Help! Anyone here still use drugs after HPPD?

[Spoonkter]

I had HPPD since I was 16 from Dox blotter. I can't smoke weed anymore. HPPD also caused my to become an alcoholic so I don't drink anymore. I was a paranoid sketch bag for years because of lsd, mescaline, weed, and shrooms even though I did have lots of great times on it. I loved smoking weed on shrooms.

When I smoke weed it caused lines to bend. I also see light faint colors and patterns. I quit smoking weed and I no longer suffer from after images when looking at things.

Shroom shaman culture is bullshit. Psychedelics are not harmless fun. They don't make people into better people.

I used to think otherwise for years. Fell into the hype and myth.

If done them drugs so many times that now a days the best high is not being high and having anxiety attack, unwanted worry and stress.

I do like exploring abandoned houses. Really old ones. I hope to one day find a bottle of of old school quaaludes.

 

[MedicinalUser247]

I think that HPPD isn't so bad. It's changed the way I listen to Music in a more positive manner.

 

[cnnka]

I’ve had it and it was really disruptive it lead me to anxiety and paranoia I also stopped smoking weed cause it made the anxiety and the hppd worse.
Now after a year I have very minor symptoms and they don’t bother me.
Now the only drugs I’ll do are the benzos and opioids.
I’m never gonna take psychedelics again fuck them as much as I like them they fuck me so bad mentally and in my vision fuck weed also who I was a big lover for close to two decades idk if the psychedelics ruined the weed for me or the overuse from such a young age did.
But psychedelics definitely fucked me mentally I’ve always had anxiety but psychedelics brought me terror and dark thoughts that symptoms still exist today some days are good some are worse , also the alcohol make the dark thoughts come again , so for me if I use something is benzos opioids and tobacco that’s it.

 

[MedicinalUser247]

I’ve had it and it was really disruptive it lead me to anxiety and paranoia I also stopped smoking weed cause it made the anxiety and the hppd worse.
Now after a year I have very minor symptoms and they don’t bother me.
Now the only drugs I’ll do are the benzos and opioids.
I’m never gonna take psychedelics again fuck them as much as I like them they fuck me so bad mentally and in my vision fuck weed also who I was a big lover for close to two decades idk if the psychedelics ruined the weed for me or the overuse from such a young age did.
But psychedelics definitely fucked me mentally I’ve always had anxiety but psychedelics brought me terror and dark thoughts that symptoms still exist today some days are good some are worse , also the alcohol make the dark thoughts come again , so for me if I use something is benzos opioids and tobacco that’s it.

So, how do you perceive reality now ?

 

[cnnka]

So, how do you perceive reality now ?

Visually I still have some “snow” or “stars” from time to time. Also if it’s very dark I may see some “shapes moving” that’s the most consistent I may have other visual distortion form time to time the lights get brighter some times then tone down the most “psychedelic visuals” are gone now.
Mentally I’m more anxious(internal anxiety about existential stuff and existential exhaustion, I’m not anxious about work relationships and normal stuff)
more “depressed” than before psychedelics.

 

[Nonyascaline]

It doesn't matter if I take a six week, or even a six month break, there is an unshakable perpetual low-grade morphing that especially worsens when I visually focus for example reading or looking across a room at a lecture ppt. At worst its made my already blurry reading capabilities in large rooms a frail gasp's worth more undecipherable but at best it's granted me some pretty intense hallucinations and experiences just on plain old THC or caffeine.

I got my first "layer" of hppd at the age of 12 experimenting with homemade LSA tincture and over time I notice that it doesn't really get more intense but just changes akin to the psychedelics I most recently have used. Sharper, more angular distortions after phenylethylamines and a softness after trypts, lsd has its own phenotype lol. It takes some intense focus for it to bother me, and even then the morphing blends to geometry and it becomes close to very mild low-grade threshold visuals that isn't unpleasant at all to daydream to.