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Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v 12

lukeflowz said:
Peace out everyone and thanks to everyone that has tried to help me. I can’t bear it anymore and I’m opting out. Remember if you have had just Invega you will recover, but if you’re like me who has been taking olanzapine for a year on top of Invega, recovery chances decrease. I can’t recover my life is over. Unsure if there is an afterlife, but if there is I’ll find out tonight. Catch you later. My last message to people is hold on you will recover if you had just Invega.

Much love- Luke.
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look at how your pet lays between your legs. it means it's comfortable. it loves you. in other words, there are things in this world that want you here. there are people in this forum that want you here. i have fully recovered and came back to who i was but better. i'm running tons of marathons and doing great in college. it wasn't always like that. for almost 7-8 months i wanted to die but held on. held on for my cats and for the reason that i had to be strong. you have to be strong too. i know how horrible recovery is, i tried killing myself a few times and ended up in the psych ward three more times in less than two months. please be strong for your lovely pet and your family. at least give it another few months.
 
silenthill said:
look at how your pet lays between your legs. it means it's comfortable. it loves you. in other words, there are things in this world that want you here. there are people in this forum that want you here. i have fully recovered and came back to who i was but better. i'm running tons of marathons and doing great in college. it wasn't always like that. for almost 7-8 months i wanted to die but held on. held on for my cats and for the reason that i had to be strong. you have to be strong too. i know how horrible recovery is, i tried killing myself a few times and ended up in the psych ward three more times in less than two months. please be strong for your lovely pet and your family. at least give it another few months.
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Until i got better from the invega and abilify i was basically living for my cat. She was the one reason i didnt commit suicide i just couldnt do that to her. Not to mention what would have also done to my family

Sadly my cat passed away 3 years ago now but shes a large part of the reason im still alive
 
paranoid android said:
Until i got better from the invega and abilify i was basically living for my cat. She was the one reason i didnt commit suicide i just couldnt do that to her. Not to mention what would have also done to my family

Sadly my cat passed away 3 years ago now but shes a large part of the reason im still alive
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pets are a huge factor in my recovery. had it not been for my two very young cats i probably wouldn't be here today. when i was bedridden from invega they laid down next to me and slept with me all day.
 
silenthill said:
pets are a huge factor in my recovery. had it not been for my two very young cats i probably wouldn't be here today. when i was bedridden from invega they laid down next to me and slept with me all day.
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Ya my cat literally kept me alive until i was strong enough to live on my own basically.
 
At this point i am convinced that the psychiatric system is a tool of abuse for some of the most envious, sadistic, and prejudiced people in society. Most people i have encountered on this forum were victims of deliberate traps.
 
anonymoususer777 said:
At this point i am convinced that the psychiatric system is a tool of abuse for some of the most envious, sadistic, and prejudiced people in society. Most people i have encountered on this forum were victims of a d
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The shrink i had in the psych ward was one evil bitch. She refused to even give me antipsychotics despite the fact i was suffering from psychosis and cotards syndrome for 3 months. Finally after i go in another fight my brother got me a new shrink who actually usually didt work on the ward and actually knew what he was doing. I was first put on invega which although it was terrible was far better then cotards and psychosis. After 3 mnths i ws switched to abilify which sucked just as much imo. Could not loose any weight at all o that shit and had horrible ED. Was switched to latuda (fuck that shit) then zyprexa which im on now. It works great for me
 
paranoid android said:
The shrink i had in the psych ward was one evil bitch. She refused to even give me antipsychotics despite the fact i was suffering from psychosis and cotards syndrome for 3 months. Finally after i go in another fight my brother got me a new shrink who actually usually didt work on the ward and actually knew what he was doing. I was first put on invega which although it was terrible was far better then cotards and psychosis. After 3 mnths i ws switched to abilify which sucked just as much imo. Could not loose any weight at all o that shit and had horrible ED. Was switched to latuda (fuck that shit) then zyprexa which im on now. It works great for me
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There are many people here who never heard voices or had psychosis. Imagine the suffering these healthy people were unnecessarily put through.
 
lukeflowz said:
The suffering is increasing. I’m sorry to my family for what I’m going to be doing soon. I can’t take it anymore. Nearly 6 months and am getting worse. I’ve ordered the required chemicals and I’ll be likely leaving this place. I’m simply a wounded animal that wants to be put down.
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Yeah me too, but i don’t have the balls to kill myself this is why i’am almost 19 months without recovery
 
paranoid android said:
The shrink i had in the psych ward was one evil bitch. She refused to even give me antipsychotics despite the fact i was suffering from psychosis and cotards syndrome for 3 months. Finally after i go in another fight my brother got me a new shrink who actually usually didt work on the ward and actually knew what he was doing. I was first put on invega which although it was terrible was far better then cotards and psychosis. After 3 mnths i ws switched to abilify which sucked just as much imo. Could not loose any weight at all o that shit and had horrible ED. Was switched to latuda (fuck that shit) then zyprexa which im on now. It works great for me
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You are still on APs ?
 
Anyways for me there is a big difference between psychotic and non-psychotic people who got injected. And it’s seems that psychotic people usually recover and have differents sympthoms due to the injections compared to non-psychotic people who were basically harmed by the drug.

I never saw in 19 months any thread (reddit, quora, survivingantidepressants, bluelight) someone who said “yeah i was completely normal, just misdiagnosed and injected, but yes, i fully recovered and came back”.

In my opinion psychotic people’s brain can heal back but non-psychotic people’s brain got so damaged to a point where there is no coming back.
 
Hey everyone, I wanted to come back and provide further context to my invega struggles. I have finally been diagnosed with the following

Joint Hypermobility Syndrome/EDS
AUSTISM level 2
ADHD severe.

Alot of my suffering post invega and during invega was my inability to recognise PAIN, I am in chronic pain because my joints are hypermobile, and through yeats of being given psych drugs I somehow forgot what physical pain tension and discomfort are in my body.

While i recovered from invega 100 percent. My physical health is cooked. Psych gave me piles of drugs including pain killers that suppressed everything

If you have suffering that doesn't seem to end, touch yourself, massage yourself, get a foam roller and go to town.

Im not sayi g its the answer for everyone but jesus christ all my suffering / a good portion of it is because my Autistic brain was mis firing.

Peace.
 
lukeflowz said:
The suffering is increasing. I’m sorry to my family for what I’m going to be doing soon. I can’t take it anymore. Nearly 6 months and am getting worse. I’ve ordered the required chemicals and I’ll be likely leaving this place. I’m simply a wounded animal that wants to be put down.
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please wait, I understand the suffering is unbearable but you took multiple doses and it hasn't even been a year, you also have no way of knowing the afterlife is going to be better or that you would have been recovered, it would be a waste of precious life
 
IOSIP said:
Hey everyone, I wanted to come back and provide further context to my invega struggles. I have finally been diagnosed with the following

Joint Hypermobility Syndrome/EDS
AUSTISM level 2
ADHD severe.

Alot of my suffering post invega and during invega was my inability to recognise PAIN, I am in chronic pain because my joints are hypermobile, and through yeats of being given psych drugs I somehow forgot what physical pain tension and discomfort are in my body.

While i recovered from invega 100 percent. My physical health is cooked. Psych gave me piles of drugs including pain killers that suppressed everything

If you have suffering that doesn't seem to end, touch yourself, massage yourself, get a foam roller and go to town.

Im not sayi g its the answer for everyone but jesus christ all my suffering / a good portion of it is because my Autistic brain was mis firing.

Peace.
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So basically you never recovered physically, just mentally and not completely right?
 
silenthill said:
@lukeflowz recovery chances do not decrease. have genuine hope. i never really mentioned here that i had taken abilify for years starting when i was barely 13 since a ton of people here are quick to say negative things. i was on abilify since 13, went on olanzapine at 18 and then stopped at 19 when i got invega. since then no APs. i have the pictures, all the evidence in the world to show i am at my best self. you will recover and i hope you're safe.
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The things is your body was already adapted with APs and for us who took it for first time will suffer all day and nothing changes it just get worse everyday, btw how were you doing in 5 months? Your symptoms was less? I have tremor when i sleep my right hand shakes alot and i wonder if i got parkinson because of the drug
 
IOSIP said:
Hey everyone, I wanted to come back and provide further context to my invega struggles. I have finally been diagnosed with the following

Joint Hypermobility Syndrome/EDS
AUSTISM level 2
ADHD severe.

Alot of my suffering post invega and during invega was my inability to recognise PAIN, I am in chronic pain because my joints are hypermobile, and through yeats of being given psych drugs I somehow forgot what physical pain tension and discomfort are in my body.

While i recovered from invega 100 percent. My physical health is cooked. Psych gave me piles of drugs including pain killers that suppressed everything

If you have suffering that doesn't seem to end, touch yourself, massage yourself, get a foam roller and go to town.

Im not sayi g its the answer for everyone but jesus christ all my suffering / a good portion of it is because my Autistic brain was mis firing.

Peace.
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How was your physical health cooked?
 
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