weed gave me deppresion- 1 whole gram trip report- relatively experienced (no tolerance)

[AddictedSince11]

This happened a while back, when I was 13. My friend said he would give me a few edibles to try if I gave him 100 bucks. Being 13 that felt like a million dollars but weed sounded like the best drug in the world so I saved up, painting house numbers on curbs. Eventually I saved up the money and bought the edibles. I didnt know how weed dosages worked and thought 1 FUCKING GRAM was a normal dose. So I took them, all 20 gummies. I didn't even question why 20 gummies would be a normal dose but I did it anyway. They tasted like absolute shit and I nearly threw up from the pure grassy taste, if I remember it correctly I even gagged once or twice. Once they where down the hatch I sat at my computer excitedly not knowing the absolute poisoningly high amount I just injested. After 30-40 minutes I felt mildly high and then very slowly it kept ramping up and up and up. I very slowly went from mildly high to moderately high to very high to WAY TOO FUCKING HIGH and beyond until I could hardly see or hear or feel almost. Now at this point I dont remember anything but what I do remember, was waking up in my bed suuuuper high in the morning with a terrible migrane and a random sense of severe deppresion for zero reason at all. I wasent as high as I was the night before, I could still talk normally and walk normally but that dang deppresion was one of the worst pain i've felt in my life including physical pain. Since the migrane and deppresion was so bad I decided to go back to bed, since it was a weekend and I had no school. When I woke up the headache was gone but the deppresion was 2x worse all I could do the whole day was cry and cry for zero reason at all, it was a weird feeling being so unbearably distressed with no reasoning. The rest of the day I just watched youtube and tried to sleep with no success until late at night. I still have deppresion to this day and im taking medications but its been a month and the ssris still arent working. Thanks for listening to my report, let this be a lesson to never do absurd amounts of weed

 

[neversickanymore]

What advice would you give to people based of this experience.. esp young people?

 

[AddictedSince11]

What advice would you give to people based of this experience.. esp young people?

uh not much mostly because i dont even remember most of the high other than the one i already said which is dont do a fucking gram unless your tolerance is top 1000 in the world

 

[neversickanymore]

uh not much mostly because i dont even remember most of the high other than the one i already said which is dont do a fucking gram unless your tolerance is top 1000 in the world

So more is not necessary better right, I learned that hard way too. Thoughts on getting manipulated into taking large amounts of substances by people that don’t have your best intention in mind at a younger age?

We see it in UNI hazing in the US.. thoughts?

 

[AddictedSince11]

So more is not necessary better right, I learned that hard way too. Thoughts on getting manipulated into taking large amounts of substances by people that don’t have your best intention in mind at a younger age?

We see it in UNI hazing in the US.. thoughts?

my thoughts on that are very simple and popular ... hazings bad and you dont need more for a good time especially with alchohol

 

[foodcrisis]

so you are still a teen and you went on anti-depressants how long after this experience with the thc?

i'm wondering how doctors went about prescribing you. was it like immediately after ingesting the thc, say weeks after when you started with the anti-depressants? how long has this been? i don't know if you want to expose your current age or are looking for advice.. it sounds kind of like this is a recent thing.

did you tell your doctor you used the THC when you got prescribed??? your brain might've just needed some time to recover from the thc if you went on the meds right away and weren't having problems with depression before the THC... i don't really hear of THC causing permanent depression. i guess you did take a big dose and you are young, but idk, i think going on meds might be too much, and you should just stay away from drugs while you were young and get yourself established in life. take what you did as an experience and realize that THC has consequences... even just smoking sometimes will burn some people out quite a bit. really a grams worth of weed isn't THAT MUCH, like yes you shouldn't have done that as a kid, even an adult probably shouldn't just try that out of no where... i totally get how you got messed up, but don't think that like "oh next time i won't do as much".... some people defintely get cought saying "i'm only gonna smoke (or take edibles) once and a while" and then it gradually turns into an all the time habbit like other drugs.... .. imo, it's harder to get things done being a marijuana smoker. some people get through college and get jobs while using. i'm sure you'll read about that on the net.... thirteen is young though. your brain is still developing... you brain is developing so even if you bothered yourself, it will continue to develop if you stay away from drugs, so don't worry, but you are too young for drug use.. just get your school work done.. maybe enjoy eating and try to realize exercise can be enjoyable or something... idk.. i don't want to preach too much.

mostly just commenting about maybe you went on meds too early.... i don't want to say that's a definite thing though... was the crying from the experience because of your thoughts or were you just physically overwhelmed with the marijuana or do you just not know?.... i mean, you may really need someone to talk to if you are having underlying issues. i'd definitely do some therapy and be honest with the professionals that you used drugs if you haven't.. like maybe you need meds or something... i'm just some person on the internet, i don't know your past or experience or anything. that's something to talk to a professional therapist... i just know sometimes doctors will hand out stuff like anti-depressants when they aren't even needed. and if you didn't tell the doctor about your THC drug use, maybe they might not've even prescribed them... that stuff will kill your sex drive. no need to be taking that unless you are really having mental health issues.... if this all started with the thc, i might go with the doc a bit longer, but maybe ween off of the stuff if this experience is all from the thc. just be honest with the doc and let them know you messed up.... if you had issues before the experience with THC and weren't feeling right, i don't know, maybe anti-depressants or some type of pharmacuetical is right for you. i'm not saying they are always bad. some people need them... a lot of members of this site take psych meds. no shame. it's just not really ideal if you don't have to be doing it if you know what i mean. i'm just looking out for my fellow human.

 

[foodcrisis]

keep in mind marijuana stays in your system for up to a month... being "Burnt out" is real... can effect people hardcore.

 

[foodcrisis]

i'm reading the user name is "addicted since eleven" and you are claiming to be relatively experienced.... what other drugs have you done?

messing yourself up with drugs and going on anti-depressants isn't a good thing...

you don't even know how you naturally feel at your age... at least go through puberty and realize how your body feels before you start abusing and messing up your brain chemistry... learn to exercise with proper breathing patterns. maybe try meditation and see if you can do that with out drugs... also enjoy the sensations of going through puberty. lol. drugs will always be there when you get older.

 

[AddictedSince11]

so you are still a teen and you went on anti-depressants how long after this experience with the thc?

i'm wondering how doctors went about prescribing you. was it like immediately after ingesting the thc, say weeks after when you started with the anti-depressants? how long has this been? i don't know if you want to expose your current age or are looking for advice.. it sounds kind of like this is a recent thing.

did you tell your doctor you used the THC when you got prescribed??? your brain might've just needed some time to recover from the thc if you went on the meds right away and weren't having problems with depression before the THC... i don't really hear of THC causing permanent depression. i guess you did take a big dose and you are young, but idk, i think going on meds might be too much, and you should just stay away from drugs while you were young and get yourself established in life. take what you did as an experience and realize that THC has consequences... even just smoking sometimes will burn some people out quite a bit. really a grams worth of weed isn't THAT MUCH, like yes you shouldn't have done that as a kid, even an adult probably shouldn't just try that out of no where... i totally get how you got messed up, but don't think that like "oh next time i won't do as much".... some people defintely get cought saying "i'm only gonna smoke (or take edibles) once and a while" and then it gradually turns into an all the time habbit like other drugs.... .. imo, it's harder to get things done being a marijuana smoker. some people get through college and get jobs while using. i'm sure you'll read about that on the net.... thirteen is young though. your brain is still developing... you brain is developing so even if you bothered yourself, it will continue to develop if you stay away from drugs, so don't worry, but you are too young for drug use.. just get your school work done.. maybe enjoy eating and try to realize exercise can be enjoyable or something... idk.. i don't want to preach too much.

mostly just commenting about maybe you went on meds too early.... i don't want to say that's a definite thing though... was the crying from the experience because of your thoughts or were you just physically overwhelmed with the marijuana or do you just not know?.... i mean, you may really need someone to talk to if you are having underlying issues. i'd definitely do some therapy and be honest with the professionals that you used drugs if you haven't.. like maybe you need meds or something... i'm just some person on the internet, i don't know your past or experience or anything. that's something to talk to a professional therapist... i just know sometimes doctors will hand out stuff like anti-depressants when they aren't even needed. and if you didn't tell the doctor about your THC drug use, maybe they might not've even prescribed them... that stuff will kill your sex drive. no need to be taking that unless you are really having mental health issues.... if this all started with the thc, i might go with the doc a bit longer, but maybe ween off of the stuff if this experience is all from the thc. just be honest with the doc and let them know you messed up.... if you had issues before the experience with THC and weren't feeling right, i don't know, maybe anti-depressants or some type of pharmacuetical is right for you. i'm not saying they are always bad. some people need them... a lot of members of this site take psych meds. no shame. it's just not really ideal if you don't have to be doing it if you know what i mean. i'm just looking out for my fellow human.

im just gonna answer some of the questions with a list
1. i started ssris a few weeks after the deppresion and experience started because im not just gonna do ssris off 1 bad experience but rather waiting to see if it stays which it did. Also i was mildly deppresed even before this but it was kind of just "lifes bland" than "lifes meaningless" so even if i wasent severely deppresed there couldve been some need for ssris

2. i dont wanna give my exact age but il just say this was more than 3 years ago

3. i didnt mention to my doctor that i think thc started this, i simply said i feel deppresed all the time

4. the crying was from random emo boy deppresion thoughts like "after i die its just nothing forever" and "i have no value" and my mind amplified all those to be extremely sadnening and deppresing

5. i was a daily user of weed before this experience i just did normal doses and as for after it, it actually helped an insane amount i would compare it to drowning your sorrows with alchohol like all your deppresion erases and even on high doses like 50 mg i never get anxious on it

6. as for my mental state now im doing much better and dont need ssris anymore i know the report says im still deppresed and the ssris werent working but i copy and pasted that from a pastebin i wrote a few years ago since im obsessed with keeping trip reports

7. i have absolutely done a SHIT ton of diffrent drugs since then basically anything that dosent require a plug iv done since im homeschooled and have no friends if you want me to name a few iv done: oxy, datura, benadryl, bupropion, dxm, tramadol, promethazine without codeine, nutmeg etc

 

[foodcrisis]

2. i dont wanna give my exact age but il just say this was more than 3 years ago





6. as for my mental state now im doing much better and dont need ssris anymore i know the report says im still deppresed and the ssris werent working but i copy and pasted that from a pastebin i wrote a few years ago since im obsessed with keeping trip reports

okay... not sure if you are saying that you are still experiencing depression from these two comments... i hope you are okay now and everything is going fine...

would definitely recommend not using recreational drugs before actually going on meds to any body at any age though... just wanted to help if i could... sorry if it didn't apply to you and was unnecessary reading. good luck.

 

[AddictedSince11]

okay... not sure if you are saying that you are still experiencing depression from these two comments... i hope you are okay now and everything is going fine...

would definitely recommend not using recreational drugs before actually going on meds to any body at any age though... just wanted to help if i could... sorry if it didn't apply to you and was unnecessary reading. good luck.

I’m not currently depressed — that pastebin was written years ago. I’m stable now