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Misc Were you disappointed or elated the first time you used?

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My first drug use besides nicotine was weed. I didn't know what to expect, it was unfortunate that I felt nothing. I continued to smoke weed without actually feeling good or remotely pleasurable. Eventually smoking weed caught up to me making me feel comatose and zombie like. It wasn't until then I realized smoking weed was hazardous to my brain.

I was very naive and immature when I first got into drugs. Over time experience taught me nothing about heath and wellness, I didn't see or refused to pay attention to the signs that life as I knew it was about to crash. It was a wakeup call that I ignored and soon paid the price for my negligence.

50 years later I have rekindled my love and passion for psychedelics with a different attitude and approach. Instead of looking to get wasted, I am taking it slow and easy with much respect to the substance.
 
I was elated.
First time I used was oxycodone. I remember anxiously waiting for it to kick in, I had been against drugs my whole life until my cousin convinced me to try em… boy did that change the trajectory of my life. As soon as the pill kicked in I was blown away as all of my worries melted away and I laid on the floor for hours just breathing in pure bliss, opiates were my first love.

Strangely though the drugs that dissapointed me the first times using them ended up becoming my favorite drug classes, I never felt much the first time I did cocaine, nor the first time I did vyvanse, I didnt really ”notice” I was high at first. Same with psychedelics, did Morning Glory Seeds and HBWR seeds and only got intense nausea and vasoconstriction with minor psychedelia

1 year down the line and my 2 favorite drug classes were stimulants and psychedelics.
Suddenly I was doing stimulants daily and psychs ~every 2 weeks
 
Apart from alcohol and a few puffs of smoke it was weed. It was okay. It wasn't nearly as strong as it is nowadays.

Although I have kept smoking it incidentally for a decade or three (since puberty), it never really became a habit.

At this point I don't really like what I buy in the coffeeshops anymore.

My first dose of shrooms was very mild, but tasted moreish.

I use drugs more to get to know them then for any other reason.

First time base "Whoohoo!'

First time heroin (in a base speedball)... "I'm sitting here with someone I know I can't trust, but I am not afraid at all, when I normally should have been."

Etc.

So mostly elated.
 
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The first drug i used i think ws either hash or xanax im not sure which. I loved hash at first sight. I lked xanax at first sight to but i got way to fucked up the first time i took it. Granted i was 12 or 13 at the time and this was before you could look up doses on the internet. I took 3 of my moms 2mg xanax and got way to fucked up lol
 
M!$TER-ED said:
My first drug use besides nicotine was weed. I didn't know what to expect, it was unfortunate that I felt nothing. I continued to smoke weed without actually feeling good or remotely pleasurable. Eventually smoking weed caught up to me making me feel comatose and zombie like. It wasn't until then I realized smoking weed was hazardous to my brain.

I was very naive and immature when I first got into drugs. Over time experience taught me nothing about heath and wellness, I didn't see or refused to pay attention to the signs that life as I knew it was about to crash. It was a wakeup call that I ignored and soon paid the price for my negligence.

50 years later I have rekindled my love and passion for psychedelics with a different attitude and approach. Instead of looking to get wasted, I am taking it slow and easy with much respect to the substance.
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The first drug I used was Hash in my mid-teens, alls I remember it doing was it gave me a hard-on lmao. Then I tried Coke in my late-teens but I can't remember how that made me feel. And finally I tried MDMA in my late-teens and that blown me away which I vividly remember lol.
 
i did oxy and it was so fucking overrated i thought it would be the highlight of my life but no it felt like weed but i had shit balance. a few months later i did 350 mg of tramadol and it was nice i just rode an ebike into the sunset at dangerous speeds
 
weed was my first and considering we didn't know about the existance of rollies at the time and made our joint out out printing paper.... it was pretty bad. Though I don't react well to weed regardless.

First time with mdma and meth was elating. But I grew tired of them.

EDIT: First time with coke was... not bad.

First time with opioids was disappointing, though I grew into them.

First time with benzos was disappointing, but again, I grew into them.
 
Most drugs I thought were kinda mehh the first time. Mainly weed didn’t do much but make me tired the first 3 times. Speed was just plain boring as I expected more than feeling medicated adhd wise, but over time weed & speed became favorites.

Opioids were definitely a ‘I’ve always longed for this feeling’ experience. First time was getting too much IV morphine at the hospital and for the first time in my life actually feeling comfortable existing.

MDMA was similar, but I was mildly underwhelmed by the intensity level I had assumed xtc would give. I was also surprised by how relatively sober I was able to think when everyone else who was rolling seemed to blindly trust strangers, but I tend to have that on most substances except maybe opioids.

Other than that uhh coke was probably the biggest disappointment. Nicotine also maybe.

I think my disappointment stemmed from expecting more intensity in drugs in general, but in some ways that has been ‘helpful’, such as an xtc comedown not feeling much different to my average being sad experience.
 
My first time alcohol was fun.
The first time weed unremarkable.

But it lead me to think: "That's it? And you're all telling me I'm fucking up my life if I smoke weed? Well, fuck you. I wanna try everything now."
 
Weed -- Yes, my father had an excellent hydro op and we were pulling down lbs of pot a month -- first time I smoked was with a friend who stole his pot from an older brother and told me "I only have one bowl", I thought be meant like ice cream bowl full not one pipe full. we smoked it between 4 ppl and not much happened.

Later that week I scraped what was left on the tray at the end of the night and rolled a fat joint that I smoked by myself and slept a solid 8-12 hours for the very first time in my life. (Insomniac) so was very happy -- started taking exactly 6 hits off a roach to go to sleep every night and escalated from there -- weed is great.

Cocaine -- First time I got it it was free, 2 rails of some fire 90s coke from an old dude --- second time I showed up to buy two zips of pot and the guy only had an 8ball -- despite it lasting all of xmas break it was not worth it! Certainly "Got off" though if that is the question.

Benzos -- got prescribed them when on probation and couldnt smoke weed--- they do the job. Not particularly euphoric except for the anxiety dropoff --- or some of the cool designer benzos.

Opiates -- The bees knees, was given them in hockey and later a friend would trade vics for pot in HS and I rarely went back after catching an opiate buzz at lunch.

Alcohol -- Shit poison --- but helps hit the gaba receptor when in a pinch. First time hated it, passed out in a snowbank and was rescued by a young lady I knew since elementary (RIP) who lived down the street.

Psychedelics -- First time I tripped mushrooms I was convinced that was the BEST DRUG as I just laughed my ass off the whole time--- turns out that is not a thing that always happens

Amphetamines -- Took em the first time before a friends fathers funeral, felt paranoid and shitty the whole time I was there -- not my thing at all

MDMA -- Got the semi legendary "Blue dolphins" in the early 00's -- first few times AMAZING again thought it was all I wanted to be on ever --diminishing effects same as psychs, I dont care if you go once a year -- that first time is something else! Bk-MDMA I found more consistent euphoria and less stimulant effects (Which see amphs and coke, I dont like my heart on overdrive)
 
I don't remember being breastfed, but my first vicodin script was pure heaven. I later tried oxycodone and it was great but vicodin had this dreamy bliss whereas the oxycodone was more straight up euphoria. It's weird because with oxycodone I didn't feel like I was on drugs at all. I liken it to some of my DXM trips where I found huge amounts of energy and euphoria for a short period. I didn't feel high at all but I fucking tasted heaven's sweet nectar.
 
Got a shot of morphine when I was 12 at the hospital, as the pain faded and the feeling of being hugged by a warm summer day took over my whole body I knew I’d be back for that feeling at some point.

Was enjoying smoking weed and drinking at the beginning of the opiate pill gold rush, but I was turning down any pill that got offered to me (kicked myself in the ass later on for saying no thanks to hand fulls of OG OC’s, lol!).

Enter my brother in law, shows up one day with zip loc bags full of the yellow Watson 10/325’s, Yellow Jackets we called them, 100’s of them. If it was Christmas or my birthday he’d slide a bag of 50 to me, any other time they were a buck a piece. Thats where I fell in love with the euphoria that only Hydrocodone could bring. The Oxy, Opana’s, morphine pills, Dilli’s and fentanyl patches flowed like water after but it didn’t have that euphoria level like the Hydro.

I’ve got some clean time, even have a decent stash of Oxy’s that I have no desire to take (if you ever had kidney stones before you know you need to have something on hand incase it happens again), but if I found an hidden stash of NOS yellow Watson’s I’d gobble those fuckers down and enjoy the day.
 
a buck a piece for hydro 10s you got a good family -- i mean pricing is not allowed here.

CWE -- dont fry your liver on tylenol!
 
When I was young I wouldn’t get bad effects or side effects or bad time from anything ever.

First time weed I blew my socks off I said “man I’m gonna smoke it everyday till I die”

Benzos they rocked made me feel like weed but also “woozy” on the body and in combination with weed they were perfect.

First time MDMA oh boy!! I was ecstatic so much euphoria so much easiness on my mind so much energy it was nuts. Full brain orgasms

First time morphine injection oh boy I felt like chilling on pink clouds.

First time mushrooms intense as fuck saw very beautiful visuals but still “weird”

First time DMT I couldn’t believe what was happening I was laughing

First time cocaine it was mehhhh I don’t like cocaine even if it’s very pure paste it’s not my thing nor amphetamines.

First time kratom very good it hit the spot because I was in pain but also got me nicely high.

First time alcohol I don’t remember I drink from young age but remember the first years were very very fun now I don’t like it as much but still drink semi regularly but I try not to overdo it.

First time tobacco I don’t even know but I still smoke vape etc

I don’t have a first bad experience with anything maybe I’ll have down the road and not use again but first time bad time ? Never , maybe the mushrooms were little weird but still spectacular I was amazed by the intensity of a natural substance. Can’t remember what else I’ve tried probably bunch of substances natural ones and opioids stimulants sedatives etc etc
 
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