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What would you combine mdma with if you could press your own xtc?

I'm not a fan of it myself when mixed with MDMA. The vast majority of people are caffeine addicts with a high tolerance.
To clarify, I agree with your general perspective. Your posts on the "dispensary cannabis" thread were well-written and on point. Here, I was simply distinguishing caffeine from all other stimulants which it's so often grouped with. It's a very misinterpreted substance which most people don't know how to use properly. This quote gives some insights on that:
Symptoms to expect when you do coffee right are calmness, focus, motivation, warmth, and stable energy. Coffee done wrong leads to anxiety, shakiness, sweating, feeling wired, inability to focus.
 
To clarify, I agree with your general perspective. Your posts on the "dispensary cannabis" thread were well-written and on point. Here, I was simply distinguishing caffeine from all other stimulants which it's so often grouped with. It's a very misinterpreted substance which most people don't know how to use properly. This quote gives some insights on that:
Oh no I wasn't trying to imply I disagreed with you. Was just trying to say I see the logic of why people added it to some presses (along with the obvious: cheap easy to get stimulant that's OTC).

I would really like to be in a position where I could offer pressed tablets and capsules of pure substances at a fair asking price. But my "code of honor" dictates now that I can no longer sell substances to other people at all. I see it as spreading evil into the world and I don't care about paper money at all (I wouldn't use it at all if it wasn't required to eat).

In an ideal world I'd have a lab full of glassware and everything I need to do the magic to make others happy. The only reason I'm not sitting on a lifetime supply of my favorite banned RCs and various other substances like MDA and LSD is because when I purchased them in bulk back in the day I gave 80+% of my stash away to people for free. Anyone that was curious and wanted to try something for the first time I was always willing to hook up for free (and do it with them) if I liked their demeanor. But my cash flow is low now and my access to people that kept tubs of MD(M)A stored in tupperware containers and crystal LSD stored in little brown glass jars is no longer a part of my life. So is my ability to order anything I want through email. I lost contact with everyone (mostly because they died).

I do still dream of someday starting my own lab though. But it's becoming pretty impossible to do that. It isn't the Hive days anymore. If I'd known we were living through a golden age in the late 90s-2010s I would have been smarter about how I spent my money and prepared for the shitty situation we face in the 2020s better. I did prepare a bit but I prioritized being able to feed my family and myself. Which is why I hoarded things like seed stock and .22lr ammo instead of buying expensive glassware and taking the risk that having it shipped to me would get me on the wrong radar.

I was lucky enough to be born on a farm and someday it will hopefully be all mine. Whenever that happens maybe I'll start hosting festivals and go through with my evil plan to build a large underground work area.
 
I know this is off topic but I wanted to add: I met "the family" and hung around them for awhile. They liked me but I didn't like most of them. I tried not to be rude but they did a lot of things I didn't agree with. The guy I knew that was handling crystal LSD and laying blotter who was my main hook up for both that and MDA/MDMA/K/DMT/pretty much everything else was a very odd dude. He's do stuff like dose people with liquid without telling them. Not just a couple of drops I'm talking about very high doses. I saw him do that most than once. He's do stuff like pour a bunch out on his hand and shake your hand. He said he did this to people he liked but it was obvious he was doing it just to test if they were possible snitch and/or "not true family". He'd do other stuff like give people high doses of DMT (100+mg hits out of a dab rig) the when they were out of it he'd record them with a cell phone. Usually, he was open about it.

He never did any of that shit with me because I made it very clear we were going to have problems if he did. He said he liked me and I was cool. Showed me blotter art and was super into my profession but didn't do it himself. Wanted me to tutor his friends and stuff like that. Would call me up now and again wanting me to set him up with a secure laptop to use tor with. That sort of stuff.

He called me over one day and there were a lot of people there I didn't know that well but I think I'd met some of them before (I'm a bit face blind). They were all smiles and asked me what I was doing for the next week. Then he offered to let me taste crystal for the first time. I declined. Mainly because I didn't trust those people (I'd seen them do a lot of irresponsible stuff by this point) but also because I didn't want to vanish for a week unannounced (I have stuff I have to do daily like feed a bunch of animals).

Anyway, after that they were all really on edge around me. Like I was the law or something so I stopped coming around as often. I feel like they didn't trust me anymore. Guy would still do business with me when he was in town and I needed something like twice a year (I bought in bulk) but after that we didn't see each other as often. I'm pretty sure they wanted to give me the mythical "thumbprint" to induct me into their weird little family and start having me lay blotter for them or something (since I already knew how as it's very easy provided you have LSD to start with).

This is long and off-topic. Sorry I type to fast for my own good sometimes.

There were several stories I could tell about stuff I saw go down in that house. Suffice to say they were not practicing harm reduction and I didn't agree with the age of some of the people they were bringing into their "family". Something bad always happened when I did LSD with him at his house to. The last time we did it some asshole dropped a 3 year old child off on the street in the neighborhood. We were all trippy pretty hard when some lady that found the child came over and asked us if we knew where her mother was (we were on the porch at 7am). We didn't know and the child didn't talk at all. I think she might have been slow.

So the law got called then we had to deal with them. We spend hours trying to locate the mother but it was impossible because we didn't even know the child's name. They never found her and the child went into foster care I think. The guy that lived there had a girlfriend/wife (hard to tell with them) who got pissed off that I left in the middle of all that after staying awhile. I had somewhere to be and I didn't want to continue speaking to the police. There was nothing more I could do plus I had felony amounts of drugs in my trunk a long with glassware. Since I'd just bought in bulk and that's why I spent the night to do LSD with him while his wife was away. He really really wanted me to stay that night and hang out with my best friend for the first time.

Anyway, after that happened his girlfriend/wife got all pissed off at me and would sometimes turn me away whenever he called me over. Guy had a really bad habit of calling me over while messed up on benzos then I guess they'd have a fight about that and/or me so she'd be a real bitch when I knocked on the door. After that I gave up on trying to continue being friendly and we just kind of floated away from each other. He traveled a lot for his two jobs (all over the country) so he wasn't in town that often anyway.

I'd like to run into some of these good "families" I've heard about over the years. But so far I haven't met one I liked (I've met more than the one described above. It was just the one operating in the same area I grew up in and lived in at the time).

Basically, I really dislike dealing with buying drugs all together now due to all the shady shit that surrounds it. I can't stand hearing these people go on about peace, love, PLUR all that bullshit then turning right around and doing stuff they know is wrong to each other. Like selling certain RCs to young people at local 'festivals' then not giving a fuck about them once they have a bad trip/freak out/start causing a scene. I saw so many people that "family" messed up like that.

You'd show up to the field where the party was happening and there would already be multiple people sitting by the woods that were freaking out and had no idea where the fuck they were. That "family" was all about making money and didn't give a fuck about anyone outside of their inner circle. They were who controlled the MDMA/MDA/LSD/related substances in this area. Everyone bought in bulk from them. I've seen large black garbage bags filled to the brim with pressed tablets more than a few times. Along with large containers filled with whatever you can think of. Any new RC that was making waves they had in bulk to. Which is why I didn't have to rely on getting it in myself. I let him take the risk and was happy to pay the little tax he charged. Of course I got a better deal because I taught him proper OPSEC.

Anyway, it's been almost a decade now since I stopped hanging around that scene. I can't say I miss it. It really changed a lot from the time I was a teenager up into my 30s. Perhaps it was always that way and I was just naive about it because I wasn't as close to the local suppliers when I was really young.

I think the main issue with MDMA/XTC is the culture around it now really sucks compared to how it was when I first stumbled into it after searching for several years in my youth. It isn't the drugs that have changed it's the attitudes of the people. I can't stand trying to roll around new people and them having their nose buried in their cell phones or recording everything and everyone happening at those get togthers. If I ever throw parties again (I used to throw a lot of big ones) I'm making a hard rule that you have to leave your cell phone at the door. You check it in and you get it back when you leave. While you're on the property you get zero access to it. We're got too much "tune in" and not enough "drop out" with the current batch of party goers (at least in my area). They're more obsessed with chasing social interaction digitally than they are with the people standing right in front of them. Makes me sad. It was hard enough to make connections with people before everyone had a cell phone in their pocket.
 
I see the logic of why people added it to some presses (along with the obvious: cheap easy to get stimulant that's OTC).
Indeed. These days theres all sorts of cheap cathinones & co which sully the waters.

In an ideal world I'd have a lab full of glassware and everything I need to do the magic to make others happy.
We have innumerable enzymes and dietary precursors of all sorts. The key is to empower responsible people and you can't vet everyone who might read a post on the internet.

...my access to people that kept tubs of MD(M)A stored in tupperware containers and crystal LSD stored in little brown glass jars is no longer a part of my life.
Besides the biosynthesis approach mentioned above I'd consider there to be botanical equivalents to MD(M)A & LSD. Combining several botanicals for MD(M)A equivalence and HBWR/MG seeds for an LSD equivalent. The biosynthesis (via enzymes) of DMT is also feasible and accessible for the public, no labware or plant extraction necessary.
 
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Besides the biosynthesis approach mentioned above I'd consider there to be botanical equivalents to MD(M)A & LSD. Combining several botanicals for MD(M)A equivalence and HBWR/MG seeds for an LSD equivalent. The biosynthesis (via enzymes) of DMT is also feasible and accessible for the public, no labware or plant extraction necessary.
Yeah DMT is easy. I'm not sure if it violates the rules here to talk about that but suffice to say I've done it myself and we used to do pulls. White stuff was great, yellow stuff was alright to. Everyone saw the same woman on the batches we dabbled with together. But I'm not a big fan of DMT anymore if I'm being honest. Low doses are alright but the people on the other side gave me the warning and I heeded it. After trying DPT I decided I liked it much better because you're lucid and in this reality for the duration. It changed my life and I haven't sought it out again. I feel like I learned all I needed to know that first time.

Plus it's hell on the nose and I refuse to get needled involved for the time being. The not messing with needles thing is why I'm still alive because I know I would have killed myself with the morphine I had access to if I crossed that line. I know IM isn't as bad but IM worries me even if I do everything clean because I'm terrified of needles as is and I worry about causing an infection.

I had a friend that beat the needle after spending years on it with my help. He was clean for a few years (off the needle anyway) but he turned to alcohol. Ruined his liver and was dead before he turned 30. I'm sure the years and years of hardcore abuse of various RCs didn't help his liver.

We have innumerable enzymes and dietary precursors of all sorts. The key is to empower responsible people and you can't vet everyone who might read a post on the internet.
Indeed. I am very very cautious when it comes to the internet. Since I know everything I put on it is logged somewhere and every packet is copied for inspection at various Government data centers (and their "big tech" fronts).

This is why I've only ever met a handful of people in person that I first met on the internet. It was always very awkward at first. Going to hackathons for technical stuff wasn't that bad but meeting someone from BL was sketchy as fuck. Took me awhile to get comfortable around that guy but we ended up becoming really good friends. Sadly, he was the one I mentioned above that died young. I've also went to one BLer's funeral. Never got to meet him myself when he was alive but his family seemed really nice. My friend that died knew him and stayed at his house from time to time.

I'm pretty sure I did meet at least a couple of people that frequent BL when I went to a show in a large city. They seemed chill. I'd like to meet them again but I don't know their real names or screen names.

I've personally become very isolated since about 6 years ago now. I rarely hang out with local friends anymore. Not because I don't want to. I'm just broke as fuck now with the economy in the shitter and my profession laying off everyone and importing new unskilled labor. I feel like a burden when I go hang out with someone and have nothing to offer in return. It sucks when everyone wants to go out to eat and you're too broke to buy a plate yourself. I just prefer to avoid the situation all together.

Social anxiety has been a big problem for me for a long time going back to my teenage years. Which is why I loved rolling so much and other substances. They allow me to be social without second guessing everything I do and say. It's the only time when I can really be myself around other people unless I've already known them for a long time. I'm always coming off as awkward and a bit sketchy the first time I meet someone. I have to hang around people 3-4 times before I truly can be myself (well as much as I can be around others). I'm trying to work on it but the isolation isn't helping. Sometimes I go a week without seeing my family that lives next door at the moment.

Right now, I have probably 200-300mg of MDMA left from the stash I bought in bulk over a decade ago. I took some 2 years ago and it was just as potent as it was the day I bought it. I've been trying to save it for a special day where I could spend the day with a good friend and preferably female company. But my best friend can't hike due to his health and I'm too shy just to offer it to random new people plus I don't meet net people anymore. The only time I go out in public now is to buy groceries. I still get looks from girls sometimes but it's becoming rarer now that I'm starting to show my age (hair is turning white/grey lately).

Anyway, all this is off topic and as I'm sure you can tell I ingested some gabapentin and xanax today. So I'm more talkative (typeative). I do that a lot. I'll get on here or elsewhere and get very social when I take drugs that take away my usual shy barrier. Then I'll go several days-weeks without checking in because I'm embarrassed that I might have posted something people wouldn't agree with or I over shared. Suffering multiple concussions made it so I can ramble on like someone on speed even when I'm fully sober. It's a real thing.

Maybe I should start writing books or something. I tried to start a fiction novel last year but I got busy with other things. Non-fiction is easier. I've written some stuff in the past that got shared all over the internet but I got in trouble for it because certain people in power didn't like the content. I've lost most of my social outlets on the web over the past 6-8 years as well. Lost contact with so many friends I made on it because I don't use social media and everything wants a cell phone number now (which I don't have). BL is one of the last places left where I can participate.

I know some people dislike long posts now so I apologize if they bother anyone. If they do feel free to ignore/block me that's what we put it in the forum software for after all. I've given up on running websites and doing webdev now since I consider the web a lost cause at this point. These days I basically sit at home kernel hacking for a couple of popular (and one obscure) OS, porting drivers, testing other people's diffs, porting/packing software and trying to help out where I can. Sadly, none of it pays and despite sending applications for over two years now I never get call backs despite my output and the fact that millions of systems all over the world work because I help out.

I'll quit rambling in this thread now. I didn't mean to take it off-topic. That's another bad habit of mine.

Man I really would enjoy some morphine about now...I could use a nice nod and a morphine dream. Its been 14 years now since I've had one. :(
 
Yeah DMT is easy. I'm not sure if it violates the rules here to talk about that but suffice to say I've done it myself and we used to do pulls.
I'm referring to biosynthesis meaning using regular enzymes. MAO and ALDH (aldehyde dehydrogenase) play a role here. The 'precursors' are common dietary things which contrasts something like methylamine or mdp2p.

I wasn't part of the hive when it was active but from what I've seen the discussion was primarily focused on standard lab synthesis. Not so much on biosynthesis. Shulgin did mention this briefly in TiHKAL under the DMT section but since then improved methods have been developed.

After trying DPT I decided I liked it much better because you're lucid and in this reality for the duration.
During discussion about endogenous DMT production we never discussed introducing other amines beyond dimethylamine (choline), piperidine (lysine) and pyrrolidine (arginine). The toxicity of propylamine, ethylamine and isopropylamine might be an issue though, I don't know.

Indeed. I am very very cautious when it comes to the internet. Since I know everything I put on it is logged somewhere
It's the person reading my post I'm more concerned about. Explaining - with appropriate disclaimer & precautions - how to DIY DMT using items from a supermarket (with a pharmacy section) is one thing, but someone unintentionally tripping for days is another. Even though I'll have explicitly highlighted how to stop the potentiation effect in the event of unexpected potency.

Social anxiety has been a big problem for me for a long time going back to my teenage years. Which is why I loved rolling so much and other substances. They allow me to be social without second guessing everything I do and say.
I can relate. Maybe the substances are temporarily mitigating something specific which plays a key role in anxiety? The main candidate here would be adrenaline which is involved in the "fight-or-flight response". The most popular items that people self-medicate with for this are alcohol, nicotine, cannabis and benzodiazepines...but all recreational drugs are implicated both directly & indirectly. Usually you'd find an overactive stress response (see HPA axis) as the key underlying root cause so the idea would be to address this directly. The implication would be reduced social anxiety or at least a position where you're better placed to overcome it within minutes. Anyway, I digress.

I know some people dislike long posts now so I apologize if they bother anyone.
If they've read that far they probably aren't bothered!

I've given up on running websites and doing webdev now since I consider the web a lost cause at this point.
I still remember the dial-up sound. Kids these days just don't know what it was like...

These days I basically sit at home kernel hacking for a couple of popular (and one obscure) OS, porting drivers, testing other people's diffs, porting/packing software and trying to help out where I can.
I have a copy of windows XP streamlined edition on CD somewhere. I didn't use linux much. My goto was always C with inline assembly where necessary.

Man I really would enjoy some morphine about now...I could use a nice nod and a morphine dream. Its been 14 years now since I've had one.
I put together an opioid combo which uses zero illicit substances, it's partly discussed on this thread. Think codeine without withdrawals, tolerance or other issues. A similar type of combo is possible for benzodiazepines.
 
I'm referring to biosynthesis meaning using regular enzymes. MAO and ALDH (aldehyde dehydrogenase) play a role here. The 'precursors' are common dietary things which contrasts something like methylamine or mdp2p.
As I see I'm sorry I misunderstood what you were getting at. I'm really in love with chemistry but my lack of access to a lab growing up (and now) has meant it was always just out of reach. If I could go back in time I would have focused more on learning that so I could get access to a proper lab instead of spending my time doing CS.

I thought computer science was going to change the world for the better and I devoted most of my time from age 14 into contributing to the field. But it was weaponized and turned against the population. All the big players we were fighting against ended up owning and controlling things like Linux. Now they've pretty much seized full control and I don't see regular people having access to things like a real PC in the near future. It's too dangerous to the powers that be. This is why the new batch of "coders" barely know anything about how a computer works. To them it's a black box.
I wasn't part of the hive when it was active but from what I've seen the discussion was primarily focused on standard lab synthesis. Not so much on biosynthesis. Shulgin did mention this briefly in TiHKAL under the DMT section but since then improved methods have been developed.

I caught the tail end of the hive and mostly lurked. A lot of stuff was over my head back then but I learned a lot. Discussion was mostly focused on basics and synths for common substances (two in particular). Some more exotic stuff got discussed but the community was mostly focused on buying supplies from the owner and discussing what they did with those supplies. I wish the rule here would change so we could talk about this more openly. I'm trying to be careful and not break the rule right now. I'm no expert but I know enough to get in trouble and have done some simply stuff in the past I learned from Hive and elsewhere.

I'm really sad children (and the general population) don't have access to the chemistry kits they used to sell in the 1950s. I wish I was born earlier so I could have lived through times when people allowed children to learn skills like that before high school and the high school courses were more advanced. Getting access to a simple lab is now pretty much impossible and the stuff to put in the glassware is even harder in a lot of cases. I hate that everything is so locked down now.

It's obvious this was done on purpose to dumb down the population because I see the same thing happening in all fields of study these days.

During discussion about endogenous DMT production we never discussed introducing other amines beyond dimethylamine (choline), piperidine (lysine) and pyrrolidine (arginine). The toxicity of propylamine, ethylamine and isopropylamine might be an issue though, I don't know.
My grandfather once made a comment about drug users shortly before he died: "Things are so crazy now they'll figure out how to get high off grass". He was disappointed when I told him people had already figured that out years ago.

Then there is the whole meditation things. I've never done it myself but I believe that people that really mastered the art were managing to control their bodies to the point where they could produce certain substances through thought (or lack of thought) alone. I feel like this is what induced them to see visions and achieve "nirvana". I'm pretty sure it's what the Buddha and few of his followers managed to do. Along with various "prophets" from other areas and times. The issue is when they attempt to teach others how to do it they end up making cults of personality. Which go on to form rituals and cultural groups around what they said. The words get twisted over the years and you end up with large portions of the population that don't practice what they really taught, worship them like Gods instead of trying to achieve that state themselves and in time this leads to wars and many other bad things.

I've personally been attempting to meditate more often and I've very rarely gotten something profound from it. But I'm not there yet. I have considered trying the hermit thing and doing the whole eating nothing but pine needles/nuts/etc and sitting under trees in the woods for weeks at a time. I've been fasting from time to time as well. But my social ties do not make this possible. I don't want to abandon my family. As long as they're alive I can't focus on this as much as I want to.

But I am a firm believer that the various substances like DMT, LSD, psilocybe, cactus and all the others we've made from them are simply short cuts for a state you can obtain on your own through will/thought/meditation. I think that's why people get dysphoria from taking the short cuts. They're not mentally prepared for it. Even I've gotten that often despite dabbling with so many things over the years. A lot of people never attempt taking the short cuts while alone. Which I feel is required to really go deep on them and make full use of the short cut they provide.

It's the person reading my post I'm more concerned about. Explaining - with appropriate disclaimer & precautions - how to DIY DMT using items from a supermarket (with a pharmacy section) is one thing, but someone unintentionally tripping for days is another. Even though I'll have explicitly highlighted how to stop the potentiation effect in the event of unexpected potency.

I know what you mean. I try to be truthful and open with information. I feel information should be free and not locked away behind some digital wall or exclusive library. But indeed there is a lot of information that could be very harmful if freely talked about around people that aren't prepared for it or wouldn't respect and heed warnings. Whenever I do talk about such things I try to warn people but they rarely heed those warnings IME.

I was very hopeful that free access to information with the internet would lead us into a new renaissance. But I fear we're entering another dark age.

I can relate. Maybe the substances are temporarily mitigating something specific which plays a key role in anxiety? The main candidate here would be adrenaline which is involved in the "fight-or-flight response". The most popular items that people self-medicate with for this are alcohol, nicotine, cannabis and benzodiazepines...but all recreational drugs are implicated both directly & indirectly. Usually you'd find an overactive stress response (see HPA axis) as the key underlying root cause so the idea would be to address this directly. The implication would be reduced social anxiety or at least a
position where you're better placed to overcome it within minutes. Anyway, I digress.

I self medicate with nicotine for sure. Cannabis not so much anymore because it puts me into a bad headspace. But I still smoke from time to time. As I said above I've been trying to obtain those states without the social anxiety while sober. The problem with most of these drugs is you become addicted and dependent on them easily. Benzos are amazing if you respect them and use them as needed for situations you normally couldn't handle. But it easily turns into an everyday thing and turns you into a zombie that can't remember yesterday. For me opioids were probably the best substance for pushing through that shyness. But we all know where a daily opioid habit ends up and it's horrible once you're stuck on them.

I still remember the dial-up sound. Kids these days just don't know what it was like...

Don't get me started on dial-up. I worked for almost 15 years on a shitty 14kbps-28kbps (on a good day) connection. When it rained our old phone line would sometimes get so much static on it that you couldn't talk over it and the modem couldn't connect. I got broadband at home over a decade after 99% of people and I had to pay a lot of money for it. Then the cable company jacked up the price and the service was down all of the time. Thankfully, now I have a fiber line which is something I never thought I'd have access to. The Government ran it out here in the boonies for free. I'm trying to enjoy it as much as I can before it gets used for the real purpose they ran it everywhere (spying on the population with flock cameras and such).

I feel so spoiled now. Something that used to take me days to download now takes seconds. Doing my work over dial up all those years was very frustrating and horrible. Sometimes it'd take me hours just to sync with the CVS for projects I worked on with other people.

I have a copy of windows XP streamlined edition on CD somewhere. I didn't use linux much. My goto was always C with inline assembly where necessary.

I do not use Linux anymore aside from one computer I still have running it for gaming. I used to strip down XP myself. These days my only Windows machine is running a highly modified Windows 7. It's in an arcade cabinet I built. Linux is so bad now that you'd have to fork the kernel itself to save it along with re-writing/patching most of lower userspace. I would attempt it if I had a team behind me but there is no way one person could tackle that. We now have thousands of distros that are all the same. Spyware bundled right into userspace.

I mostly work on two of the BSDs these days. One of which I do not care for that much anymore before it's importing a lot of stuff from Linux. The other is a great project but you aren't going to be playing games or running wine on it. But as far as my day-to-day work (mostly living in emacs) it's perfect. A sane design in userspace, the kernel is small and I can understand and contribute to it and it's led by a person that doesn't put up with bullshit. It's my main OS on most of my servers and workstations now.

I've also been getting the Plan 9 forks lately. I find it better than modern UNIX because they tried to fix most of the problems in UNIX. Piping data to and from applications works much better. But it's really picky about hardware and it's probably impossible to port a modern web browser to it. The community around it is elitist as well so it's hard to break into it for newbies.

I am very much a fan of C compared to the other stuff in common use now. C++ is a train wreck and I despise Rust for many reason I won't go into now because it'd be another novel. My ideal OS would be a microkernel where you could pipe data between applications like Plan 9/UNIX but do it with more than just text.

The UI and userspace applications would be written in something like lisp, lua or another easy scripting language so anyone could hack on it and you could change anything in userspace without rebooting the system. You'd be able to hook in anywhere you wanted. Basically, something like emacs but for the entire OS userspace/GUI itself. As much as I love emacs it's a massive security exploit waiting to happen and lately I've been trying to move away from it and attempting to go back to using multiple applications for different stuff. But I find myself coming back to emacs because it does a lot of things better (I use it to read books, pdf files and many other things). I love being able to write a bit of lisp and create something in a few lines of code. I like being able to drive everything with keyboard commands. It has stuck around this long for good reason.

It's shameful we have this really powerful computers at home now but they're running slower than systems I had in 1999 because modern developers got taught so many bad habits and lies.

Do you like writing asm for non-x86? I was really into hacking on m68k stuff with asm for years. Mostly Sega Genesis games and things like that. I hate that modern developers do not consider portability at all. They also think it's acceptable to eat 16+GB of RAM at compile time and pull dependencies from all over the internet that can't be audited properly. There is so much code with stuff like browsers and the linux kernel that it's impossible to understand the entire system now. We could do so much better.

I've been playing with TRON OS a lot lately. BTRON speficially. They released the source code but most of the documentation isn't in English. It's a really amazing OS and we'd all be probably running it today if Microsoft and the US Government didn't crush it in the 1980s. They placed sanctions on Japan for attempting to convert to it and get away from DOS/Windows in the late 1980s. The TRON OS is amazing because it was built from the ground up to allow all TRON OS devices communiate with each other. Japan was planning to run everything in the country using it (desktops, phones, tvs, even the train network). But the American tech companies like IBM and Microsoft got it shut down and plunged Japan's economy to stop it. Really interesting OS and story you should check it out if you don't already know about it. :)

I put together an opioid combo which uses zero illicit substances, it's partly discussed on this thread. Think codeine without withdrawals, tolerance or other issues. A similar type of combo is possible for benzodiazepines.
I'll check out the thread thanks. If I had a proper lab I'd be playing with opioids all of the time for sure. I've thought up some new ones myself (which probably wouldn't be viable). If I had access to pure forms of certain opioids I would really like to combine them in ratios to test how addicts would respond to them. A mix that provided a good rush but had long legs.

I'm really interested in opium in general. It's an amazing plant and I feel like it was put here for us to use sparingly when in horrible pain. I have considered growing some in my garden because I love the flowers but I was afraid it would draw attention to me. I have yet to smoke proper opium with the old method. I am really interested in trying it to see how it compares to tea. One of the most amazing things about opium is when you consume it whole it's self limiting due to the theabaine.

We're way off topic and it might be bothering other people. Would you like to continue this discussion via PM or perhaps in another thread? Let me know. Good talking to you.
 
I'm kind of a freak when it comes to loving high doses of psychedelics, 90mg of intranasal DOM was my highest dose so far, it was during an MDMA bender.

This would be maybe the most fascinating mix of common stimulants I can think of outside of AMPAkines (noopept, racetams, etc.) and reuptake inhibitors.

I always coadminister caffeine with any monoamine releaser to keep the headaches away, but I'm also savagely addicted to caffeine.

I've only run into 5-MAPB once but it's my favorite empathogen, it's what MDMA should be in therapeutic contexts imo.
Of course while researching this combo I come across your post @Esperighanto

I'm gearing up to do a bit of a borax combo. I have no amphetamines on hand and didnt think that I'd be tripping tonight when I took my prescribed methylphenidate. Here is the combo that I'm thinking, 25ish mg Methylphenidate (I also have 4f-MPH or IPPH available), + 40-60mg of 5-MAPB + Maybe 20-30mg Allylescaline as I am feeling the phenethylamines today. Maybe add 50-100mg mescaline? Or maybe 10-20mg 2CB, 250mg - 500mg Carisoprodol, maybe 15mg 7-OH or so and whatever 3-me-pcp that I can find laying around my room. Maybe add 10-20mg 3cp later on in the night and/or LSD or ALD-52. Any thoughts? My main worry I suppose is the 3cp with the methylphenidate and 5-mapb. OH! Also preloading with around 500mg phenibut which is all that I have left and I gotta take my prescribed gabapentin (Will take 600-1200mg). Any thoughts on this combo from you or anyone else? Will also be taking my spironolactone
 
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Fill your boots.

Why go to such lengths if it's only for personal use? If it's not, what are you representing these theoretical pills AS.
I mean, if there is going to be any message about personal production of pressed tablets on BL, I can only, exclusively advise a single-tablet TDP press, as it cannot be meaningfully used at scale for criminal production of jack shit. You'd have an easier time running a criminal-level pressing op with a pollen puck, but I have spent a good amount of time learning to press on a single and it's so exceptionally difficult, and easy to do horribly wrong, I really advise people stick to volumetric liquid dosing if they can.
 
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