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Cocaine - Hi! Very new to this world.. and a little older..

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JR1987

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Hello all,

I discovered this forum when searching around for experiences from people who are similar to me.

Brief introduction: Im 38, with a long term partner (fiancé), no kids, and have a healthy social life.
My close friends have been doing coke for around 8 years and I've got many acquaintances that have enjoyed it since their early 20's like most people.

I spent many years without any desires to try coke even when im drunk and out with people doing it. Just never felt tempted.
For some reason or another I decided to try it properly about a year ago and I enjoyed it a lot.

Over the past year I've started to do it recreationally at weekends when out with friends etc.

Part of me feels slightly embarrassed I started so late, although at the same time I know its probably done me a favour generally being more mature
and having a fully developed endorphin reward system before trying drugs.

But yeah.. Im just interested to know if anyone else out there started their dabbling later on in life and if there's any tips on keeping usage nice and sensible.. as im fully aware
of how slippery the slope can be.

Thank you :)
 
Hi welcome to bluelight!

Hmm nice and sensible..

Id think, if it started happening during the week I would start to be concerned.

But the question is very hard to answer.

I would be less embarrassed about starting late and more embarrassed about justifying the usage, honestly 😅

But you should not feel guilty at all.. just, as you said, remember that it's a slippery slope!

So yeah again, I'd say if it trickled into the work week
 
Hey welcome !

Better start later than earlier for sure , at least you already got some experience in life and your body and mind is fully grown up.. much better than doing it while still young and immature .

Yet cocaine is a viciously addicting substance but you seem fully aware of it and see your friends doing it since some time, it gives you some insight of what is it !

I started way too young and regret it but I am glad this is behind me now

Like @streaM Freak said if you start using during the week or alone that's when you might have to put some distances

Take care
 
KetWise said:
Like @streaM Freak said if you start using during the week or alone that's when you might have to put some distances
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Yes that too.

Others I've thought of that may or may not apply, potential discussion starters:
-if you start planning to use at a specific time, or looking forward to using on the weekend on a monday morning, I'd look deeper into why.
-if you start buy or buying more than usual, I'd look deeper into why.
-if you start admiring a new more confident personality in yourself and think that you somehow are "better" or more attractive, smart, ect on coke, I'd look deeper into why.

The very tricky thing, is being honest with yourself. Because cocaine has a strong tendency to manipulate us into lying to ourselves and others.

You seem to be thinking about it in a healthy way so far.. just be very attentive basically to any changes beyond what it is right now.

Because it becomes and issue once it becomes an issue, right? But cocaine is hard to reverse a destructive pattern once you notice you're in one.
 
JR1987 said:
Hello all,

I discovered this forum when searching around for experiences from people who are similar to me.

Brief introduction: Im 38, with a long term partner (fiancé), no kids, and have a healthy social life.
My close friends have been doing coke for around 8 years and I've got many acquaintances that have enjoyed it since their early 20's like most people.

I spent many years without any desires to try coke even when im drunk and out with people doing it. Just never felt tempted.
For some reason or another I decided to try it properly about a year ago and I enjoyed it a lot.

Over the past year I've started to do it recreationally at weekends when out with friends etc.

Part of me feels slightly embarrassed I started so late, although at the same time I know its probably done me a favour generally being more mature
and having a fully developed endorphin reward system before trying drugs.

But yeah.. Im just interested to know if anyone else out there started their dabbling later on in life and if there's any tips on keeping usage nice and sensible.. as im fully aware
of how slippery the slope can be.

Thank you :)
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If I were you I wouldn't touch the stuff it's just not worth it. Say you do take it and you like it then that's where an addiction can take place.
 
evo4ever said:
If I were you I wouldn't touch the stuff it's just not worth it. Say you do take it and you like it then that's where an addiction can take place.
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Yeah if we're being completely honest I agree.

Cocaine is so insidious.

The reason why I didn't start with that comment is because guilt can kick off a destructive pattern as well.
 
JR1987 said:
Part of me feels slightly embarrassed I started so late,
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With Cocaine. Feeling embarrassed doing it late in live, weird.
Toward yourself or other s ? First time snorting, feels odd OK.
JR1987 said:
and having a fully developed endorphin reward system before trying drugs.
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Alcohol is a Drug. so you tried drug s before, and its not just !
Its the deadliest drug. And the Endorphin system don t think it really stops at 38.

To put it in a little in perspective. Together these drug s rank as a very dangerous and unrewarding cocktail. With Booze that is also pretty standard. Some Coke to take away tiredness without impending productivity and interfere sleep to much.

The cost of weird cut s i ll leave out the equation. But overall after having had many other drug experiences before and after. A unrewarding drug combo. So common it s almost weird Coke ain t legal too.

There is no insight/ reward ime, 2 shitty drug s that kinda balance each other out.
Both provide a lousy experience at best. Not a combo i care to repeat.
There are better combo s.

Better stimulant s. Khat and even Ephedra extract rank higher imo.
Started late might be a advantage but with other drug experience under my belt.
i could compare it with other experiences, if that is a good thing ?

Drain s the wallet, and a fiend-ing substance.
Habit forming even in small amount s.
In retrospect.
 
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emkee_reinvented said:
But overall after having had many other drug experiences before and after. A unrewarding drug combo. So common it s almost weird Coke ain t legal too.

There is insight no reward, 2 shitty drug s that kinda balance each other out.
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I think a big allure for people is the social engagement and social confidence of the two drugs. Otherwise, yeah for a pleasurable experience, many better options.

Drink like a fish on blow; drunk then a line to feel sober - I agree that they nullify each other to an extent. And create a deathly toxic new compound in your body not to mention!
 
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streaM Freak said:
I think a big allure for people is the social engagement and social confidence of the two drugs. Otherwise, yeah for a pleasurable experience, many better options.

Drink like a fish on blow; drunk then a line to feel sober - I agree that they nullify each other to an extent. And create a deathly toxic new compound in your body not to mention!
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Most bizarre was the change of atmosphere when people are gonna do it.
This happened anytime but when i didn t use it felt out of place. Being present

Very noticeable. The sweaty anticipating vibe, people cramming together.
Hurry up give sum, gimme sum. Center of attention. That kinda feel to it.
Had that myself to when i did it so i can relate. But when you don t or have taken.
A stimulant, it weird seeing the drug taking as main point of focus of the evening
Everybody in the start block to relieve ... whatever they feel they are relieving.

Not my thing or scene, for sure. Not my DOC.
 
You've had top advice already here OP.

All I will add is this

Set yourself absolute and non-negotiable boundaries with the stuff. Things like never inject / never smoke crack / never use more than once a fortnight (or week, but even weekly is asking for it imo) / never use on a weekday or day before work / never use more than 1g in a session (even that's a lot, half a g should do if it's decent) etc etc

Then, if you cross one single boundary, just quit there and then. No second chances.

That way you should keep yourself safe...well, relatively safe as a single dose of coke can kill at any given moment regardless of drug history - and the stuff taxes our heart heavily (and our soul / consciousness /morality /integrity too, imo/ime)

Cocaine seeps into our being in an ultra-insidious manner. You won't see it coming and then suddenly you'll realise you've been in denial about aspects of your use for ages. Better still just stop now - terrible drug
 
JR1987 said:
Hello all,

I discovered this forum when searching around for experiences from people who are similar to me.

Brief introduction: Im 38, with a long term partner (fiancé), no kids, and have a healthy social life.
My close friends have been doing coke for around 8 years and I've got many acquaintances that have enjoyed it since their early 20's like most people.

I spent many years without any desires to try coke even when im drunk and out with people doing it. Just never felt tempted.
For some reason or another I decided to try it properly about a year ago and I enjoyed it a lot.

Over the past year I've started to do it recreationally at weekends when out with friends etc.

Part of me feels slightly embarrassed I started so late, although at the same time I know its probably done me a favour generally being more mature
and having a fully developed endorphin reward system before trying drugs.

But yeah.. Im just interested to know if anyone else out there started their dabbling later on in life and if there's any tips on keeping usage nice and sensible.. as im fully aware
of how slippery the slope can be.

Thank you :)
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Mate relax. You are not alone.

I have friends who have just turned 50 and are doing more drugs than ever or even starting drugs

It's like they are starting to live or realise time is an asset now

Or they are making up for lost time

Or they finally think who gives a fuck now

It's an amazing phenomen to watch
 
Hey @JR1987 welcome to the forums! Every 1,000th member gets a personalized greeting from THE @Keif' Richards I know you're probably star-struck and hyperventilating so just relax while I type.

You seem like a reasonable, responsible man. You have a stable life and seem relatively content. There's nothing immoral about having a little fun. The same guy who made it illegal was likely on Cocaine himself (unverifiable). When rich people do it, it's responsible, normal and not a big deal. When everyone else does it, well, lock up your valuables and block their number because they are Crackheads.

Although you are stable, you're clearly writing us for a reason. I'm guessing the pull of the Cocaine is starting to creep in and freak you out a little bit, You know that something is happening, but not exactly what and you need confirmation that you're both healthy and not a bad person. I can only do the former, though I picture you as a swell bloke.

When Cocaine cravings start creeping into your normal life, you have to pull back. There has to be a clear separation between times when it is appropriate to use or even think about Cocaine and when you can't. The first time you think "hey, maybe I should do some Cocaine before work just this once" or you feel the cravings overpowering your sense of self, pull back.

In these groups, there's often a guy doing Cocaine just because everyone else is, two guys doing it to dance and have a good time and another guy who is much more into Cocaine than the others despite appearances. To say "that guy" often ends up as an addict, homeless or crazy is not a stretch at all.

Cocaine is for weekends, really, one night a week is even too much, but hey. You don't buy more Cocaine after you run out. You don't use Cocaine by yourself or outside of your social group. You do not buy more than the last time. The thin line between right/wrong is easily muddled by Cocaine. All you have are these rules. You have to follow them and know that it is a big problem to violate them.

If you can do it once, you can do it twice and then for the rest of your life. Nobody who used Cocaine for the first time ever imagined they would be addicted to Crack, sleeping in the park, alone, not a single one; all sentient human beings capable of anything enslaved by a rock.
 
Fix it in your mind as a special treat. Not an everyday go-to. Don't start doing it every time you drink / socialise because then you'll be conditioning yourself to expect a hit of coke in those scenarios.
And never ever use it to 'cheer yourself up' when you're miserable.

The surest way to get into trouble with any drug is to use it as a cope or to come to regard it as a daily necessity.
 
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JR1987 said:
Hello all,

I discovered this forum when searching around for experiences from people who are similar to me.

Brief introduction: Im 38, with a long term partner (fiancé), no kids, and have a healthy social life.
My close friends have been doing coke for around 8 years and I've got many acquaintances that have enjoyed it since their early 20's like most people.

I spent many years without any desires to try coke even when im drunk and out with people doing it. Just never felt tempted.
For some reason or another I decided to try it properly about a year ago and I enjoyed it a lot.

Over the past year I've started to do it recreationally at weekends when out with friends etc.

Part of me feels slightly embarrassed I started so late, although at the same time I know its probably done me a favour generally being more mature
and having a fully developed endorphin reward system before trying drugs.

But yeah.. Im just interested to know if anyone else out there started their dabbling later on in life and if there's any tips on keeping usage nice and sensible.. as im fully aware
of how slippery the slope can be.

Thank you :)
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I took it for the first time on my 40th birthday. 44 now and I use it on nights out.

Not really doing it for me anymore tbh but it could just be rubbish coke
 
new2drugs said:
Use it to make a good time better, never a bad time good.
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This way if available legally seems a nice pick up. A bump here and there.
No involvement with Hooker s and there offspring. Greasy types getting:
Crack and Heroine.

They imo should legalize it. Restricted. But that way i would buy it use the way you describe. Once in a blue Monday. As nice pick me up. But i d still prefer chewing Khat.
Both very nonfunctional stimulant s that are mainly used as intoxicant s.
 
emkee_reinvented said:
This way if available legally seems a nice pick up. A bump here and there.
No involvement with Hooker s and there offspring. Greasy types getting:
Crack and Heroine.

They imo should legalize it. Restricted. But that way i would buy it use the way you describe. Once in a blue Monday. As nice pick me up. But i d still prefer chewing Khat.
Both very nonfunctional stimulant s that are mainly used as intoxicant s.
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It should all be legalised..all drugs
 
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