Depression Moving Houses again (probably)

[ArtPlug]

This is the only place i can think to come, i made an account yesterday when life felt as if it was going good. But today was terrible from the moment i woke up.
I paid the rent, i paid my power bill, but my roommate has decided that he's had "enough of my shit", he started accusing me of not cleaning up around the house and complaining how i dont have a job (he has no job) and projected all the things he was doing and blamed me.

Over the week his plates and rubbish pile up while i clean and put mine away, he then blames me for it. I straight up do not undertand how he can do this, he is genuinly blaming and projecting all the shit he is doing onto me. He told me that i should just fucking leave today and got very aggressive and in my face, i reacted by trying to explain and telling him to calm down but that didnt work.

I keep to myself and dont need problems like this, i do all the cleaning and jobs i see so things like this dont have a chance to happen but its like an immovable wall telling me im wrong, and that i do nothing just cause thats their perspective, i feel hopeless. I need to get out of here asap.

He essentially yelled at me and projected all his frustration on me, told me to leave and move out. I havnt been mentally okay and ive been trying my best, doing all i can.
To have someone tell me i do nothing or dont try when im trying my hardest killed me inside. I thought this person was my friend

The lease is fixed i dont know how im going to leave easily but all i know is i dont want to be dictated and judged by someone that is projecting their anger and frustration on me.

 

[paranoid android]

Sounds like you need out of there. And if thats not possible your going to have to make clear to this person that such behavior is unacceptable

 

[ArtPlug]

Sounds like you need out of there. And if thats not possible your going to have to make clear to this person that such behavior is unacceptable

I do need out of here, im looking for options now and if its fixed term ill either have to find/pay for advertising for a replacement, or just hope the landlord is nice enough to let me off the hook. Flat mate can have fun paying the bills by himself considering he wants to treat me like shit and i "do nothing".

Currently staying elseware temporarily, thinking of what to do.

 

[paranoid android]

I do need out of here, im looking for options now and if its fixed term ill either have to find/pay for advertising for a replacement, or just hope the landlord is nice enough to let me off the hook. Flat mate can have fun paying the bills by himself considering he wants to treat me like shit and i "do nothing".

Currently staying elseware temporarily, thinking of what to do.

Honestly your flatmate sounds like a arsehole. If your staying somewhere else until you can find a more permanent solution thats not so bad though. Hopefully it works out for you without costing you to much

 

[ArtPlug]

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Honestly your flatmate sounds like a arsehole. If your staying somewhere else until you can find a more permanent solution thats not so bad though. Hopefully it works out for you without costing you to much

Hopefully the fixed lease dosent completley screw me over and i can find a solution

 

[M!$TER-ED]

Good luck! Keep us informed, we’re here for support

 

[ArtPlug]

Good luck! Keep us informed, we’re here for support

Today i came back to the house, he apologized and explained what he did was wrong. But i still feel as if i should move by myself which is what im going to make my goal.
Thank you to the people who posted when i felt helpless i appreciate you.

Currently im watching the anime death note for the first time to take my mind off things, its pretty good.

 

[ArtPlug]

Update: At 2:40am I woke up and i needed to use the bathroom.

I was trying to be as quiet as possible but my roomate woke up and came out screaming at me saying that I need to leave in 2 weeks because I woke him up.

I cant get back to sleep because of this anxiety, and I dont know what is going to happen. I want to leave. I want to be alone.

But im not sure if the rental lease will let me leave until its over.... but he's telling me i have to go in 2 weeks, I pay rent, I pay my bills. What authority does he even have over me, we both signed this lease and he dosent own the place. Id love to leave, gonna be trying my best to get out of this lease, I live every day feeling like im stepping in egg shells getting insane anxiety about being judged about everything I do. Im not okay and I dont have anybody i can go to for support, anyone's above I would appreciate, im really not okay right now...

 

[ArtPlug]

Good luck! Keep us informed, we’re here for support

I would appreciate any adivce if you have any, is it really that bad of me to need to use the bathroom, that i get yelled at and told I need to leave in 2 weeks, I just dont understand.

I've never complained about the noise they make but god forbid I need to use the bathroom?

 

[ArtPlug]

Im having some kind of mental episode right now I cant stop overthinking but at the same time I no longer give a fuck what this person thinks.

I pay to live here and I do my part why the fuck cant I take a piss when I want to, why do I have to live at somebodies whim caring about what they think, why should I even give a fuck about this piece of shit when they would have no consideration for me.

Why do I even give a shit about people, Its not normal to literally have to think about every single fucking miniscule thing i do, I find myself trapped and even when I do everything I can this happens.

Somebody tell me to stop giving a fuck about anybody I swear this is making me hurt myself, caring about what people think

 

[M!$TER-ED]

Im having some kind of mental episode right now I cant stop overthinking but at the same time I no longer give a fuck what this person thinks.

I pay to live here and I do my part why the fuck cant I take a piss when I want to, why do I have to live at somebodies whim caring about what they think, why should I even give a fuck about this piece of shit when they would have no consideration for me.

Why do I even give a shit about people, Its not normal to literally have to think about every single fucking miniscule thing i do, I find myself trapped and even when I do everything I can this happens.

Somebody tell me to stop giving a fuck about anybody I swear this is making me hurt myself, caring about what people think

This is something you are going to have to do for yourself. No one can decide for you...this is your life and your decision is what matters.

 

[ArtPlug]

This is something you are going to have to do for yourself. No one can decide for you...this is your life and your decision is what matters.

I know what needs to be done, I need to go but at the same time I just dont understand why people think they can judge and dictate me when they are no better, they are putting me down to feel better, when I just want to be left alone.

I really dont understand but as soon as I know I can leave im gone.

Im going to get there

 

[M!$TER-ED]

I know what needs to be done, I need to go but at the same time I just dont understand why people think they can judge and dictate me when they are no better, they are putting me down to feel better, when I just want to be left alone.

I really dont understand but as soon as I know I can leave im gone.

Im going to get there

I know you will get there....don't let other people get in your way. They have their own life to deal with. You take care of yourself, you can't control how other people feel so don't try.

 

[ArtPlug]

I know you will get there....don't let other people get in your way. They have their own life to deal with. You take care of yourself, you can't control how other people feel so don't try.

I have figured out a way I can end the tenancy, it will probably end up ending his tenancy/lease aswell lol

 

[ArtPlug]

I have figured out a way I can end the tenancy, it will probably end up ending his tenancy/lease aswell lol

This is the best ive felt in a while, in 21 days i won't have to come back here or ever see this person again. Im so happy, I can finally sleep now

 

[ArtPlug]

I know you will get there....don't let other people get in your way. They have their own life to deal with. You take care of yourself, you can't control how other people feel so don't try.

alot of bad things have happened...

 

[M!$TER-ED]

alot of bad things have happened...

What’s happened ? Are you safe?

 

[ArtPlug]

This is pretty fucked now, I woke up to him being extremely loud the boasting on the phone about telling the landlord lies about me and that ill be getting kicked out in 2 weeks, i had emailed my property manager and told her im leaving.

I went to go tell him that I was leaving in 2 weeks time and he started yelling at me putting me down and all, I just stood there and said okay, because I have no fucks to give anymore, I was packing some stuff and the washing machine pipe burst off and flooded the laundry I heard it and went in there to see what was happening, I told him what happened and he instantly said I did it because hes kicking me out, I said I didnt do it and he said sure and called me a lier and threatened to knock me out.

I left im at my mum's house but im worried about some of my stuff he could break, ill be going there later with a ride to get some shit

 

[M!$TER-ED]

This is pretty fucked now, I woke up to him being extremely loud the boasting on the phone about telling the landlord lies about me and that ill be getting kicked out in 2 weeks, i had emailed my property manager and told her im leaving.

I went to go tell him that I was leaving in 2 weeks time and he started yelling at me putting me down and all, I just stood there and said okay, because I have no fucks to give anymore, I was packing some stuff and the washing machine pipe burst off and flooded the laundry I heard it and went in there to see what was happening, I told him what happened and he instantly said I did it because hes kicking me out, I said I didnt do it and he said sure and called me a lier and threatened to knock me out.

I left im at my mum's house but im worried about some of my stuff he could break, ill be going there later with a ride to get some shit

Stuff can be replaced find shelter and when you go to get your things have someone with you.

 

[ArtPlug]

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Stuff can be replaced find shelter and when you go to get your things have someone with you.

The computers there are my fathers, he passed away they hold alot of sentimental value to me, thats the one thing I care about not getting broken