Got robbed and scammed and now going to go back to prison and lose all my methadone take homes.

[RuffSamurai]

My partner accidentally died from a fentanyl overdose on October 2022. I was over a year sober. She was my reason. Everything to me. I relapsed on fentanyl and found a doctor to prescribe me klonopin that day. That went on for awhile till I got in trouble and ended up in a methadone program where I was on 180mg and klonopin. I’m down to 140mg and get 25mg of klonopin a month.

I’m really struggling this year tired of counting my pills trying to make them last so I got the idea to order some klonopin online I paid a lot for it. It arrived but it’s completely fake and I have been arguing with the vendor for weeks. He acted like he was going to make it right but now he wants $200 for a reship, from the same warehouse that sold me fake shit. I’m aware this was a scam from the start and am ask angry that this asshole couldn’t just rob me but he also wasted weeks of my time getting my hopes up and shit.

I don’t even care about the money as much as the amount of time he wasted yanking me around…I’m going to go to the bank and try and get it back but I know I’m not going to be able too as it was sent to India…

Anyway out of frustration I’ve been eating 10 of these fucking things at a time hoping for fentanyl hoping for something but they don’t do shit. Meanwhile I can take 1.5mg of what I’m prescribed and knock myself out for hours.

So now my system is packed full of god knows what and I’m going to fail my UAs. The funniest part is I know these things are all fake and I keep taking them and opening packs hoping that this one will be different lmfao.

I hate it here so much man. I’m so tired of living like this but I don’t want to be sober. Truth is I just want to blow my fucking head off and be with my partner wherever she is.
But don’t want to put my mom through more.

Nothing helps, meds, mushrooms, therapy, nothing helps.

I’m so tired of living in fear all the time for simply being an addict, I’m not a bad person…

Thanks for listening to me

 

[RuffSamurai]

I know I can’t post sites or sources but they’re all a scam these days. Every single one. Unless you want RC shit which I also can’t test for. I wish I could post the name of the fucker and his site on here so you guys know to avoid…

 

[BadBoy377]

Well it's not really sourcing if you're saying don't use them. Worst case it will get deleted.

Stay strong friend. That sounds like a really rough situation. Sounds like a hard way to live.

Keep doing your best. That's all you can do. It will come good eventually.

 

[neversickanymore]

if your not getting off on it you likely won’t fail a UA. The person ripped you don’t send any more money.. scammers are scammers and they will try and rip you off again. all love and stay outa the laws grasp as kicking that shit in a cell would be hell.

 

[washingtonbound]

My friend is on a slippery slope right now with alcohol. He says he has a “few drinks” during the week and “many drinks” on the weekends. He tells me that since he only drinks in the late afternoon/evening, he’s not an alcoholic. He says he doesn’t get withdrawal symptoms although this drinking pattern hasn’t gone on for more than a year. It seems some people get hit with the withdrawals worse than others.

I’ve never had a problem with alcohol after getting alcohol poisoning a few times in high school, so I probably can’t judge what an appropriate amount is. But the people I know who got consumed by it were fine one minute, then in hell the next, with seizures, heart problems and terrible psychological withdrawals on top of it. A few of them went to rehab and are doing ok, others I have no idea.

You may not have to quit drinking entirely but hard liquor everyday may catch up with you sooner than later.

 

[Nightraver]

My partner accidentally died from a fentanyl overdose on October 2022. I was over a year sober. She was my reason. Everything to me. I relapsed on fentanyl and found a doctor to prescribe me klonopin that day. That went on for awhile till I got in trouble and ended up in a methadone program where I was on 180mg and klonopin. I’m down to 140mg and get 25mg of klonopin a month.

I’m really struggling this year tired of counting my pills trying to make them last so I got the idea to order some klonopin online I paid a lot for it. It arrived but it’s completely fake and I have been arguing with the vendor for weeks. He acted like he was going to make it right but now he wants $200 for a reship, from the same warehouse that sold me fake shit. I’m aware this was a scam from the start and am ask angry that this asshole couldn’t just rob me but he also wasted weeks of my time getting my hopes up and shit.

I don’t even care about the money as much as the amount of time he wasted yanking me around…I’m going to go to the bank and try and get it back but I know I’m not going to be able too as it was sent to India…

Anyway out of frustration I’ve been eating 10 of these fucking things at a time hoping for fentanyl hoping for something but they don’t do shit. Meanwhile I can take 1.5mg of what I’m prescribed and knock myself out for hours.

So now my system is packed full of god knows what and I’m going to fail my UAs. The funniest part is I know these things are all fake and I keep taking them and opening packs hoping that this one will be different lmfao.

I hate it here so much man. I’m so tired of living like this but I don’t want to be sober. Truth is I just want to blow my fucking head off and be with my partner wherever she is.
But don’t want to put my mom through more.

Nothing helps, meds, mushrooms, therapy, nothing helps.

I’m so tired of living in fear all the time for simply being an addict, I’m not a bad person…

Thanks for listening to me

Hey man I know this sounds cheesy but hang in there bro things can’t get better if you’re not here can they. And trust me man they will get better. We all have different levels of rock bottom and I think you are at or almost at yours so the only way to go from it is up mate. But it depends on you how long you fester down there. I’ve been there more than once so I know what you are going through. I’m the only one of my friends who is not dead and at one point all I wanted to do was go and be with them. I don’t know if you are religious or believe in a higher power but think about this. Every single religion says if you check yourself out you don’t get into heaven so you won’t be with her anyway if you do cash out and don’t you think she would be major pissed at you if you do it. Sometimes it seems like a good way to stop your pain but all it does is increase the pain of those we leave behind. Think about that.
Sorry if that sounds a little rough but if you want to talk or even vent at someone hit me up and I promise I will get back to you mate
Chin up stay safe and wait for the silver lining that I promise you will come
Peace out
Nightraver

 

[RuffSamurai]

if your not getting off on it you likely won’t fail a UA. The person ripped you don’t send any more money.. scammers are scammers and they will try and rip you off again. all love and stay outa the laws grasp as kinking that shit in a cell would be hell.

Thank you for this perspective. You’re right they’re just such tight asses about everything and I get gas spectrometry tests so everything shows up including anti depressants and OTC shit. I just don’t want to explain to my Councelor why there’s god knows what in my urine. But thank you for the kind words and perspective this community is so amazing.

Well it's not really sourcing if you're saying don't use them. Worst case it will get deleted.

Stay strong friend. That sounds like a really rough situation. Sounds like a hard way to live.

Keep doing your best. That's all you can do. It will come good eventually.

Thanks for listening to me I really appreciate the kind words. The name of the scammer is etizola.com and he calls himself Jason I think he runs some other clear net sites. Avoid him like the plague.

Hey man I know this sounds cheesy but hang in there bro things can’t get better if you’re not here can they. And trust me man they will get better. We all have different levels of rock bottom and I think you are at or almost at yours so the only way to go from it is up mate. But it depends on you how long you fester down there. I’ve been there more than once so I know what you are going through. I’m the only one of my friends who is not dead and at one point all I wanted to do was go and be with them. I don’t know if you are religious or believe in a higher power but think about this. Every single religion says if you check yourself out you don’t get into heaven so you won’t be with her anyway if you do cash out and don’t you think she would be major pissed at you if you do it. Sometimes it seems like a good way to stop your pain but all it does is increase the pain of those we leave behind. Think about that.
Sorry if that sounds a little rough but if you want to talk or even vent at someone hit me up and I promise I will get back to you mate
Chin up stay safe and wait for the silver lining that I promise you will come
Peace out
Nightraver

It doesn’t sound cheesy. Thanks for listening to me I really appreciate the kind words and just someone listening to me. It’s been really hard. And I don’t know why I live like this. The happiest I ever was was when I was sober with my partner but all that is so far away. Just thanks for being there it’s been hell on earth. This website has been there every step of the way and I am so grateful for this wonderful community. Thank you all. It’s been hard.

 

[BadBoy377]

Thank you for this perspective. You’re right they’re just such tight asses about everything and I get gas spectrometry tests so everything shows up including anti depressants and OTC shit. I just don’t want to explain to my Councelor why there’s god knows what in my urine. But thank you for the kind words and perspective this community is so amazing.

Thanks for listening to me I really appreciate the kind words. The name of the scammer is etizola.com and he calls himself Jason I think he runs some other clear net sites. Avoid him like the plague.

It doesn’t sound cheesy. Thanks for listening to me I really appreciate the kind words and just someone listening to me. It’s been really hard. And I don’t know why I live like this. The happiest I ever was was when I was sober with my partner but all that is so far away. Just thanks for being there it’s been hell on earth. This website has been there every step of the way and I am so grateful for this wonderful community. Thank you all. It’s been hard.

Cheers, will avoid like plague!

I hope things get better for you soon. Just keep your head down n do your best that's all anyone can do. Good luck!