🌟🌟 Social 🌟🌟 What Was YOUR Nightly Fix? v. Smoking the Midnight Oil

[Sp4rky]

I didn't hole in a while since the last few times all felt very similar and empty, wondering wtf I'm doing taking drugs and getting all confused . In the beginning it was fascinating, also a challenge to come out hush hush and function again... But I realized that higher doses, esp. when shooting them, always gave me a bad headache and made me feel really poisoned. So I keep it down. Shooting K is but a very rare act of despair now. I prefer the lower doses, cause they still hit fast enough rectal and I get a still functional drunk feeling that wears off quickly enough when I let it. Never used it in a club cause I didn't go out in over a year

Ahh that does suck not being able to reach that fascination anymore, I have heard that quite often, tho I’m not sure what causes that exactly. Also why I’m trying to keep it an occasional thing in the same way MDMA becomes dull when done too frequently.

I usually only feel a slight bit fuzzy and chill the day after, but the headache is inevitable I fear with higher doses yes :’) This morning I do relate to the ‘poisoned’ feeling, coming down from the speed, the ket and kratom all at once was something for sure and something about that combination made my heart freak out for hours.

Injecting ket would fuck me over so bad, I can barely put away my drug paraphernalia before the dissociation sets in when snorting it. At least I still am somewhat functional at first even though clumsy as hell, but I’d imagine that with shooting it up it would be seconds not minutes of being able to get in position for the trip

 

[Deleted member 554582]

150mg pregab morning,150-noon,2 paracetamol s 'cause still feels ill,will miss let's say 5 mg diazepam today...without good painkillers these benzos are not worth it at all I tell ya

 

[Coffeeshroom]

Evening blueworld

Lazy lazy day and alot of rest so know gonna be awake a bit tonight so..

19:00
10mg methadone
10mg 1mg clonazepam
0.25ml blue lotus ( why so early ? You 'll see)
Vew vape hits of live rosin cart and half a joint of Rotten rozay.

Just pastbwight now. Gonna rest till nine and then take 2g NSS p.cubenis

 

[Mushoku_Sensei]

Ahh that does suck not being able to reach that fascination anymore, I have heard that quite often, tho I’m not sure what causes that exactly. Also why I’m trying to keep it an occasional thing in the same way MDMA becomes dull when done too frequently.

I usually only feel a slight bit fuzzy and chill the day after, but the headache is inevitable I fear with higher doses yes :’) This morning I do relate to the ‘poisoned’ feeling, coming down from the speed, the ket and kratom all at once was something for sure and something about that combination made my heart freak out for hours.

Injecting ket would fuck me over so bad, I can barely put away my drug paraphernalia before the dissociation sets in when snorting it. At least I still am somewhat functional at first even though clumsy as hell, but I’d imagine that with shooting it up it would be seconds not minutes of being able to get in position for the trip

There's no real point in shooting it aside that needle-itch... And I probably had better shut up about it cause it got me itching a lot now.It's true that you don't have but a few seconds to get ready as it's basically performing an emergency anesthesia on oneself. I've come out of a hole still sitting in the same position on the bed, still pressing on the vein, on a chair still holding the syringe... Though I was never crazy enough trying to redose iv. I read some quite impressive stories on here and there's no doubt that K can be incredibly destructive when binged/ with chronic use, also accident -wise.

OT: It's relapse-day again and I just made a fresh K-solution... Feeling too fit to sleep though it's late...

 

[Gridlink]

OT: It's relapse-day again and I just made a fresh K-solution... Feeling too fit to sleep though it's late...

For some of us, relapse day comes around everyday. Tonight I smoked way too much methamphetamine and the shit was way too good. So I am gakked out but don't really want to take any Xanax to come down, so I think I'll just have 2400 mg gabapentin and get stupid. No, not just stupid, but lobotomized stupid. Anyone else say and do the dumbest stuff while on gabas?

 

[shreddedlettuce]

Ok here it goes.


slept from 5pm til midnight.

then smoked the rest of my Pink Panties
started watching Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas again and said "temptations be damned".

That didn't work.

2am 80mg Temazepam

I am still awake, but head is empty. Not complaining in any way.

Waiting on my re-up of Panties in like 3 hours.

No stimulants in my system.
I am just a freak.

 

[Mushoku_Sensei]

Ok here it goes.


slept from 5pm til midnight.

then smoked the rest of my Pink Panties
started watching Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas again and said "temptations be damned".

That didn't work.

2am 80mg Temazepam

I am still awake, but head is empty. Not complaining in any way.

Waiting on my re-up of Panties in like 3 hours.

No stimulants in my system.
I am just a freak.

Hope you could still sleep a little..

 

[shreddedlettuce]

Hope you could still sleep a little..

slept just fine thanks. (7am till 11am).

missing my Vyvanse, but only 3 days to go. (lol took my last dose last Friday (12th), so I need to be more responsible in future to avoid these times).

will "soldier" on.

 

[shreddedlettuce]

11am 1g Orange Runtz

12pm Horse Racing and gambling for the adrenaline rush

2pm Usual Codeine/Meprobamate (normal dosage for me not like yesterday)

?pm 1g Pink Panties

Ice Watermelon Vape continuously

5pm Showed a small profit from my degenerate behavior and gambling

Might smoke some more Panties later.

Stay safe everyone.

EDIT - My time zone internally is screwed so I just posted my day in this thread before I break my brain making a morning post and another afternoon post etc.................... oh fuck, this is the Nightly Fix thread.............ummmmmmmmmmmmm ok will update in a few hours to make it "kosher". lol

****UPDATE***

that didn't take long.... like 10 minutes after the EDIT lol

15mg Zopiclone to celebrate posting in Nightly thread and also for making a profit

 

[Mushoku_Sensei]

For some of us, relapse day comes around everyday. Tonight I smoked way too much methamphetamine and the shit was way too good. So I am gakked out but don't really want to take any Xanax to come down, so I think I'll just have 2400 mg gabapentin and get stupid. No, not just stupid, but lobotomized stupid. Anyone else say and do the dumbest stuff while on gabas?

I don't do stupid things
Edit: aside shooting K after all - but then I could sleep
But fr I never regretted NOT trying meth...

Today's menu so far:
25 mg dph
Cannabis Oil
BSO
Magnesium
100 mg Tapentadol
Blue Lotus tincture
Line of Kanna 10x extract
(Nicotine)

Yesterday that combo worked perfectly, today the Kanna got me sick once again and I almost collapsed in the hot kitchen ... Ig I have to stop eyeballing that stuff...
2nd edit: hello interactions - no more Kanna with opioids...
Jeez what a hassle, that really spoiled it

 

[shreddedlettuce]

8pm - 40mg Temazepam

+ More Panties

9:26pm - 15mg Zopiclone

- Only got 0.5g Panties left & have to keep it for tomorrow. - well that is the intention.

▼☻☼♪

How do you like my symbols?

Nite All.

 

[Sp4rky]

Tired as hell ughh, was going to stay off uppers for at least a week but man, I hate being fucking sober.

- 1x Tropical Cherry Peru joint
- 0,15g 2-mmc

Thinking about doing some kratom, but I think I want to save that for tomorrow.

So much is happening in life. Might finally be able to move out soon, need to keep my shit together long enough, can’t get caught by my family or else I’m never getting out I fear. Mmmmm will try to take a break from the speed & the 2-mmc the upcoming fresh week.

My speed tolerance could use that I suppose. Especially if I move out, cuz that means I can finally go raving again and ruining my MDMA tolerance with daily speed use and whatever is the last thing I want. Does anyone know more about speed & MDMA cross-tolerance? I’m trying hard to keep my xtc use very occasional, once a month at most and from my experience speed before xtc just dulls the lovely effect of the xtc a lot.

Uhh anyway shutting up, I’m so tired despite the 2-mmc, going to go sleep, good night y’all

 

[paranoid android]

2 7.5mg zopiclone

 

[Coffeeshroom]

Evening blueworld

Day done and dusted and gonna go off yo lala land soon.

20:00
10mg methadone
10mg diazepam
0.5ml blue lotus tincture

Just past ten at night now so just gonna finish off this night joint of Rotten Rozay and
Ginger and chamomile tea.

 

[Shinji Ikari]

300mg pregabalin+10mg diazepam. Once the Diaz kicks in I might vape some mango kush.

The weeds been making me anxious so far. Dunno if that's because my tolerance is low (which it is) or if it's the strain or if I'm just generally anxious atm. A little bit of both maybe. I also had a wee K binge last weekend which has knocked me off centre a bit and I'm meant to be packing for a house move and sorting out movers etc before the end of the week. Plus I've got the perils of starting a new job in a weeks time lurking at the back of my mind. Shinji doesn't do well with stress or change.

Well the gabas should take my mind off that for the evening at least. Watching blade runner and gonna eat some noodles in a bit.

Hope you're all having a wonderful evening

 

[Deleted member 554582]

300 mg Pregabs for all the day...nearly 20 days diazepam off...hand rolling cigarettes....a lot of food...it's not about addiction all this,but more about eternal battle between good and the evil...the substance is just a one door.

 

[paranoid android]

5 7.5mg zopiclone

Some pink kush

 

[Mushoku_Sensei]

Tired as hell ughh, was going to stay off uppers for at least a week but man, I hate being fucking sober.

- 1x Tropical Cherry Peru joint
- 0,15g 2-mmc

Thinking about doing some kratom, but I think I want to save that for tomorrow.

So much is happening in life. Might finally be able to move out soon, need to keep my shit together long enough, can’t get caught by my family or else I’m never getting out I fear. Mmmmm will try to take a break from the speed & the 2-mmc the upcoming fresh week.

My speed tolerance could use that I suppose. Especially if I move out, cuz that means I can finally go raving again and ruining my MDMA tolerance with daily speed use and whatever is the last thing I want. Does anyone know more about speed & MDMA cross-tolerance? I’m trying hard to keep my xtc use very occasional, once a month at most and from my experience speed before xtc just dulls the lovely effect of the xtc a lot.

Uhh anyway shutting up, I’m so tired despite the 2-mmc, going to go sleep, good night y’all

Keeping things occasional is a very good strategy imo. It's my target as well... Way to go Ig...
Can't say much to the stims in general as they don't do me any good. I found that even very little drains me a lot and the recreational value is never worth the time it takes to recover energy and muscle...

 

[Sp4rky]

Keeping things occasional is a very good strategy imo. It's my target as well... Way to go Ig...
Can't say much to the stims in general as they don't do me any good. I found that even very little drains me a lot and the recreational value is never worth the time it takes to recover energy and muscle...

Hmm yeah, with some like xtc it’s easy, because it’s not a very subtle drug appearance wise, but especially speed for me fills a hole for me in my everyday life like nothing has and keeping it occasional is so damn hard.

Even after the initial comedown and withdrawals, I don’t really get that ‘ohh wow this drug was holding me back and everything is more clear now’ feeling that I’ve had with other addictions (mainly my eating disorder)

For now just trying to use the ‘think of how good it’d feel after taking a tolerance break’ as some kind of harm reduction I suppose. At least weed has always been a wonderfully functional drug for me as well, so that gives some comfort.

 

[Mushoku_Sensei]

Hmm yeah, with some like xtc it’s easy, because it’s not a very subtle drug appearance wise, but especially speed for me fills a hole for me in my everyday life like nothing has and keeping it occasional is so damn hard.

I get that absolutely. Same with opioids for me

Even after the initial comedown and withdrawals, I don’t really get that ‘ohh wow this drug was holding me back and everything is more clear now’ feeling that I’ve had with other addictions (mainly my eating disorder)

I see... I (luckily?) do though. So happy the constant freezing is gone finally, but I'm already risking that again

For now just trying to use the ‘think of how good it’d feel after taking a tolerance break’ as some kind of harm reduction I suppose.

Yep, that was my motivation for the taper as well... But I also need to get myself back under control cause the addiction is destructive. Even before I was too badly hooked the use had a price healthwise and also socially... Functional drugs are as great as they are terrible... Slippery territory all over

At least weed has always been a wonderfully functional drug for me as well, so that gives some comfort.

The functional is debatable in my case , but it does help indeed.

I wish you luck with controlling your use. And stay safe!