to do.
 
Godjilla said:
Hello EVERYBODY! :love:
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Oh Thank You for joining ( and being here ) too.

And thank you for feeling welcome here because you definitely very much are !!

Hugs. Thank You.

Jill ( that's very pretty )

I enjoy your company already. 🙂


💖
 
You are all the coolest. When this community was first explained to me, I feel bad to say I was sceptical. I don´t know what I was expecting. I thought it would be people buying/selling drugs, talking about crime or how to make money... bad stuff. That is why you have to investigate though. @Keif' Richards explained it, though I can only now see the wonderful nature of your community. You are all so kind to one another and so genuine. I know how stigmatizing this can be. It gives me the warm n´ fuzzies to see so many people, with their own struggles, being so dedicated and available for one another. It is honestly beautiful. I´ve only known your compatriot for a couple of months. It makes me so proud and just confirms everything I was already feeling.

Getting to see you all in action, being welcomed with such kindness has been the highlight of my week. @Keif' Richards and I talk about our ¨Hope Meter(s)¨. No matter how hard you try, no matter how strong you are, the work we do here in Vegas can really suck it out of you. The people on the street feel ignored, feared and hated... because often they are. Being alone in this world, truly alone, must be the most painful thing. None of you are alone and that just makes me so happy :cry:

@M!$TER-ED that is a question that has been asked since the Native Americans first drank liquor. I know there have been studies and all of that. You never know if those are trustworthy or biased though. If you ask me and I believe most others in the community would say that we have an issue with Alcohol that is specific to our race/ethnicity. Either we don´t metabolize it right, our brains are prewired for addiction to it... I do not know. I believe there is something inherent though. More recently Methamphetamine has become big on the Reservation.

There is no doubt that circumstances play a huge role too. Most native tribes you could broadly say were warrior-centric or they were otherwise morally built around the concept of honor. Bravery, defiance and independence were characteristics of most tribes. To go from ¨free¨ in almost every sense to being essentially enslaved, moved, abused, disarmed; to have your spiritual beliefs erased, to make a culture that valued honor and bravery into a culture in which submission was the core characteristic; I believe this was so damaging that the pain continues to resonate through the generations. The pain and loss of the ancestors in those times was passed down in whatever subtle ways. Alcoholism was the escape from the feeling of having no honor, when that is the only thing your culture values.

Americans have no honor and have not had honor. However, this is the way of Empire in general and. I am referring to the politicians who value money over human dignity. No we were not the perfect pacifists that some liked to make us out to be. We fought one another in wars prior to white settlement. The connection to the planet that we have, the plants, the animals, the sun and the sky, is often mocked or treated as superstitious. Now the planet has been destroyed by carelessness and greed. This feeling of losing the planet, not being able to protect it, failing mother nature, that is a deep wound on our psyche collectively also.

I believe this is why it is still an open argument. There are reasons to believe a genetic component. There are also innumerable circumstantial reasons like shame, guilt etc. that drive the addiction problems.

Thank you for the warm welcomes @Robi @Ki3ly and @chippermonk you all are so nice!
 
Hello Jill!

And welcome!

There are a lot of cool people here but there's only one @Keif' Richards. But then I'm sure you knew that already.

Hey, Keif. I hope you're doing good? Sounds like you are which makes me happy.

There's always someone sound around here to talk to. So have fun and enjoy!

BB
 
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Godjilla said:
No we were not the perfect pacifists that some liked to make us out to be. We fought one another in wars prior to white settlement. The connection to the planet that we have, the plants, the animals, the sun and the sky, is often mocked or treated as superstitious. Now the planet has been destroyed by carelessness and greed. This feeling of losing the planet, not being able to protect it, failing mother nature, that is a deep wound on our psyche collectively also.
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You have all made great contributions and provided great knowledge, wisdom, and strength. It's a damn shame what has been done to mother Earth especially in our region.

Thanks for sharing, and welcome!
 
I’ve been thinking more about the Native American experience versus the Japanese one. We all know Japan was built on honor and the whole Samurai/Bushido code. But then European contact happened, things got messy—some good, some bad—and eventually, the culture hit a bit of a decadent spiral. I honestly think the Kamikaze pilots and those brutal last stands in places like Okinawa were basically the final, desperate gasps of that old-school Bushido spirit.

Now, look, I enjoy a good anime as much as the next guy, but I’ve always had this "something’s not right here" feeling. I remember watching Sailor Moon as a kid and being totally baffled. Why do these teenage girls have to basically transform into "night-shift workers" just to use their powers? My older brothers used to lock their bedroom doors to watch it "in peace," and even as a kid, I knew exactly what they were up to. I just didn't get why the fanservice had to be baked into a show that was actually good on its own.
It feels like modern Japan is obsessed with tiny, cute things because they were a warrior culture that got castrated and occupied. In that old mindset, if you survived the war, you were basically a coward who didn't try hard enough to die. A lot of the "weird" parts of modern Japan feel like ripples from that 20th-century trauma.

:sneaky:THE WARRIOR TO WAIFU PIPELINE :sneaky:

The big difference? The Allies actually respected Japan’s "stats"—they saw them as equals in intelligence and tech, so they wanted them in the new world order. Meanwhile, they looked at Native Americans as having zero value. All that incredible oral knowledge about medicine? Tossed aside as "superstition" because it didn't fit the Western vibe.

I was actually just talking about the Sackler family and the Purdue/OxyContin disaster. It’s heartbreaking to see opiate addiction tearing through the community. I like to call traditional medicine "non-corporately-influenced medicine."

I truly believe nature has the answers if we actually knew how to ask her, and we definitely had that knowledge once. It’s just tragic that thousands of years of oral transmission (and if you giggled at that, seek help, you're gross) can be wiped out by one little green pill.
 
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Godjilla said:
I want to make a secondary comment on the topic of Native American culture. I mentioned the concepts of war and honor. I had seen a short documentary on Youtube some time ago. They were discussing the culture of Japan. Japan was also a culture with honor, courage and honesty at its core. I know everyone is at least a bit familiar with Samurai/Bushido. European contact was the catalyst for the destruction of their culture, in some cases this was positive and in others, negative. They then went down the path of decadence. I think we saw the last gasp of Bushido culture with the Kamikaze pilots and the suicidal defense(s) of places like Okinawa.

I know a lot of people are into Japanese culture here in the West. I too have some anime that I enjoy. However, I remember I always had this feeling of ¨this ain´t quite right¨ when I´d be exposed to the culture. I saw Sailor Moon when I was a kid. It was extremely confusing watching a show about teenage girls (minors) who have to transform into hookers to use their special powers. My two older brothers would shut their bedroom doors so they could enjoy the show without distraction. I never understood why... well, I knew why; I knew men wanted sex. I didn´t understand why it had to be interwoven into a show that was already so good?

There seems to be an obsession in general with miniature things. I guess my point is, they were a warrior culture that was basically castrated and then occupied by a foreign culture. They say that even if you survived, your very survival meant you did not try hard enough; you are a coward. I think a lot of the negative peculiarities of modern Japan are ripples from the events of the 20th century. Japan is different than Indian country. We all know that. I think the trauma and the end results are related. The Allies saw Japan as relatively equal in intelligence/development/capability. They wanted and needed Japan to be a part of their new world order.

I believe white people saw Indians as inferior in every way. I don´t think the natives were believed to have any value whatsoever to their goals or objectives. There was an amazing amount of oral knowledge pertaining to medicine. Most of this knowledge was disregarded by the white people as Indians were seen as being entirely superstitious and having no practical value.

I was talking with people in another section about Purdue and the Sacklers. This is all worth talking about. ¨Natural¨ Medicine, ¨Traditional¨ Medicine¨ or whatever you want to call it... I think I would call it ¨non-corporately-influenced¨ Medicine. It is disappointing when I hear of Opiate addiction in the community. I cannot be certain, though my heart tells me that nature could give us a better way if we knew the right way to ask her. I´m sure we have had knowledge of this kind in the past. All those years of oral transmission and a little green pill of Oxycottin destroys everything.

If you giggled when I said ¨Oral Transmission¨ you are just gross ;)
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There's a book on drugs that have historically been used by Native Americans that I read part of and am trying to find again for you and the others. I wish I could remember the name but I can't. It's a free book on Google, I think.
 
@abefourth oh definitely hit me up when you figure that out. I regret that I did not really take my own culture very seriously until a few years ago in my late 20´s. There is this incredible riptide, if you will. What I mean is, television, school, history books, bitches wearing feathered headdresses at music festivals... It is all there to remind you constantly that:

- You were not strong/intelligent/capable of defending your people as Europeans are superior
- Your were not only beaten, your entire culture has been made into a joke. It is entirely irrelevant

A lot of people, I would say MOST people, look at for instance, the Navajo Nation as unnecessary. They think keeping the language alive is a total waste of time. People who make noise about political issues are often just seen as annoying, like ¨don´r you have anything better to do?¨ I think you could call it fatalism or defeatism. Many Dine see the survival of our culture as a lost cause, so they would say to live life to the fullest; don´t waste time on an unwinnable fight.

I could be deluded. Maybe I´ll change my stance one day. I believe we have to try our best to preserve our culture. Is just giving up ever the answer? I don´t think so.
 
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