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Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v 12

Matthew01 said:
Thank you, wait,sorry please can you take another picture with your hand in the image? And also write in a piece of paper "kumo said I said I should show this image to him to show his doctor",sorry to disturb you,I just really need to prove to my doctor so he won't say ootherwisel like the last one i went to.
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Tomorrow in the morning i will share the pics of myself holding the bubropion with this piece of paper over him: https://files.catbox.moe/bz7czt.jpeg

It’s ok like this?
 
Ramadan is coming , I am so bedridden idk how I will fast and pray . I was taken to the psychward last year during Ramadan and thinking of Ramadan makes me think how I was only depending on Allah almighty, praying and fasting in the ward, I was still normal. I cant even think of doing things and praying spiritually like before.
@iraistired @RisperdalConsta50mg @InvegaInferno @therendezvous
Are you people going to fast and pray this Ramadan?
 
mona21 said:
Ramadan is coming , I am so bedridden idk how I will fast and pray . I was taken to the psychward last year during Ramadan and thinking of Ramadan makes me think how I was only depending on Allah almighty, praying and fasting in the ward, I was still normal. I cant even think of doing things and praying spiritually like before.
@iraistired @RisperdalConsta50mg @InvegaInferno @therendezvous
Are you people going to fast and pray this Ramadan?
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I lost my faith (i was Christian once) long time ago, i have no God now, May muslim Will have a paceful ramadan.
 
mona21 said:
Ramadan is coming , I am so bedridden idk how I will fast and pray . I was taken to the psychward last year during Ramadan and thinking of Ramadan makes me think how I was only depending on Allah almighty, praying and fasting in the ward, I was still normal. I cant even think of doing things and praying spiritually like before.
@iraistired @RisperdalConsta50mg @InvegaInferno @therendezvous
Are you people going to fast and pray this Ramadan?
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Try to the best of your abilities, you can even pray on the bed. I also use to struggle after the injections with prayers, and I've asked the sheikhs they said it's ok since we are sick. As for fasting you can give fidya donation for the days you're unable to fast or make up for them later when you are better.
May this holy month bring us & all those suffering and sick healing, strength and patience to overcome this predicament, in sha Allah.
 
RisperdalConsta50mg said:
Tomorrow in the morning i will share the pics of myself holding the bubropion with this piece of paper over him: https://files.catbox.moe/bz7czt.jpeg

It’s ok like this?
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Wait sorry I made a mistake. Write this instead "this is one of the drugs meant to treat the same issue I have that kumo is also going through" forgot what I wanted to say earlier, this drug makes it very hard to think. Also show your hand,the drug and paper in the same image,also put the prescription paper in the same image, that is very important becauseit serves as proof. I want to use them as proof so the doctor wouldn't try to dismiss it. Also don't write the site or your name, the doctor might dismiss it because it's a forum
 
Matthew01 said:
Wait sorry I made a mistake. Write this instead "this is one of the drugs meant to treat the same issue I have that kumo is also going through" forgot what I wanted to say earlier, this drug makes it very hard to think. Also show your hand,the drug and paper in the same image,also put the prescription paper in the same image, that is very important becauseit serves as proof. I want to use them as proof so the doctor wouldn't try to dismiss it. Also don't write the site or your name, the doctor might dismiss it because it's a forum
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What in the fucking multiverse
 
Matthew01 said:
Wait sorry I made a mistake. Write this instead "this is one of the drugs meant to treat the same issue I have that kumo is also going through" forgot what I wanted to say earlier, this drug makes it very hard to think. Also show your hand,the drug and paper in the same image,also put the prescription paper in the same image, that is very important becauseit serves as proof. I want to use them as proof so the doctor wouldn't try to dismiss it. Also don't write the site or your name, the doctor might dismiss it because it's a forum
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It’s ok?
 
InvegaInferno said:
Since the injection my sleeping schedule has been really messy.
Anyone else, or did you get it fixed?y
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When I first began taking the injections I had nightmares and insomnia for about a month and a half. Wouldn’t sleep more than 4 hours, it resolved after a while and I’ve actually began comfortable being able to sleep 10 hours. Taking pills may of made it easier to fall asleep but the duration only lasted 4 hours and in the long run your body becomes dependent on the medicine and as time progresses the medicine becomes left and less effective. I wouldn’t recommend any medicine and if possible would opt for physical activity to tire yourself out.
 
Trueart2 said:
When I first began taking the injections I had nightmares and insomnia for about a month and a half. Wouldn’t sleep more than 4 hours, it resolved after a while and I’ve actually began comfortable being able to sleep 10 hours. Taking pills may of made it easier to fall asleep but the duration only lasted 4 hours and in the long run your body becomes dependent on the medicine and as time progresses the medicine becomes left and less effective. I wouldn’t recommend any medicine and if possible would opt for physical activity to tire yourself out.
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Do you think microdosing with weed is beneficial or harmful for recovery?
 
mona21 said:
Ramadan is coming , I am so bedridden idk how I will fast and pray . I was taken to the psychward last year during Ramadan and thinking of Ramadan makes me think how I was only depending on Allah almighty, praying and fasting in the ward, I was still normal. I cant even think of doing things and praying spiritually like before.
@iraistired @RisperdalConsta50mg @InvegaInferno @therendezvous
Are you people going to fast and pray this Ramadan?
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Praying is one of the things that became very hard for me but i still try to pray at the mosque almost everyday, i was at the taraweeh tonight.

Yes i do intend to pray and fast the whole month, also i intend to stay on a dates diet, breaking fast with a couple of dates, and a couple of dates for suhoor at least for a week. I want to starve my body to see if this will help in any way.

The nightmares and insomnia are a total different story…

Most of you have psychological brain damage from 2 injections, me with 12-13 injections in a short amount of time(all 150mg), i got many physical symptoms, developed diabetes 2nd type, i had kidney failure and tachycardia, skin problems, severe headaches and no healing symptoms. Clogged nose, skin issues, hair and beard falling out and so on.

I have tried wet cupping 6 times, even went bald to get hijama on my head and discovered that i got strange new formations on my head. Took natural sulfur baths, sauna sessions. Before the poison in around 5 minutes i would be dribbling in sweat, now it takes around 15 min to start sweating (important note, my arm where i recieved the injections stays DRY after spending 15 min in the sauna).

I have bunch of different strong medicines that i tried throughout time to at-least get a 1 night of proper sleep and it just didnt help in anyway. They do not act on my body like they do to other. I took 3 diozepams and it did absolutely nothing to me, got curious of its quality and told my cousin to try it, he went on a sleeping streak for 3 days off 1 pill..

No matter how hard they damaged us and our brains, please just do your best to stick with your Rabb, dont lose the hope in Him. Remember how easy it was for us before the injections to think about death and not being afraid of it, as some use to say, “we desire martydom more than you desire this life”.

I dont expect to live for long knowing and feeling my health condition, just trying to prepare as hard as i can for the life i will spend in the grave until the Day we get resurrected. I ask him in sujood to gift me a martyr state ending, not to disgrace me in both worlds, to save me from the grave punishment the hellfire and the Day of judgment. I keep asking Him not to make me a coward when death comes, and to take me when He is pleased with me. I also ask Him not to hate me and forget about me.

Damn, what a poet and a warrior i use to be, and look where i am now. Lost all the respect, dignity is fading away into the sunset.

I will mention you guys in my dua.
 
anonymoususer777 said:
Do you think microdosing with weed is beneficial or harmful for recovery?
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I’ve wrote many times that weed pushes Invega out the blood brain barrier and is the best indicator I’m aware of the gauge your recovery. People who smoke and are able to get high in the early stages( weeks after you get injected) are substantially more likely to recover than people who smoke and are not able to get high.

The only problem with smoking is potential psychosis. There’s a portion of this community that ended up in psychosis due to Marijuana. I firmly do not recommend anyone who’s been in psychosis due to marijuana(weed) to attempt and smoke weed again for an indicator of progress or potentiality to recover. It’s far too risky or likely you’ll end up in in the psychiatric ward or injected because of it again.
 
Why many people have good sleep and feel less anhedonia with this injection but i have severe symptoms of everything? God i hate what i become after this i dont know how some people can wait so long , i try to exercise to see if it makes any difference or im still same shit , i envy every person who is around me for having normal life
 
6 months today and am petrified that I’ve experienced no changes. I hope this month, I can feel a little different.
 
Trueart2 said:
I’ve wrote many times that weed pushes Invega out the blood brain barrier and is the best indicator I’m aware of the gauge your recovery. People who smoke and are able to get high in the early stages( weeks after you get injected) are substantially more likely to recover than people who smoke and are not able to get high.

The only problem with smoking is potential psychosis. There’s a portion of this community that ended up in psychosis due to Marijuana. I firmly do not recommend anyone who’s been in psychosis due to marijuana(weed) to attempt and smoke weed again for an indicator of progress or potentiality to recover. It’s far too risky or likely you’ll end up in in the psychiatric ward or injected because of it again.
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People who never had psychosis are okay to use minute amounts of weed during recovery? Besides psychosis, does weed blunt your emotions further or any other danger?
 
anonymoususer777 said:
People who never had psychosis are okay to use minute amounts of weed during recovery? Besides psychosis, does weed blunt your emotions further or any other danger?
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It should’ve done, and it’s beyond unlikely anything will occur to you past immediate high for a couple hours. Weed didn’t blunt my emotions. I took a large edible once and almost fell back into psychosis, but that was due to a 500 mg edible I took.
 
Trueart2 said:
It should’ve done, and it’s beyond unlikely anything will occur to you past immediate high for a couple hours. Weed didn’t blunt my emotions. I took a large edible once and almost fell back into psychosis, but that was due to a 500 mg edible I took.
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is it normal for weed to make you a little paranoid and a weird heavy feeling in your face?
 
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