Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v11

[jrturp]

I don’t know, i only feel desperation, sometimes anger, frustration, are these emotions? But with all respect for you honestly at this Moment emotions are my last problem since my sympthoms are these:


Sleep
• Superficial, non-restorative sleep, with continuous awakenings.
• Impossible to sleep past 6AM.
• Unable to fall asleep during the day.
• Unable to feel tiredness.

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Cognition
• Memory problems.
• Problem-solving difficulties.
• Concentration problems.
• Trouble completing one or more tasks without forgetting.

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Perception
• Altered integration/perception of time (biological clock)
• Normal state of consciousness altered (sensation of being “high”/“feverish and dazed”).
• Absence of emotions.
• Blunted perception compared to normal.

(Diagram: before risperdal → balanced perception of past, present, future; after risperdal → narrowed perception, reduced presence in the present.)

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Sexuality
• Loss of sexual desire, drastic drop in libido.
• Almost complete absence of erections (flaccid, nearly nonexistent).
• Almost complete absence of orgasms (very rare, incomplete).

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Physical sensations
• Very frequent headaches.
• Strange sensations in the head.
• Muscular tension/rigidity.
• Total loss of appetite, partial hunger.
• No response to stimuli such as nicotine/caffeine.
•Tinnitus came out after 13 months

I don’t even care about emotion rn this is my last issue to think about, but i’am sorry you don’t feel them anymore, and idk How to help you or give you advices, idk even How to help myself.. These idiots Who did this to us should give us some real answers btw

I have a lot of the same symptoms - same cognitive issues, and muted hunger cues too. ADHD medication doesn’t work on me anymore, same with caffeine. I wonder how long it takes to feel substances again.

What’s different is I have a lot of fatigue and oversleep, opposite of you. Low motivation is one of the hardest symptoms to deal with since I can’t motivate to do even simple tasks.

Lack of emotions is the hardest for me because it’s really sad that I can’t feel love anymore, not even toward my baby. I love my baby intellectually, but don’t actually feel the emotion. Same with other positive emotions like joy, excitement, etc. I can’t even feel pleasure from eating ice cream.

 

[Deleted member 592205]

I have a lot of the same symptoms - same cognitive issues, and muted hunger cues too. ADHD medication doesn’t work on me anymore, same with caffeine. I wonder how long it takes to feel substances again.

What’s different is I have a lot of fatigue and oversleep, opposite of you. Low motivation is one of the hardest symptoms to deal with since I can’t motivate to do even simple tasks.

Lack of emotions is the hardest for me because it’s really sad that I can’t feel love anymore, not even toward my baby. I love my baby intellectually, but don’t actually feel the emotion. Same with other positive emotions like joy, excitement, etc. I can’t even feel pleasure from eating ice cream.

Sorry for what they did to you.. hope one day someone start a genocide against psychiatryst and persecute them and lock them into their own facility and give them these injections too. It should be a solution for a big problem of the human kind

 

[Deleted member 592205]

I’am just really afraid about they permanently damaged my brain because it’s not normal to have the effects of 2 injections after 15 months of discontinuation.. I feel that deep inside me that the damage is permanent, and i’am supposed to fall asleep but how i can if I think about that?

Someone should be relaxed when he go to sleep and not have to worry about his life being over, this so wrong.

 

[jrturp]

I’am just really afraid about they permanently damaged my brain because it’s not normal to have the effects of 2 injections after 15 months of discontinuation.. I feel that deep inside me that the damage is permanent, and i’am supposed to fall asleep but how i can if I think about that?

Someone should be relaxed when he go to sleep and not have to worry about his life being over, this so wrong.

I’m sorry you’ve had to suffer for 15 months, I’d feel the same way if I were in your shoes. I’m only at 4 months and think it’s permanent for me too. Time will heal though, it takes 2-3 years for some.

 

[Trueart2]

Watching Death Note. Enjoying myself.

 

[anonymoususer777]

It's pretty weird that you think a whole group of people are evil. I've heard people say similar things about white people just because some of us are extremely racist, but we know it isn't true, we are not inherently evil just because of things our ancestors did or white privilege or whatever.

I don't think your psychiatrist did it to ruin your life, he did it in self interest.

The whole group isnt evil. I repeatedly saw a pattern of evil, especially noticed a culture where every opportunity to destroy a life is availed, the psychiatrist was very shady, sinister, kept changing his story, before getting the injection ge said smiling " you have a great future". He knew what the drug would do to me, it was intentional.
There is evil in all races and i am very forgiving of most humans but some people are a level of evil that is unforgiveable.

 

[anonymoususer777]

In a few days it’ll be 5 months since my last shot, I’ve definitely improved and other people can see as well. I’m mostly worried that it’ll be a while until I can feel the effects of weed again though, I miss it a lot even though I don’t need to get high. I was still able to get high after my loading doses but it went away after a while which is what led me to do more research into invega as I thought it was a tolerance thing at first

What were your doses and number of injections?

 

[lukeflowz]

I’ve spent the day reading multiple versions of this forum and it seems that recovery is seems that recovery is the rule and not the exception. The hard part and bitter pill to swallow is that it takes time, perhaps around six months before there is a breakthrough of any kind. It’s a waiting game and one that is pernicious in that it consumes you, well it has consumed me. In the meantime during this hell period of waiting, most of us suffer from anhedonia- and because of this we are unable to enjoy our previous hobbies and adequately distract ourselves. This makes waiting that much more torturous. We can only hope as time goes on, we can slowly begin to enjoy our recreational activities again. From what I’ve gathered it’s going to be a wait of around 6-12 months before the average person sees any improvement and in the meantime we can support each other on these forums.

@raw banana I was wondering if your recent positive experience is still current. You are sitting at that point where one can expect early signs of recovery.

 

[Invegatorture]

90 mins ago I took 10mg of ritalin. I feel stimulated, not a magic pill but definitely feel something from it. A warm feeling over my body. This could be placebo but i feel a bit better nonetheless. Mixed with caffeine. Enjoying music more than normal. I was going to avoid meds but I thought fuck it.

 

[Invegatorture]

Also trying my best to quit cigs. It will only aid recovery. I've cut back to 3 or less the last few days and today I'm going to try not have any. Using nicotine patches.

 

[Deleted member 592205]

Also trying my best to quit cigs. It will only aid recovery. I've cut back to 3 or less the last few days and today I'm going to try not have any. Using nicotine patches.

You think I not recovered in 15 months because i smoke a lot of cigarets?

 

[Invegatorture]

You think I not recovered in 15 months because i smoke a lot of cigarets?

No. But I do think the amount you smoke is not helping. I think I read you smoke 20-40 a day? That's putting extra stress on your body when it could be using that energy for healing your brain. The more you smoke, the less oxygen in your blood.

 

[Deleted member 592205]

No. But I do think the amount you smoke is not helping. I think I read you smoke 20-40 a day? That's putting extra stress on your body when it could be using that energy for healing your brain. The more you smoke, the less oxygen in your blood.

What do you think honestly? I’am cooked since the effects and sympthoms are lasting for 15 months since i got only 2 injections?

 

[Invegatorture]

What do you think honestly? I’am cooked since the effects and sympthoms are lasting for 15 months since i got only 2 injections?

I will be honest. I don't think it's over for you, it is concerning you have not improved for 15 months but I still don't think it means you are cooked.

Everyone reacts differently to these poisons and risperidone may be worse than invega. There are also other factors in your case, that you were given the injections with "cold blood" and you were on meds before which *might* have put your brain into a sensitive/fragile state before being given the high dose of risperidone. Which could slow down recovery significantly. That's just a theory of mine.

Keep taking supplements and eat some wild caught fish if you can. I have hope for you and myself because I have healed from overdrugging and fucked reactions in the past.

Stay strong mate and keep going. Complain and vent if it helps. I know it's tough.

 

[Invegatorture]

Ok this is kind of crazy… but I actually feel better and it’s tangible and real. The weight of this stuff is getting lighter, I can feel it. I’m also starting to feel anxiety again and it actually feels good to feel it because that means my body is starting to come back online.

I know I’m always so negative on here but I feel like I’ve had a breakthrough just over the last couple of days…

I am not close to 100% at all, but I’m finally feeling like I might actually get through this… I think it’s just going to be a few more months of this. I think I might make a full recovery by next year. Maybe I can even start working by January. I’m feeling motivated to do something with my life actually.

It’s been close to 10 months for me. 290 days exactly.

This is fantastic news. You can make a full recovery from the seemingly impossible I promise.

 

[Deleted member 592205]

I will be honest. I don't think it's over for you, it is concerning you have not improved for 15 months but I still don't think it means you are cooked.

Everyone reacts differently to these poisons and risperidone may be worse than invega. There are also other factors in your case, that you were given the injections with "cold blood" and you were on meds before which *might* have put your brain into a sensitive/fragile state before being given the high dose of risperidone. Which could slow down recovery significantly. That's just a theory of mine.

Keep taking supplements and eat some wild caught fish if you can. I have hope for you and myself because I have healed from overdrugging and fucked reactions in the past.

Stay strong mate and keep going. Complain and vent if it helps. I know it's tough.

Tonnight i had a dream about that girl i’am in love with, she had a leg mutilated, his face was changed in his lineaments, she was really sad and she was screaming “they took away my consciousness from me” while his family was around her trying to comfort her.

There was a memorial for the consciousness “they” took away from her, and i reached her and hugged her and i was trying to support her. I tought she had a bad bike crash and this is because she lost his consciousness and got his leg mutilated and his face was changed.

But i dint asked her what is happened, i don’t know why i dreamed that, it was a vivid dream, really vivid, it left me in shock..

Anyways today is the same bad day for me and its even bad compared to the norm, always torture again..

 

[Invegatorture]

Tonnight i had a dream about that girl i’am in love with, she had a leg mutilated, his face was changed in his lineaments, she was really sad and she was screaming “they took away my consciousness from me” while his family was around her trying to comfort her.

There was a memorial for the consciousness “they” took away from her, and i reached her and hugged her and i was trying to support her. I tought she had a bad bike crash and this is because she lost his consciousness and got his leg mutilated and his face was changed.

But i dint asked her what is happened, i don’t know why i dreamed that, it was a vivid dream, really vivid, it left me in shock..

Anyways today is the same bad day for me and its even bad compared to the norm, always torture again..

I read your messages and I can see how much you are suffering. I was there with invega. Not 15 months but 6 months. It was so dark. I had no hope because I had an acute dystonic reaction to the meds and I truly believed i was permanently damaged. So I understand your pain.

It's good you are dreaming at night, i know your sleep isn't great but it's something. A sign of some rem sleep. Which I think is very important for the brain to recover.

If I had to put my money on it I do believe you will improve eventually. I have so much hope for myself and others due to my experiences with anitpsychotics. Especially if they eat a lot of meat, fish and dairy. I believe in the carnivore diet and I have always recovered fully. Hot baths as well to increase blood circulation.

 

[Invegatorture]

I totally understand tho why you and others on here don't have hope. These drugs are truly evil. All you can do is take each day one at a time. Moment to moment, and do anything you can to distract yourself and fill your day.

 

[Deleted member 592205]

I totally understand tho why you and others on here don't have hope. These drugs are truly evil. All you can do is take each day one at a time. Moment to moment, and do anything you can to distract yourself and fill your day.

Yeah i know.. it’s just that my time since last injection start to sound a little serious now.. 15 months without recovery it’s seem a red alarm to me

 

[Invegatorture]

Yeah i know.. it’s just that my time since last injection start to sound a little serious now.. 15 months without recovery it’s seem a red alarm to me

I am not certain you will recover. I am not God. But I will say that if you do, you WILL have an aura and a level of self confidence that can't be faked. You said this before and I can confirm it's true. You feel unstoppable. And so grateful to be alive.