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Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v 12

Trueart2 said:
1. Don’t you think cleaning your records will only make you receiving the 4,000 per month suspicious?

2. If you don’t have any psychological issue wouldn’t it be harder to get 4,000 dollars per month?

3. If you’re under observation for 3 months and no psychiatric evidence appeared under what guidelines do you become applicable for unable to work? Did they believe your symptoms that are infinitely difficult to prove?

It sounds like you’re being played dog. You’ve taken away all the ammunition you needed to get the money by acting just fine.
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They aknowledge that all my sympthoms appeared once i got injected, and there is no a mental illness inside the DSM wich is compatibile with my sympthoms that i keep saying i never had before being injected.

Because of the sympthoms i have i can’t work, and since every psychological test resulted “clean” They just can’t find any other reason for my sympthoms beside what i keep claiming: the injections did this to me.

Since this scenario falls under inability to work due to health circumstances, i will get the money without need to work until i’am able to work again aka recovered
 
silenthill said:
recently i aced a big exam in college and am able to keep up with classes and society as a whole again. i feel less paranoid and more open, like i can finally stop being overwhelmed by fear.
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What degree are you pursuing, may I ask? I want to become EMT certified (and eventually a Paramedic) but it'll be a few years.
 
i wake up at 5AM - 6AM because of tinnitus, i experience severe anxiety and panic attacks very strong after a while that i’am awake.. this is pure torture, and i’am awake since 2 hours, severe DR and tinnitus will be with me the whole day plus all the other sympthoms..
 
abefourth said:
What degree are you pursuing, may I ask? I want to become EMT certified (and eventually a Paramedic) but it'll be a few years.
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How old are you? You can become EMT certified in a semesters worth of community college classes.
 
had my first interview in literally 3 years. I kinda lied on my resume but it seems like a cool job its working for an AI company bringing ai to factories and id be the one collecting data and analysing the data so 20 hours on the factory and 20 hours doing data analysing using coding language like python. Pray for me i get this job but im low key nervous . I have my 2nd interview soon.
 
moerez said:
I know what are you trying to say to have a hope and win the battle but haven’t we already lost the battle? Look at us , desperately looking for something we were before and we all know getting that back is almost impossible, you can’t have that spark that you used to have or being full of life like before, I lost my soulmate , sexual function which is the worst,dpdr, and so many suffering symptoms that I can’t deal with them anymore, I already lost the battle to psychiatrists when I can’t sleep enough or being relax or having little emotion, it’s just impossible to fight man, I hope y’all win the fight but idk maybe I’m pessimistic but I can’t never see that I will become the person I used to be and in this case I rather to have a peaceful death than fighting forever to just being alive without emotion or peace or severe ed, i know if i die everyone gonna forget and that would be it, but at least i have no more pain
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all the things you say are assumptions, you are only feeling this way right now. When you write such unfounded things, it depresses other people who come to these forums as well. Your bodily functions will slowly start showing signs of recovery within the next 3 months. What you are going through right now is not permanent.
 
Abilify2mg said:
had my first interview in literally 3 years. I kinda lied on my resume but it seems like a cool job its working for an AI company bringing ai to factories and id be the one collecting data and analysing the data so 20 hours on the factory and 20 hours doing data analysing using coding language like python. Pray for me i get this job but im low key nervous . I have my 2nd interview soon.
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Good if you don’t falsify or at least embellish the truth on your resume you’ll have a substantially harder time finding a job.
 
Trueart2 said:
Yeah man go ahead and get that done
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I'm going through a period of SI and depression, the unemployment's not helping, and I'm pretty desperate for some kind of forward progress in life. I have a volunteer position at a food pantry but I need more to occupy my days. I love driving, and ever since I've been really young I've always admired first responders (ambulance workers especially). I owe them a hell of a lot and I hope maybe I'll be able to repay them somehow. I wish my NP would prescribe me an antidepressant but I don't think that's going to happen. So progress in life is what'll keep me from leaving.

Edit: When I was in elementary school my father had some major episodes of hypoglycemia ("reactions"). When it got bad enough that emergency services had to be called it felt like my world was ending. Something about having kind, capable, proficient people coming to help has always stuck in my mind.
 
Trueart2 said:
Good if you don’t falsify or at least embellish the truth on your resume you’ll have a substantially harder time finding a job.
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yup in 400 applications with my job gap i recieved 0 interviews after I added 2 years to my last 2 jobs and made my gap from 3 years to 1 year i got an interview in my first 5 applications and a second round tmrw morning LOL
 
anonymoususer777 said:
all the things you say are assumptions, you are only feeling this way right now. When you write such unfounded things, it depresses other people who come to these forums as well. Your bodily functions will slowly start showing signs of recovery within the next 3 months. What you are going through right now is not permanent.
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I had my boner and sexual function 2 months ago and I lost it now, I feel no headache or pain, I see hallucinations when I try to take a nap( not at night which is weird shit) I enjoy literally nothing and I lost euphoria to the life the way I used to see everything is vibrant and full of life will not comeback , that’s what I’m sure about that, you are already 9 months do you feel close to recovery? Or mona21? Or Matthew? Nobody really heal in 9 months, idk if I have to suffer 3 more months or just say fuck it and end it right now
 
Abilify2mg said:
yup in 400 applications with my job gap i recieved 0 interviews after I added 2 years to my last 2 jobs and made my gap from 3 years to 1 year i got an interview in my first 5 applications and a second round tmrw morning LOL
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Let us know how it goes, do well man. Obvious reminder: mention nothing about your medical history.
 
moerez said:
I had my boner and sexual function 2 months ago and I lost it now, I feel no headache or pain, I see hallucinations when I try to take a nap( not at night which is weird shit) I enjoy literally nothing and I lost euphoria to the life the way I used to see everything is vibrant and full of life will not comeback , that’s what I’m sure about that, you are already 9 months do you feel close to recovery? Or mona21? Or Matthew? Nobody really heal in 9 months, idk if I have to suffer 3 more months or just say fuck it and end it right now
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Recovery from invega isnt linear, symptoms fluctuate a lot and there are waves and windows.
I could not feel euphoria until month 7. I feel better than before, i am sure you will be feeling better than you do right now in a few months too. Some people improve at a slower rate but they improve nonetheless.
 
Someone has officially confirmed that @lukeflowz died on February 26th , RIP Luke. I wish things could have been different, I wish there was really hope for us to have a life after this damage. And it wasnt so miserable for us to pass every day. The wait seems never ending. We have lost three members since the time I have joined this forum , brokenself, rawbanana and now lukeflowz…. these are the ones that I know of idk if there are more. At this point , 11 months off idk if waiting is even worth it anymore but as I promised I would wait till 18 months I will. Luke I wish I could convince you to wait till October that you initially wanted to wait till … I hope you are at a better , peaceful place where no one can harm you like this. Because we have already went through hell here , and now I hope you get to heaven and get all the love and relief you deserve.
 
In the last 6 months we had:

3 suicides
0 Recovery

Brokenself, Rawbanana, Lukewolfz.

The recovery rate in the last 6 months is 0% and the suicide rate is 100%. Meanwhile I’am approaching 20 months without recovery..
 
Abilify2mg said:
sorry but 3 dumbasses who didnt wanna wait 3-5 years for when the brain really change instead opted out for a permanent choice to a temporary problem
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You are disrespecting 3 people Who’s sufference were so deep and high that they cannot bare with it anymore and killed themselves after seeing no improvements for months or even a year, and you are calling them “dumbasses”.

They are the victims of the “dumbassess” Who ruled the injections over them and destroyed them to a point where they had no other choice due to the extreme daily sufference.

But you dont respect people when they are alive as you shown multiple times, so i’am not surprised that you disrespect them after they die.
 
RisperdalConsta50mg said:
You are disrespecting 3 people Who’s sufference were so deep and high that they cannot bare with it anymore and killed themselves after seeing no improvements for months or even a year, and you are calling them “dumbasses”.

They are the victims of the “dumbassess” Who ruled the injections over them and destroyed them to a point where they had no other choice due to the extreme daily sufference.

But you dont respect people when they are alive as you shown multiple times, so i’am not surprised that you disrespect them after they die.
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nigga fk u i was just angry another person died for no reason that i called them dumbasses i didnt mean it but doesnt matter. If i can survive 25 months they surely coulda toughened it out and survived longer but they all gave up and their families are ruined for 0
 
RisperdalConsta50mg said:
In the last 6 months we had:

3 suicides
0 Recovery

Brokenself, Rawbanana, Lukewolfz.

The recovery rate in the last 6 months is 0% and the suicide rate is 100%. Meanwhile I’am approaching 20 months without recovery..
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You post far too often to say nobody has recovered. People post their recovery
 
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