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Cocaine doing coke alone

streaM Freak said:
Sometimes "hitting rock bottom" financially or emotionally can seem like a strategy. In my opinion it isn't. Having stability in other aspects of life helped me quit. When i was in constant debt to dealers sure i wanted to quit because it fucking sucked, but if nothing changes for the better then nothing will change for the better.
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That's good advice.

I didn't use past night, I reflected on this idea of hitting rock bottom and realized it's absurd
 
Chaurus said:
Too expensive to do alone at home.
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How so? Wouldn’t it be more expensive to do it out in and about sharing with others ? Me personally I do it alone for the most part so it doesn’t matter to me if I am alone or out and about w others. I do absolutely agree on the cost being high though.
 
jessepinkman779 said:
Good point, it's not moderate. I'm getting through an ounce a week. I used to love my opioids they have me the same kind of sociable feeling, but I'm using the coke for that now. I agree it's unsustainable. It's costing me £1200 per week.
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Same here in the Midwest USA interesting to me to see this number over there for u too. Take care
 
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jessepinkman779 said:
Firstly excuse me for hijacking a thread I don't know how to create a new thread, or what section to post it in

I'm currently 2 years deep into a serious coke addiction. I'll be honest -i absolutely love it. I feel depressed when I try and go without it and happy/normal when I have it. It's costing me a fortune. I don't really want to stop, but I know I can't go on forever. I've tried cutting down on the amount I have daily, but it just builds back up again. I feel lost and I don't know what to do. I'm not even sure why I'm posting this. I've dabbled with coke for 30 years, but I've been heavily addicted for 2 years. Everyone close to me wants me to stop, but it's the best antidepressant in the world for me.

I should add that I'm also prescribed Espranor 12mg daily for opiate addiction. However, I only take that once ever few days.

Has anyone else ever been in this situation? Are the people close to me right in saying I need to stop coke and I just can't see it because I'm so deep in? Or should I just carry on and be as safe as possible as I always am. You'll all know how more ISH coke is though. I've lost family members because they can't watch me on coke Daly, I've lost friends for the same reason. The way I see it is I'm not hurting anyone or putting anyone else in danger so I don't see people's problem. I just don't know what to do for the best. I live in the UK, I'm 46 years old and otherwise healthy to the best of my knowledge.

Does anyone else live with a coke addiction and not want to stop, but are feeling pressure from friends and family to stop?

Sorry again for hijacking a thread. I have a drug worker but I can't talk to her about this because she will just have me thrown in rehab.
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Not only is cocaine harmful to you psychologically it also is very bad for your physical health. Cocaine is a heavy cardio toxic stimulant and is very bad on your heart. I see that your in your 40s. Time to slow down you don't want to end up having a heart issue or even drop dead
 
ish_1_ said:
How so? Wouldn’t it be more expensive to do it out in and about sharing with others ? Me personally I do it alone for the most part so it doesn’t matter to me if I am alone or out and about w others. I do absolutely agree on the cost being high though.
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Depends on the others. I always have money and drugs available for those I date with, even though many of my dates gladly share theirs with me, and I don't have chemsex that often.

Sort of like 'dinner and a movie' but with jumping straight into bed.

But cocaine is one of the most expensive drugs here (used to be crystal meth, but that's gotten cheaper).

I haven't snorted cocaine in at least fifteen years, and in the last few years experimented with cocaine base for sex. Pointless and wáááy too expensive compared to other drugs.
 
jessepinkman779 said:
Good point, it's not moderate. I'm getting through an ounce a week. I used to love my opioids they have me the same kind of sociable feeling, but I'm using the coke for that now. I agree it's unsustainable. It's costing me £1200 per week.
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I’m really friendly when on stim or downers. It benzos that make me a different person. I love what I can get done on stims and I love the nod from downers. But unfortunately I’m always a go big or go home so I can’t do stims anymore. I tear my flesh off lol. If I didn’t tear myself up I’d be high everyday. I work I pay bills I’m a great wife. The downers are a stay in the house throw on a documentary and just nod. I love the high from IV coke but it’s the dumbest way to do it. The high last 2 mins if that. And it is really scary. I’ve had some BP readings of 200+/100+ I’ve come close to stroking out. I can do the same amount of meth in one shot and just be spun for two to three days. The fun high from meth is short lived to maybe 5-10 mins. Anywho not judging just rambling my opinion. Much love.
 
Bubbybubble said:
I’m really friendly when on stim or downers. It benzos that make me a different person. I love what I can get done on stims and I love the nod from downers. But unfortunately I’m always a go big or go home so I can’t do stims anymore. I tear my flesh off lol. If I didn’t tear myself up I’d be high everyday. I work I pay bills I’m a great wife. The downers are a stay in the house throw on a documentary and just nod. I love the high from IV coke but it’s the dumbest way to do it. The high last 2 mins if that. And it is really scary. I’ve had some BP readings of 200+/100+ I’ve come close to stroking out. I can do the same amount of meth in one shot and just be spun for two to three days. The fun high from meth is short lived to maybe 5-10 mins. Anywho not judging just rambling my opinion. Much love.
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I'm an all or nothing person too, currently well into a 3 week solid session on coke. I'd love to try meth, but where I am in the UK no one has it.
 
opiatekrzy said:
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Not only is cocaine harmful to you psychologically it also is very bad for your physical health. Cocaine is a heavy cardio toxic stimulant and is very bad on your heart. I see that your in your 40s. Time to slow down you don't want to end up having a heart issue or even drop dead
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My drug councillor has told me I'm already in the age range for a heart attack so I'm pushing my luck with the coke. I'm 46, 47 next week. Heart problems do run on one side of my family too. With that said a friend of mine is 48 and has lung cancer, it's not curable. So, I see life as something to be enjoyed whilst I have it. I know how selfish I sound. Even though I've been in a 3 week session, before this session I had cut down. However, I seem to cut down for a while, then go on a massive blowout.
 
Bubbybubble said:
I’ve heard this so many times but when I do any type of stim sex is the farthest thing from my mind. What does that mean??
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I'm the same on coke I don't even think about sex and I get quality coke. I just feel happy, unburdened and the euphoria is amazing. But, sex doesn't cross my mind on coke if rather just enjoy my coke. I had a female friend stay over one night and one thing led to another. She got into bed and asked me to join her, instead of joining her I sat on the edge of the bed snorting coke off my bedside table. It made her horny, but I just couldn't stop sniffing long enough to get into bed. I had zero sex drive I just felt amazing.
 
Well, an update from me: I was doing great up until 3 weeks ago, I'd really gotten my usage down. Then I just treated myself one night and haven't stopped since. Still going 3 weeks on. The night I decided to treat myself my dealer got me to try some straight off a kg block before he bought bulk and that was that. It was/is amazing stuff. I'm glad the quality was too notch because I didn't want to be the one to call those guys coke shit or mediocre I don't think they'd of taken it well. My dealer sorted me out, plus I treated myself to a Q so I ended up with half ounce straight off a kg block. I've lost track of how much I've spent in the last 3 weeks now. I pay top price so I get it exactly how my dealer gets it. He doesn't usually sell the amounts I have we're just old school friends. Well, my other friends are saying he's not a friend, he's my worst enemy. He lets me run bills of 4 grand plus up, then pay him, then the cycle starts again. I could step on the stuff I get off him and it would still be quality, but I just can't do it. I get other people asking me to get it off my dealer for them because he wants sell lower amounts and that doesn't help when I'm trying to stay off it.

I'm just miserable without coke, as soon as I've had some I feel myself again. I don't know if that would change if I got off it long term because at the moment I can't imagine life without it. I'm so much more engaging with friends and family when I see them that is. If I haven't had any I hardly talk. My closest friend told me the real me disappears when I'm on it, he said my personality completely goes. And when I've had a week off it I'm me again. However that seems the opposite way round for me. I think some people see what suits their opinion at times and he doesn't like me doing coke so he says my personality goes on it. But, at the same time he said I phone him much more when I'm on it and don't shut up. I know I'm addicted, but I can support my habit financially, I'm not stealing, I'm not causing trouble, I'm not angry of violent on coke so I don't see the problem. Obviously I'm risking heart attack or stroke especially at my age 46,47 next week. But, that rubs in one side of my family anyway so I'm almost certain to have a heart attack at some point anyway.

Sorry for the ramble, I'm obviously high ATM.
 
My drug councillor told me to try and cut down by 1 gram per week. Some advice that is. However I suppose it's the best she can do with my attitude towards the situation. I think 2 gram per day would be the next step, then half that to 1 a week after a couple of weeks. Then maybe a treat once per month just 1 big session a month. I just don't know when to stop once I start. The stuff I get doesn't block your nose either so it's easier to just keep going. I really admire all of you who got off of coke because it's so hard. I know I can't carry on forever age isn't on my side, but, for now I'm kicking that can down the road. With it being my birthday Thursday I guess it's pointless stopping the session until after then. The strength the people on here must have to stop coke is unreal, I really respect you all. Anyway, I'm off to phone my mate and talk shit to him for an hour. Stay safe everyone I'll do my best to do the same.
 
jessepinkman779 said:
My drug councillor told me to try and cut down by 1 gram per week. Some advice that is. However I suppose it's the best she can do with my attitude towards the situation. I think 2 gram per day would be the next step, then half that to 1 a week after a couple of weeks. Then maybe a treat once per month just 1 big session a month. I just don't know when to stop once I start. The stuff I get doesn't block your nose either so it's easier to just keep going. I really admire all of you who got off of coke because it's so hard. I know I can't carry on forever age isn't on my side, but, for now I'm kicking that can down the road. With it being my birthday Thursday I guess it's pointless stopping the session until after then. The strength the people on here must have to stop coke is unreal, I really respect you all. Anyway, I'm off to phone my mate and talk shit to him for an hour. Stay safe everyone I'll do my best to do the same.
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hey man thanks for the update. How's your nose? I've been doing ket again recently, and I started having a lil dry blood in my left nostril only on the 2nd day of doing it. Wondering if there's any tricks to help maintain good nose health while snorting. Also happy belated birthday!
 
Passable_rock said:
hey man thanks for the update. How's your nose? I've been doing ket again recently, and I started having a lil dry blood in my left nostril only on the 2nd day of doing it. Wondering if there's any tricks to help maintain good nose health while snorting. Also happy belated birthday!
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Hello. My nose is actually doing okay considering what I put it through.
 
I blew lines alone last night and I'm currently hitting the rest of my baggie also alone. Last night I was gaming and listening to music. Right now I'm watching some TV. Mind you I have an awesome hookup so this isn't a speedy high. It's almost relaxing, don't get me wrong I'm definitely amped up a bit but it's purely euphoric. So depending on the quality of your product will kinda determine what you wanna do when flying solo.
 
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