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Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v11

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moerez said:
No even if you search in chatgpt it says that your brain after long time of suppression from AP, it would never comeback to itself and if you are lucky, it will be so similar, so i dont get it when people say 100% recovered which is falsehope, whoever claim that they are 100% recovered its BS for sure
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well at least you can get high and drunk.
 
I don't understand.

If you are at 50% in 2 years and 100% in 3 years - what's the difference?

What is 3 years for the rest of your life?

Plenty of people, thousands upon thousands, get sidelined for 3+ years with medical issues all the time. I will give everyone here the empathy it deserves, while remembering the shock of anhedonia, severe akathisia, and tardive dyskinesia ( which might be a sort of stroke ).

I lost my ability to walk down a street that had 10/10 severe akathisia for 2 months that simmered down up until around 8, and anhedonia that made me contemplate my own life. What did I do? I took agency over the situation. 100s of hours of research and used LLM's and GoogleNotebook ( which now have IQ's up to 125 on pro versions ) to break it down into simple inputs of trial and error.

I think a lot of the nonsense on this forum stems from a group of people who have a trauma based personality adaptation. Causing them to be locked into infantile emotional reactivity mimicking a child sucking on a pacifier. They cling onto ideals of pain as part of their attachment profile instead of doing the work. This addiction to idealism is a form of procrastination that only soothes and prolongs the suffering. I've seen it with my very own eyes and it is a site to see.. radically altered my life. I respect the biological mechanism of everything you are all experiencing, but in the same breath speaking to the placebo that takes place when all you do is complain about it.

I would love to hear what all of your days look like in terms of circadian rhythm, nutrition, and lifestyle and see where the gaps are.

You need to always verify who you are speaking with on these channels. Misery loves company and there are sadists on these forums who like to prolong the suffering for others by making up not recovering. Yes. this level of misery exists.. people posting on here to manipulate the situation in hopes you will not even attempt to recover.

Lastly, I worked with a friend who paid for me to fly to Perth, from the good ole USA, to help with her recovery. She was in a hellish situation and had me stay the whole three months until my Visa ran out. She has been feeling much better since getting her to call a functional doctor and following the research I set up for her and the MD. Literally night and day since doing the work and has even reconvened a relationship that looked dire. I can have her give credibility to what I am saying if need be. Thanks everyone. Keep the hope!!!

PS

If money is an issue, there is a way to go around this with the AI tools I have.. I just had my friend go with a functional because she needed to pay money out of her own pocket to stick with the program ( skin in game like with therapy ) and I felt uncomfortable charging her myself.
 
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moerez said:
No even if you search in chatgpt it says that your brain after long time of suppression from AP, it would never comeback to itself and if you are lucky, it will be so similar, so i dont get it when people say 100% recovered which is falsehope, whoever claim that they are 100% recovered its BS for sure
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I recovered 100% its not bullshit
 
Dude the thing is nobody even knows its guaranteed you get 100% after even 3 years, people want to function and work and we have rents and shit to pay and we wanna live a life you know, its hard to say we all can wait up to 3 years thats a worst part
 
moerez said:
Dude the thing is nobody even knows its guaranteed you get 100% after even 3 years, people want to function and work and we have rents and shit to pay and we wanna live a life you know, its hard to say we all can wait up to 3 years thats a worst part
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What exactly is your problem ? I'm sure there is a solution.
 
I hate to be negative but sadly I don’t think I can recover from this, I seem to be getting worse…I am filled with so much regret, I am going to give it 8-9 months
 
anonymoususer777 said:
If my brain will never go back to the way it was, does that mean my cognition, reasoning, creativity, imagination, perfectionism etc will never be back?
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Your brain will never turn to its “original state”. Your brain has small changes everyday so it won’t ever return to its original format either and if you’ve ever been knocked up on your head or had your head jot down openly you probably my snook your brain up a bit and it never “returns to its original state”.

Generally speaking you’ll be fine and your mental faculties will operate at full capacity once more in the future.
 
Um, yes. Could be his brother or parents.
I was on the phone when he had an hour left to live. He’s gone and it’s broken my heart. I prayed for him last Friday evening and read his eulogy out that was sent to me and I felt his presence. I asked him to let me know if he was in the spirit world when he was very down and I felt him. He’s there in the ether and I’m going to fight and fight and fight to get better for beautiful Vamsi.
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I was looking at my dms and it showed raw banana’s account was active yesterday, this is really strange, are you sure they passed away? @Pretty Green
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Matthew01 said:
What's going with the Doctor? It's next week and they have answered you.
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They are waiting for the answer from the neurologists, that’s all..

On the 13th of this month I have appointment to a neurological hospital where they do rehabilitation about neurological trauma and maybe they can find a way to help with my specific sympthoms, the doctor who i spoke about that yesterday said that it’s a very nice thing and she also want to know if they can help me..
 
Just to be clear, what to you mean by “recovered” ? Reach a functional state? Because for me “Recovery” means go back full 100% on how things were before, not having any sympthoms left and it’s like it never happened, this is what true recovery is.

But if for some of you “recovery” just mean being funcional, even with a lot of cognitive and sexual problems without feeling any nicotine or coffee or weed, this is not exactly what the word “recovery” means btw.

Let us know.
 
Because we have to be clear each others, yes i recovered after 3 months, if you mean being functional. But not if you mean 100% of all sympthoms gone away, this absolutely not. Not even after almost 18 months.

So, what i have to say? I have recovered in 3-4 months? Or i’am still not recovered after almost 18 months?
 
RisperdalConsta50mg said:
Because we have to be clear each others, yes i recovered after 3 months, if you mean being functional. But not if you mean 100% of all sympthoms gone away, this absolutely not. Not even after almost 18 months.

So, what i have to say? I have recovered in 3-4 months? Or i’am still not recovered after almost 18 months?
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Being able to stand on your legs, drive a car, and take care of yourself and your home is not recovery, this is a functional state, recovery means you are back to yourself pre-injections, and these are two compleyely differents things, to be clear.

So the question is: what do you mean by “recovery”?
 
Let’s talk in videogames terms since there are a lot of “gamers. These injection inflicted us a critical hit that lead to our HP by 100 to 5.

Like the videogames, when you mean “I’am recovered from that” you are saying that you get your HP back to 100.

If you only got a slight heals then your HP go from 5 to 30 but this is not so called recovery. This is a very soft healing.

I’am interessed in get all my 100 HP back like before and this will meant “Recovery” for my prospective, because I don’t want to play anymore a game where i can only get a soft heal and only go back to 30 HP.

Hope you understood what I mean btw.
 
anonymoususer777 said:
@demileigh , how many months since your injections? Do you feel you are on your way to full recovery? How is your motivation, energy levels, sleep, apetite, creativity/ imagination? Is your life more normal now, are you still suicidal? Are you feeling rays of hope that you will fully recover? Are your symptoms fluctuating? Do any of your old symptoms keep coming back?

I am at 7 months and my symptoms keep fluctuating. I cannot tellif i am.recovering or getting worse. Some nights i sleep fine, others i wake up 2 to 3 times. Memory is not cooperating, cognition imagination and creativity are not there like before. Do symptoms keep fluctuatimg until you fully recover?
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It’s actually been 8 months today since my last injection, I’m 100% confident that I’ll fully recover. Appetite, creativity and imagination is back to how it was pre-invega. Life feels very normal. I was never suicidal, that was never an option cause I have a child to worry about and no amount of bullshit injections could make me selfish enough to even consider wanting to take my own life especially away from my child.
None of my symptoms are fluctuating, started taking contrave 1.5 weeks ago and I’d say the bupropion in that has improved my energy levels and motivation though it has been keeping me up at night by making it harder to fall asleep but other than that I feel great to be honest.

Have you tried any nootropics or any vitamins to boost brain health?? Pretty sure berries and nuts are good brain food too. Maybe that kind of stuff could help with memory, cognition, imagination/ creativity problems. As long as you’re sleeping fine some nights i wouldn’t worry about waking up a few times other nights, just train yourself to go back to sleep when it happens.
 
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