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Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v11

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lukeflowz said:
Sorry for making this about me. It sucks man that we are both in this situation. I feel like a video game character with a severe learning disability that has been nerfed since these injections. I’m not sure if there is any chance of me healing and the fact you have been going through this shit for 16 months is it? Mind boggling. Honestly man, I hope you heal soon — nobody deserves this torture.
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Idk if healing it’s just let it go who you used to be before and forget about it, and adapt to the new yourself, maybe because of that I keep saying i’am not recovered, because i can’t forget how i used to be before and i’am not letting go that memory and i simply refuse to adapt into a disfunctional myself, idk..
 
RisperdalConsta50mg said:
Idk if healing it’s just let it go who you used to be before and forget about it, and adapt to the new yourself, maybe because of that I keep saying i’am not recovered, because i can’t forget how i used to be before and i’am not letting go that memory and i simply refuse to adapt into a disfunctional myself, idk..
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I don’t know if I’ll make it. It’s getting too much. In all honesty I don’t think I have it in me to adapt to this new version of myself. I’m not strong enough and every waking moment is pure hell. I can’t even distract myself and play video games (something I used to do, not anymore since the injections) I don’t know man things are not looking good. I wish there were a pill I could take that makes me not wake up in the morning. I know I’m 3.5 months in, but I had six injections and I don’t see myself getting better.
 
lukeflowz said:
I don’t know if I’ll make it. It’s getting too much. In all honesty I don’t think I have it in me to adapt to this new version of myself. I’m not strong enough and every waking moment is pure hell. I can’t even distract myself and play video games (something I used to do, not anymore since the injections) I don’t know man things are not looking good. I wish there were a pill I could take that makes me not wake up in the morning. I know I’m 3.5 months in, but I had six injections and I don’t see myself getting better.
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Just wait 6 months, then 9 months, then 12 months, then 18 months, then 24 months until you reach 2 years and see what happen.

Just make a “check-in” every 3 months and compare yourself to 3 months ago, not to yesterday, maybe time Will heal you..
 
RisperdalConsta50mg said:
Just wait 6 months, then 9 months, then 12 months, then 18 months, then 24 months until you reach 2 years and see what happen.

Just make a “check-in” every 3 months and compare yourself to 3 months ago, not to yesterday, maybe time Will heal you..
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Yeah I’ll try that. I can promise I’ll at least make it to 9 months. If I still feel the same at 9 months— I’m not strong like you and I don’t think I can hold on anymore. I guess I have made progress with the physical symptoms of akathisia passing but I still have inner torment another side effect of akathisia. The coin definition—I now have mental akathisia.
 
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lukeflowz said:
Yeah I’ll try that. I can promise I’ll at least make it to 9 months. If I still feel the same at 9 months— I’m not strong like you and I don’t think I can hold on anymore. I guess I have made progress with the physical symptoms of akathisia passing but I still have inner torment another side effect of akathisia. The coin definition—I now have mental akathisia.
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I’am not strong at all, i just don’t want that my life is over at 29yo (28yo when they injected me) and i just keep going until the 24 months mark to see if i will recover..

There is not a matter of being strong but to be so desperate to belive in a miracle that give you back your life and your old self..
 
lukeflowz said:
Yeah I’ll try that. I can promise I’ll at least make it to 9 months. If I still feel the same at 9 months— I’m not strong like you and I don’t think I can hold on anymore. I guess I have made progress with the physical symptoms of akathisia passing but I still have inner torment another side effect of akathisia. The coin definition—I now have mental akathisia.
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I am going to see if I can make it to 9 months or a year, I am afraid of going to a bad afterlife if I suicide though
 
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twinpeaks123 said:
I experience lethargy and memory loss, how many doses did you have?
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I was initially prescribed a high dose of Invega Sustenna, and the second prescription was for a medium dose.

It's been about six months since the prescription was issued.



Additionally, starting this September, I have been prescribed Abilify Maintena at a 400mg dose four times.



Even without Abilify Maintena, I experienced a recovery in motivation, which is one of the side effects of Invega Sustenna.
 
someone who took APs on reddit, they have recovered but I am not sure how long it took

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4 months of antipsychotics. Feel lobotomized. Is my soul gone forever? (25m)

They put me on Risperdal in September 2021 after a “manic” episode that I had from smoking too much weed.

Lost the ability to have an erection shortly after I started taking it, started to feel the anhedonia, etc. I switched to Latuda in November in hopes of things getting better, but of course I had to taper off Risperdal so I ended up taking both meds at once for about a month. On top of that, they were prescribing me low doses of Seroquel for sleep (why? There are other options.)

Had the akathisia, couldn’t sleep for about a month, had severe dystonic reactions in December, was worried I was developing TD but thankfully the spasms got better.

I managed to convince my mom to let me get off the APs completely in January. Was tapered off by mid January 2022. I was only on them for about four months.

During this time I was prescribed Lamictal as well. I stayed on Wellbutrin and tapered off Zoloft when hospitalized in Sept. but eventually got back on again in December.

I used to be an intense person. I was intelligent, too. Could ace any test, got a good job as a software developer, etc. Was generally able to get excited about things despite depression.

Now I don’t feel anything. Ever since being put on the APs it feels like my IQ has dropped 40 points. I have no memories. I cannot remember conversations. I cannot remember what I read. It feels like I am just floating through life.

I can get an erection and orgasm again, thankfully. That came back in after I stated tapering off the drugs. But it feels like all of my intelligence and zest for life is gone. And for only being on them for 4 months? How is that possible?

Will my spirit come back? It feels like my soul has been ripped from me. I used to be such a fierce soul. Now I hardly feel human.

How long does it take to recover after tapering off these things? Is this permanent? I’ve been unemployed bc I can’t do the software dev interviews anymore. It feels like my only option is working at a grocery store or something. All of my swag is gone. Everything looks so bleak.

I was convinced of killing myself until a couple weeks ago. I want to fight again. That’s what gives me hope.

I’ve started socializing again and even flew back to nyc where I moved from when everything went to shit to see friends. People are still excited to see me and still love me for some reason. I can hardly speak when I’m around them, though.

I’m trying to with the interviews again, too. Everything is so hard and I feel so dumb which just sucks because I know this all used to be so much easier for me.

But I want my life back. I want to be ambitious again. I want to live. I don’t want to kill myself.

Will the parts of me from before ever return? What can I do? Or should I just cope and live with this destitute self?”
 
twinpeaks123 said:
someone who took APs on reddit, they have recovered but I am not sure how long it took

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4 months of antipsychotics. Feel lobotomized. Is my soul gone forever? (25m)

They put me on Risperdal in September 2021 after a “manic” episode that I had from smoking too much weed.

Lost the ability to have an erection shortly after I started taking it, started to feel the anhedonia, etc. I switched to Latuda in November in hopes of things getting better, but of course I had to taper off Risperdal so I ended up taking both meds at once for about a month. On top of that, they were prescribing me low doses of Seroquel for sleep (why? There are other options.)

Had the akathisia, couldn’t sleep for about a month, had severe dystonic reactions in December, was worried I was developing TD but thankfully the spasms got better.

I managed to convince my mom to let me get off the APs completely in January. Was tapered off by mid January 2022. I was only on them for about four months.

During this time I was prescribed Lamictal as well. I stayed on Wellbutrin and tapered off Zoloft when hospitalized in Sept. but eventually got back on again in December.

I used to be an intense person. I was intelligent, too. Could ace any test, got a good job as a software developer, etc. Was generally able to get excited about things despite depression.

Now I don’t feel anything. Ever since being put on the APs it feels like my IQ has dropped 40 points. I have no memories. I cannot remember conversations. I cannot remember what I read. It feels like I am just floating through life.

I can get an erection and orgasm again, thankfully. That came back in after I stated tapering off the drugs. But it feels like all of my intelligence and zest for life is gone. And for only being on them for 4 months? How is that possible?

Will my spirit come back? It feels like my soul has been ripped from me. I used to be such a fierce soul. Now I hardly feel human.

How long does it take to recover after tapering off these things? Is this permanent? I’ve been unemployed bc I can’t do the software dev interviews anymore. It feels like my only option is working at a grocery store or something. All of my swag is gone. Everything looks so bleak.

I was convinced of killing myself until a couple weeks ago. I want to fight again. That’s what gives me hope.

I’ve started socializing again and even flew back to nyc where I moved from when everything went to shit to see friends. People are still excited to see me and still love me for some reason. I can hardly speak when I’m around them, though.

I’m trying to with the interviews again, too. Everything is so hard and I feel so dumb which just sucks because I know this all used to be so much easier for me.

But I want my life back. I want to be ambitious again. I want to live. I don’t want to kill myself.

Will the parts of me from before ever return? What can I do? Or should I just cope and live with this destitute self?”
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Do you know this persons dosage or number of injections and what drug?
 
twinpeaks123 said:
someone who took APs on reddit, they have recovered but I am not sure how long it took

“
4 months of antipsychotics. Feel lobotomized. Is my soul gone forever? (25m)

They put me on Risperdal in September 2021 after a “manic” episode that I had from smoking too much weed.

Lost the ability to have an erection shortly after I started taking it, started to feel the anhedonia, etc. I switched to Latuda in November in hopes of things getting better, but of course I had to taper off Risperdal so I ended up taking both meds at once for about a month. On top of that, they were prescribing me low doses of Seroquel for sleep (why? There are other options.)

Had the akathisia, couldn’t sleep for about a month, had severe dystonic reactions in December, was worried I was developing TD but thankfully the spasms got better.

I managed to convince my mom to let me get off the APs completely in January. Was tapered off by mid January 2022. I was only on them for about four months.

During this time I was prescribed Lamictal as well. I stayed on Wellbutrin and tapered off Zoloft when hospitalized in Sept. but eventually got back on again in December.

I used to be an intense person. I was intelligent, too. Could ace any test, got a good job as a software developer, etc. Was generally able to get excited about things despite depression.

Now I don’t feel anything. Ever since being put on the APs it feels like my IQ has dropped 40 points. I have no memories. I cannot remember conversations. I cannot remember what I read. It feels like I am just floating through life.

I can get an erection and orgasm again, thankfully. That came back in after I stated tapering off the drugs. But it feels like all of my intelligence and zest for life is gone. And for only being on them for 4 months? How is that possible?

Will my spirit come back? It feels like my soul has been ripped from me. I used to be such a fierce soul. Now I hardly feel human.

How long does it take to recover after tapering off these things? Is this permanent? I’ve been unemployed bc I can’t do the software dev interviews anymore. It feels like my only option is working at a grocery store or something. All of my swag is gone. Everything looks so bleak.

I was convinced of killing myself until a couple weeks ago. I want to fight again. That’s what gives me hope.

I’ve started socializing again and even flew back to nyc where I moved from when everything went to shit to see friends. People are still excited to see me and still love me for some reason. I can hardly speak when I’m around them, though.

I’m trying to with the interviews again, too. Everything is so hard and I feel so dumb which just sucks because I know this all used to be so much easier for me.

But I want my life back. I want to be ambitious again. I want to live. I don’t want to kill myself.

Will the parts of me from before ever return? What can I do? Or should I just cope and live with this destitute self?”
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I want this to end
 
Only psychiatric drugs can left you with permanent disfunction and damage even with a short exposure, there is no other substances in earth that even if you stop and quit them you still have the effects days,weeks,months,years after or even for the rest of your life (permanent)

Only psychiatric drugs can do that, but yes, let’s blame weed..
 
I swear i had “friends” who had taken cocaine, fentanyl, MDMA, al sorts of drugs but none of these drugs left them with permanent effects, instead i only took 2 injections of risperdal and i still have effects, sympthoms, disfunctions, deficits, after 16 months and 2 week, but yes, let’s blame weed.

I can’t belive i have to kill myself because they left me disfunctional and agonizing, i can’t belive i swear that I have to suicide.
 
invegafuckedmeupmeow said:
pls someone tell me how to get that back
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there was somebody a long time ago who mentioned being able to feel coffee & meth again after using niacin. that it would bring back ur high. never tried it myself n idk if itll work for everybody but
 
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I can barely walk properly without resembling a fucking drunk idiot or something, this shit is pure hell i Just want to be sober again, normal..
 
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I heard marijuana helps alleviate the side effects of Invega Sustenna.



Unfortunately, marijuana is illegal in the country where I live.



Is there any medication or supplement that can produce similar effects to marijuana?
 
silenthill said:
there was somebody a long time ago who mentioned being able to feel coffee & meth again after using niacin. that it would bring back ur high. never tried it myself n idk if itll work for everybody but
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Niacin? Isn't that just vitamin b? I've been taking vitamin b for several days and i' m still the same.
 
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